wats the meaning to life

confused

2009-03-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

Sometimes given the space and time i feel like i'm in outer space here. there is nothing much that can be done nor anything that can be done. i'm only here for another sem whih this gives me a mix feeling. i fee lost... like a little child in this world. still wondering what can be done and what should be done. what can i bring with me and what i cnanot bring wit me. it seems that the answer is right in front of me. everything in this life seems like a dream. a chapter of my life is continous from the other on what effort that i put in. its like pieces of puzzle except that some part of it will never been seen and fade away after sometime.
someday somehow when time start to pass slowly in this dream like world here there is nothin that i can do except savour every single moment. the minute i leave this place then everything will be like a dream. no contact from outer space. what buddha said is right everything in this world is changing and there is nothing that i can do about it. nothing at all. memories will fade... nothing seems to be real anymore... but why am i clinging on to somethingthat would never be there? all my friends would leave this place by end of this sem and that is the memories..... i dono how much more memories which i want to create because to think is truely hurtful to think that i have to leave all this behind.... that is life i still do not understand... there is still so much to explore so much to see yet i'm confine in this mind of mine.... why does all this have to happen. wat is holding me back? why?
when everything seems to be coming to an end..... intoxicating mself with the pleasure that i get now does not help atall.... it makes the wound harder to heal or become pain...... this 1 year here is sort of like my best time in life and there had been so much things that i haddone which i would never had done before if i'm in kl..... alot of comfort zone is removed... i have to face the world alone......

Hi Mr Market

2008-12-01T01:17:00.000+08:00

playing in the stock market would be very new to all of us especially tthose that had just graduated and aspire to be warren buffet the second or george soros the second. the market it seems to me to be very big and often a complex and complicated place to be trading. you cannot much predict what is going to happen nor will you be able to use past pattern to predict what is going to happen in the future. if there is all this true and real stories about what is going to happen ths i guess that economy crisis would not had happen in the first place and that many poeple would not be lossing in the stock market exchange or forex and jumping down from the highest tower. what warren buffett say is really true. risk is only when you do not know what you are doing and this is not only in the stock market world it also happen in your daily life. what i realise is that stock market world and the life around us is all the same. it is just waiting for you to find out the connection in between and bring them togather. they are actually not as complicated as it always seem at first. like my favourite saying it is only hard when you do not put in enough effort in it. well let me give a qoute from the book that i had just read.it is taking about the market and it had suddenly enlighten me that the market is not at all that complicated.
" Ben Graham my friend and teach long ago describe the mental attitude towards market fluctuations that i believe to be the most conducive to investment sucess. he said that you should imagine market quotationi as coming from a remarkably accommodating fellow name Mr. market who si your partner in a private business. Without fail mr market appears daily and names a price at which he will either buy your interest or sell you his.
eventhough the business that the two of you may have economic characteristic that are stable, Mr Market's quotation will beanything but for sad to say the poor fello has incurable emotional problems . at times he falls euphoric and can see only the favourable factor affecting the business. when in that mood he names a very high buy-sell price because he fears that you will snap up his interest and rob him of imminent gains. At othe times he is depressed and can see nothing but trouble ahead for both the business and the world. Onthose occassion he will name a very low price, since he is terrified that you will unload your interest to him.
Mr market has another endearing characteristic he doesn't minf being ignored if his quotation is uninteresting to you today. he will be back with a new one tomorrow. if his quotation is uninteresting to you today, he will be back with a new one tomorrow. Transection are strictly at your option. under these condition the more manic depressive his behavior the better for you.
But like cinderella at the vall you must heed one warning or everything will turn into pumpkins and mice; Mr. market is there to serve you not to guide you. It is his pocketbook not his wisdom that you will find it useful. If he shows up someday in a particular foolish mood you are free to either ignore him or take advantage of him. but it will be disasterous if you fall under his influence. indeed if you aren't certain that you understand and can value your business far better then Mr. Market you don't belong in the game. As they say in poker," if you been in the game 30 minutes and you don't know who the patsy is, you are the patsy." From warren buffet...
very nice and interesting to read it sort of like enlighten me on the spot on what market is about and sort of reminds me on what i usually do when i play a game. in the online game there is always a market where you are able to sell your stuff. you are free to ignore it or take advantage of it. and the same thing applies here that people cant ake advantage of you too if you are not careful. you are the market and the market is you. there are alot of people around to sell things that can help you improve your damages and increase your defences (the same theory as in providing more wealth and also defending your wealth) anyway you can always choose to buy it or learn about the product and think about would it increase the price in the future or the price would actually decrease. but then if you are not in the game for a long time you would actually out of the game. you would need to start all over again to learn about the product that you are going to buy. apply it in you would actually study the price of the product the normal market price before you would actulaly go into it and put your both hand to buy.
lets put it into real life situation. in life when you were to buy something you would actually go around to shop for prices. assuming that we were to take handphone for example. we would actually go from shop to shop to gain information on what sort of model have what sort of function and what is the price of that particular model comparing it with another model and of course with another brand. then you would actually know roughly that if the model for that function that it is offering it is too expansive or it is worth to buy. this it the same for the stock market. but the information you would get would be from the financial statement which you would need to read it though to see if they are earning per stock is on the rise or not. gain a few copany and look through it compare it from the same company that is doing the same business or almost the same business compare the both of them and see. i think that would be the first step to actually know what is the price of a company before even you were to start buying the stock of the company. once you would know what sort of price the company would be at around what time then you would roughly know if the company is underprice or over price at that time. those are the time when Mr. Martket come knocking on your door asking if you are willing to trade this company stock.
There are times when Mr. Market have mood swings (as it happens guys do have more mood swing then females as it is scientifically proven) there are times when he is in the bad mood and it would offer prices that are up for grabs offers that is lower then the market value like sales. malaysia is having the grand sames now and some items might be under value. this is a very personal opinion as some people might think that the product is undervlue and worth buying and therefore would exchange the product with money. but this needed to be think carefully as there are some product even they are on sales they are just not worth buying. even if they are brough they are not useful and this will actually depreciate the asset capital as it does not help to earn or improve efficiency in daily life. when stock market is having depression it is almost the same as the store world wide is having great sales. but it is up to you to pick up your bargain as the value of the product would differ from one to another. study the product carefully and udnerstand the bargain that you are getting into for some are life time investment.
no matter what hapen the final desicion would still be yours. Mr market is only there to offer you with the option but you are the one who make the desicion. so when things goes sour you shall not point finger and say that mr market had con you out of your money. well the reason you would be con is that you had not study the product throughly enough to see that mr market is scaming you of your wealth.but anyway you would still learn from the scam that mr market had laid down for you to understand what you had gone wrong and learn to recognise it next time. (provided that you are not afraid from the last scam to do business with mr market again)
well of course like most marketter would be able to influnce you to do what they want you to do that is to buy their produt. they would be able to list a million good things about their product but if it is really good it is up to you to do your research and find out. do not let mr market influence you in your desicion but instead have your own opinion. and only if your opinion is the same as mr market then you can look into what mr market would offer. I think this would be very relevant to people who have compulsive buying behaviour (especially shoperholic) they should learn to see what they really need then only look out for offer that would enable them to buy the same product with the same usage for less the price that other people are offering. like that they not only able to save more they are able to buy more with the limited money that they got... yeah !!!!
of course in the game i only take onte on what is happening to my character job and what going on with other charcter job i would not be interested because i would not be buying the armour or the weapon that is other job is selling. but then if i were to sell other job weapon or armour i would need to gain such information. so always look into the business that you are relatively understands or expose to. it would be easier to study the product that you already know then to start all over with a product that you have no idea with. same with stock market look into the company that you had already know or being expose to. like that it would save the job of researching into them since you had already always been looking into their news and know what is going on in their company.

thoughful
Jasmin

what makes you can also break you

2008-07-22T16:11:00.002+08:00

Hi people i'm in my new campus in miri. actually it is a wonderful place. so people that are studying in curtin university i strongly recommend that you would come here to study. (infact it is cheaper then over there even though taking into consideration of all the living expense) so people i would like to announce for once I AM STUDYING IN A UNIVERSITY ALREADY NOT A COLLEGE.
well while waiting for my friends to come out from the lecture theater on the orientation breifing (which i'm not feeling guilty of skipping) i am sitting in the garden of wonderful flowers. there i saw the sand and soil and some solidified soils and also my itchy hands came to play with them and break them into smaller units. then suddenly i hit a hard solidified *rock* and i use my hand to pick it up. out of curosity i use it to hit on the hard concreate divider. the rock did not give way.
But after a few tries the rock did give way and parted into 2 parts and inside of it it is all just pure soil and therefore i concluded that this is a piece of rock that had been made up of smaller particle of soil and sand with the combination of the sun, pressure of the atmosphere and also the main ingredient would be the water that bring those thing togather.
Then i would conclude that the rocks are made out of all this solidified soil that had been under the pressure of the earth for a long long time at least a million of years to make it called a rock. (well maybe this had been long time known to man kind but forgive me for a late realisation as i'm abit less smart then the general population)
Suddenly a though struck me and i though about the wind and the sun and the water that is able to break a rock. Through this strong and extreame weather. those sun and water are able to break a rock.
Funny thing when i think back about it. you need water and sun and pressure to make such rock but you also need sun and water to break those rock. then that make me think again. if that is the case then what makes you would be able to kill you or split you into half for the case of the rock. What don kill you makes you stronger does not work anymore cause what does not kill you is just cause you are not made out of that substance. ( i'm already in my own world tlaking gibblish)
so i wonder if this theory apply to humans or not. human are such complax subtances that no one in this world are able to tell wat we are made up of.tisus that made up cells that made up organ that made up to a whole complex human. the one that are able to fend for itself, to think for itself, that one that always bully the weaker species. but come to think of it if say any part of the body that is not functioning the way it is suppose to function then it would also die off.
[people say that human are god greatest creation which maybe i will not agree to it.Human are just like rocks.with all sort of factor that combine at that time combining all sort of things evolving slowly from sand to some solidific rocks to rocks then to combine all rocks to become a great cliff. human would start from the microorganism to evolve slowly and surely. it would take a million of years to have a cliff to exsist and so is human.
looks like rocks and human have all the same thing in comman but the only difference is the subtances that are used to create. the same thing that create rock and kill it off (that is of course if there is life in the rock which allows me to use the word kill). i wonder if the same growing organism can kill us off maybe it can by creating cancerous cells other unknown to man kind sickness. with this i guess those that create us can be use to kill us off.
Wat creates you can kill you if you are not careful. i had presented my case and with this i rest my case.

wat if

2008-05-02T12:14:00.001+08:00

Today my parents had been to macau. and i'm left all alone in the house. it keep me thinking what happen... just what happen if anything happen to my parents what would i be? how would i live my life? would i be able to support myself and my sibling with all the college and stuff? what would i do. Or what happen if my parents decided that i'm big enough and they should throw me out of the house at this moment and what am i left with is just my bank book and some unit trust.
to tell you the truth i'm bad at crisis management i seriously do not know what to do. with me here writting i hope i would be able to think of something about it. Lets get started by writting down the comitment that i had.
1) college for me my sister and my brother
2) electricity bills water bills and etc
3) i'm not sure if my parents finish paying the morgage

what revenue had i got
serious i got no job no working experience i got nothing to tell the truth

so i'm facing a death end loads of expenses and no revenue generating... what am i suppose to do?
work? to earn enough to pay off everything?

lets look at the senario where my parents were to throw me out of the house
my comitment would be my studies
rental of a place to stay

revenue
non

i guess everything would have to start from square one.
i would need to work parttime for most of my semester and on top of everything i would need to break off every sem to work until i had enough money to pay off for my college fees.
if i were to work in any normal shop i guess i would be able to get about like say 1k per month. but if i work like say part time maybe i would get like 5dollars an hour depending on how much i work

so lets talk about school fees
revenue would be 1k
but for everymonth i would need to pay off the rental and food
say one month my rental is 300 per room
foor and etc i guess about 300 would be enough provided there is no luxury food
transportation to work maybe take bus which is like say 50 a month
expense would be 650

one month i would be able to save about say 350
my college fees is about 11k per semester how much do i need to pay if off. i need about 31 months to fork out that money. my goodness who would be able to pay my school fees is almost impossible to work and study at the same time without your parents paying for you plus the inflation and everything. my god i don think i would be able to survive

if say my parents meet and accident and passaway
expenses
sis college - 12000/year
brother college- 12000/year
mine - 13000/year
assuming that the house morgage id fully paid
bills - 300/month so is 36000/year
i haven add food

total expense a semester is
73000 per year
revenue- non
maybe at that time i would sell the car say 20 000
sell off the piano say 5000
sell what ever i can sell to survive the first year
maybe i stop studying and start working
brother and sis have to work for their own food
maybe with that we can barely survive
maybe i would move into a smaller house renting this house out

no matter how i count or calculate it just do not have enough to survive. parents are so important... seriously like an atm before we are able to be fully independent. which indepedent doesn't come with age but by the earning power thatyou have. with this i learn to value parents more

diet or no diet

2008-05-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

I been poudering on this question for a very long time. Should girls (as in me fat one especially) be going on a diet? What is a diet? does it had a defination of it. well according to wikipedia dieting means that control the consuption of food intake to control body weight and nutrient. Why do people want to diet in the first place. Lets look at the world at the developing country.
Recently there is a report stating that obesity is on the rise. And it is really a matter to be concern. because obesity can cause alot of health problem like high blood pressure, high cholesterol, diabetes and etc basically it is one of the reason why human die earlier nowadays. Well , that was meant for youngster like me like my peer group. Well the problem had been so bad that it is now about 1 in every about 5 kids are obese. haih... now lets look at the food consuption that they had. mcdonald for breakfast, mcmuffin for inbetween lunch and breakfast, lunch have pasta (cream base), tea have roast chicken and dinner we have pizza supper we have hokkien mee. woh that is alot of fat ain't it is not a surprise when such finding makes it way to the news paper. well as far as i am concern what i think is this. people especially in the city have earn enough to buy all this "nutrienal" food for their children and they want the best for them. steak and pizza have loads of minerals no douth about that but haven you guys heard about too much of anything is enough to kill anyone. what about the good old vegetable that grandma used to feed us with? "bubt my precious baby boy doesn't like to eat vege" right on target so parents don want to see their child unhappy. so the just feed them with faterning food. Be my guest and when your baby have health problem who do you blame? then it would start a whole series of dieting. well... too much food in this rich society poor little african babies where some have to die cause lack of food.
Some poeple diet cause of health problem what about the girls. yes i can see you smilling yes i mean the girls that willing to vomit out everything that they had eatn. the girls that would rather die then not taking the sliming pills. the girls that is competiting on who is thiner then the lamppost outside my house yes you. What is dieting to you then? to make yourself think so that you can wear all the glamourous night grown? Well people i been thinking really hard about this society and the thin girls. Well i been thinking really hard.if there no invention of mirror would you be able to look at how fat you are? would you be able to see how ugly you look. Well i think god had not invented mirror for this purpose. To me my body is just a container to put my mind in to help me do what ever i want to help me acheive what my mind want to achieve so why do i bother with the dieting if that is my purpose? does it matter on how pretty i look? does it matter on how thin i can be? well you see i once saw a old women which she has sagging boobs sagging arms and of corse sagging buttocks. i was thinking i would look like that one day and it would be 10 times uglier then how am i now. so why should i be bothering about my looks. what is important is that whatever that is inside of me that shines to the outer layer. if i were to concentrate on my inside out then no matter how ugly i am i would still be pretty cause of the value i had inside. right? but that is not what the society thinks nowadays. slim is pretty and there are like a million store outlets there only make size for really small people. and how about those that is fat people they don have much to wear except for over size tshirt. and that is so unfair to them. I do agree that 1st impression counts and seeing a overly fat people would not help much with the 1st impression and that is how people got their job in an job interview. so now what. what i think about contradict totally with the view of the society. should i diet or not?
should i be happy and contented with who am i? or i shall continue on my quest to be a skeleton before i was put to rest underground? somehow i feel this world that i'm living in always contradict with what ever theory that religion come out with. you should be happy with that you have. thank god for what you have. but the socety goes like you are not thin enough to be my friend. well wait till you are thinner before you come to my shop to shop for cloths cause you know what no matter now many xxl pants that you tried it just won't fit you. people wat do you think?

lost in confussion

2008-03-20T10:17:00.000+08:00

i recently feel that i had change alot... i dono why but i just feel that i'm not the gul that i used to be.. people change i know but for the better or worst only they know. but for me i feel that i had change into some what worst i guess... i can feel the changes in me and i start to think about what would i be like in another say 5 years time. i feel that within the time frame of just short 2 years (collage life) i had change so drasticly that i cannot believe it. there is good things that i had change and also the bad things. but of course like people say there is good and also there is bad. just that how you want to see it only when there is bad ther eis also good. there is just no other way. you cannot just keep the good and throw away the bad cause they come in the package.
i think the change started only recently maybe say since i join msc.. i feel that i had be less responsible over things already. that is not the image i want to potray to the juniors but dono somehow one way or another i don really care what is happening in the club anymore maybe that is why i'm less responsible. maybe this is what happen when you lost your passion for something which you really like and when you lost your passion everything just dissapear with it. lost of motivation to do anything.
i dono what is wrong with me but i feel that suddenly i lost interest in study. i lost interest in everything that i do. why is it like that. why had i lost interest? is it that i had lost the wheel that is moving inside of me? is it that i had lost sight on what is gona happen in the next 5 years? i really dono. all i know is that recently my head is bursting and nothing interest me anymore. this is one of the changes which i don want it to happen. i wish that someone would tell me what is happening to me.no one can tell me the problem why why is this happening to me? why....
what is wrong with me. i become so emotionless. last time i use to be so cheerful but now i feel so emotionless. nothing angers me nothing make me happy nothing make me sad. i'm just another walking machine which people think that i'm a high acheiver. can do almost everything that is assign to me. is it the msc thingy that is making me like that... if its so please tell what should i do. i do not want to continue to be like that. i want to continue to like that i study. i want to continue to get good grades. i want to continue to graduate with a distinction.....
i'm so lost and confuse...

lost in confusion
jasmin

final desicion

2008-03-17T22:06:00.001+08:00

finally after excruciating months of desicion(actually only about 1 month but it seem like forever) i had decided to resign from the Metro Student Council as a vice president(curtin) and i'm going to officially hand in my resignation letter on wednesday. somehow i feel so much happier about it. i just cannot wait till that time time just another day from today. well i had finally let myself off the hook of an ineffiecient lousy and selfish leader. people around me had always ask me why jasmin why had you not resign? why you can put up with him for all the silly things that this arrogant leader had put you through. well so after must discussion with my fellow friends i had decided to leave.
well not only that surprissingly alot more people had plan to leave.with this i would leave with another 3 of my member. we are not going to hand the the letter at the same time but then about the same time. it is about 4 days different but then again 2 on weekends and 2 on public holiday so it is like 2 working days. i dono how is he gona react. maybe he feel that he had fought a lossing battle but then again i had once and again told him about what i think about the organisation and he did never want to listen to me. why... why is this person capable of being a leader. why cause of luck i had such "great" leader. well, actually come to think of it i had regret every single day why i had not taken control of the whole thing. why had i land myself up in such a misery. he had not earn my respect but demand for respect. this kind of respect can never last and therefore i had lost all my respect for him in every single action that he do every single word that he said.
that day was the collage orientation night. well grats jasmin you had once land yourself in hot soup. well let me tell you about it. i had been there that day about half an hour late (because i had to buy something for the decoration) he had not said hi to me and everything i tried to explain why am i late he never listen to me. fine so be it. so i end up sitting down and drink tea and see what i can help. so most of the time i spend time in the student department blowing balloons and cut some stars and etc. he would be in bad mood seeing me there laughing myself out (jealous maybe to see that i had a great time doing things) ask me to go out to help out in the concourse. and there i went to help out and what i see is there is no work for me to do. and therefore i ask what can i help. they say nothing. fine then let it be nothing. i sat at the concourse for sometime and went back to the student department to tied up the balloon. after a while, he slam the door and came in shouting (ot my junior of couse he never tlak to me) why is there no one in the concourse to help out with the work! and therefore once again i go to the concourse to find alot more people ther doing work. lol... i wonder what sort of things is he playing but all i know he is not happy with me nor is he talking to me.
somehow one way or another i feel that he is intimidated by me. lol maybe he thinks that i'm a more capable leader then he is and his ego just let in the way. well, i had not come to take over his position he can hug to his grave if he likes but i just want him to know what i think about this organisation how it would work. and why i think that the way he manage it had not work. he refuse to listen to me. fine...but this is a massage to him
to my dear leader,
i had never one day never respect you as a leader. even though i don respect you but somehow i respect the seat. i respect you as a president(even though that is because the other person din't want the post) but you are still the president. you had not think for the benefit of the club but think for yourself. you had not think about your members but think of the convience for yourself. you had not learn the way of how the organisation should had work. let me point out to you what i think you did that make the organisation down and why i had resign.
1) there is no sense of planning in any of your project *you had never plan ahead looking into what you expect and work towards those difficulties that you think you would face. there is simply no reason for you to plan right cause you said once and i never forget it you plan we work. dear president if one fine day you were to find a sucessful company with has no future planing no goal and still work please do let me know i would love to learn from them*
2) you had no respect for your members* you had never respect your members place and space. you expected them to be there are your convience like last minute notice to a meeting and you expect everyone to be there. how can you be like that. with this you had drain everyone energy when recieving your message. do you think that everytime i recieve your message i feel so energyless. yes you should try. and if you found any company that don plan meeting in advance like say 2days before hand unless really emergency please do let me know i would want to try and see how they do it.
3)there is no goal no motivation *dearest president you had provided no sense of direction, no goal and if you want people to work like you plan they do it is no point so pointless. people here all learn to plan to see what happen if they were to do such things what would happen. you had not listen to the members idea or opinion everything is you say they do. do you think it would create a sense of belonging? it would only create a sense of slavary. if you can find any company that is efficient that treat their employees like that please do let me know*
4) you don understand the meaning of hierarchy *don get me wrong with this. this doesn't mean that i would not do anything that is below me. you said that you everytime ask for volunteer but again do you understand why the post is there for. there is certain job scope for that certain people to do. so when there is a work to be done we should refer to the person that is at that certain position. but if only and if that person is not free then only should you ask for volunteer. if my respected president would find a sucessful company have such way of working things out please do let me know.

this is my final confrontation. be it you listen or not i would still be leaving you as i know there is no way that i can continue working with you.hope you can gain something from this.maybe you think i'm just below you and therefore i'm opinion is not valid so my dear president it is your choice

with love
jasmin

who am i

2008-03-14T10:24:00.001+08:00

today i sitting down in my dinning table as i was playing some of the music and i think about the trip to indonesia that i had been. it was a wonderful trip but i think the best lesson that i had learn here is not that how beatiful indonesia is but then a valuable lesson that i had learn. well you see i had been to indonesia and on the 3rd day i had been to a ophanage. this is the place where the parents do not want their children anymore. I can understand how do the parents feel as they do not have enough money to take care of their children. but then as i walk in to the place i feel that the place is ver comfortable and that the children there are more lucky then the ophan here in malaysia. I was surprise that the children are singing happily while waiting for school to start. as i see the little children i see that they are slightly deform. be it their looks or mentally deform. so poor thing. the parents had left their children cause they are deform and maybe it would seem as a burden to them. well but they are happy there i guess. there are alot of nurses there to help out to take care of those little kids. so after our photo session we went to give out mcdonald to them and there were really happy about it. i though that i had done a good deed. but then suddenly there is someone said hey we need more help here to feed the children.
i happily went there thinking that i had humble myself. i went in i saw those poor poor kids hand tied up having some mentally disable. they are not able to fend for them self. not able to eat by themself and therefore they need people to take care of them. the whole place really stink of some smell which i dono what is it. i excuse myself to wash my hand and somehow i feel i refuse to humble myself to help that poor kid have his lunch. then i start to think i'm so lucky to be able to play computer games to eat by myself and to go out and play to have my own entertainment. who am i? what happen if one day i'm like them? who would help me? and i force my self to be back in the house again and started with feeding them. i choose a goy who is actually 22 years old (same age as me just for the record) but he seem so much younger. the other person hold down his hand while i feed him mouth by mouth of rice and i realise that i had done it i had humbhle myself more. then when suddenly i feel all so calm i and happy there is this boy fall down on me. and i got this thinking" bloody hell you cannot sit nicely is it, how dare you touch me with your dirty body, how dare you learn on my clean and nice hand." but then again as i was thinking about it i saw this boy not able to sit properly. then i slowly help him to sit up feeling that actually i had not done enough i still have a pride within me that i'm a higher class them those poor young adults inside. but then who are we. are we actually different class then them? sitting while thinking actually i think not. we are the same class a human class a class that is capable of thinking of acting on our own. but just because they are abit unlucky that their brain part is abit under develope that they have to rely on us (the brain more develope) people to help them to feed them to clean for them. I look around i see those nurses around. there are worth of my respect. they had taken care of those people day and night. cleaning them, taking care of them.
we actually as human should be humble and help those that are less fortunate. only with helping and seeing those that are less fortunate only we would feel that we are more fortunate then the rest of the world. only through this method that you would be able to realise how lucky you are and you would be more then happy to be who you are. you would learn to count your blessing then to count your short coming. if i were to be able to do such things for once every single month i think i would be the most happiest and the richest person on earth. happy cause i learn to count my blessing rich because i am able to do alot of things that other people would not be able to do. by that time, the latest model of handphone, latest computer, branded clothes, shoes and handbag is not important anymore.

with love
jasmin

bad leadership or my ego

2008-03-13T21:52:00.001+08:00

it had been about 6 months since i last became the president of CSO. I had infact is the last president of CSO as they (the collage) had decided to close down the club. well, the collage at first had problem to find people to continue the MSC (metro student council) post. which i think is hard for them also as our student is not relaly active. but anyway i had infact decided to go in to MSC for the benefit of my little junior which they would feel lost ( i think ) without me inside it. I feel like i would want to lead them to be a better student or person and seriously by joinin activity they can improve on it.
But then evenr since i had been installed as the vice president of the MSC i though that i would face new challange and find something much more fulfilling in it then in CSO and that i would be able to learn much more and develop myself much more then before, but i had never infact be really happy ever since i had join it. I had infact started to make enermy with certain people. i had been thinking really hard maybe if i can talk to the president (which is actually not the president that we had selected "long story") then maybe togather we can work out a strong club and run it like i had infact had in mind how a club would be. but sadly things don turn out the way it had. everything that he leader do it is last minute work and seriously i don think that such important club would work out in all this last minute things. but anyway he insisted that it would work. well ok we have it his way. in 2 weeks into my semester i had feel that he had drain me completely from my energy without feeding me with new challange without feeding me motivation without caring for me( and other poeple i guess). i feel so drain out so tired. everytime it would be last minute and everything would have to throw one side to accomodate him.
well he said that as a top student leader we must be committed. well my dear friend comitted i also have a limit as MSC is not the only thing in my life. i cannot be there 24 hours on stand by waiting for you to call for me. i'm so sorry thats the thing i cannot do. you had not respect me a single bit and therefore you don earn my respect. People inside there is looking at you as a leader they are expecting you to lead them to teach them things that they do not know and in return you learn from them. But what have you done your sentence is always in my mind"i plan you all do". Thanks alot that is just the type of leader that i need.
well listen here i had enough of you already. you can be wat ever type of leader you like but i can tell you that you are draining all your members energy without feeding them motivation. you would kill everyone inside the club. maybe you might see what you want to see now and think that the club is about you. but your ego of refusing to listen for the past 2 times (or maybe your brain cannot process what i really mean) will kill the club. but anwyay i would like to hand in my resignation letter tomorrow. may you accept my letter with grace. May i bless you to gain sudden enlightenment of how a leader should be. maybe you should take a look at some stories about leader.

We plan we lead
we gain credit we take the blame
togather we are a team
in a club there is no such thing as a solonist.

with metta
jasmin

leave our parents out of it

2007-11-13T08:58:00.001+08:00

well yesterday head line was leave the king out of it. today in one of the pages and so i found. PARENTS WILL BE RESPONSIBLE FOR THE CHILDREN WHO ATTEND THE DEMOSTRATION. well, yes parents are indeed responsible for their children action but minister use your brain use your brain. if the children were to attend the demostration meaning mostly also about 18 and above. well you see according to malaysian law when a child is more then 18 they are free just like USA. they have a brain on their own which most action will be their own responsibility. so leave our parents out of it if you were to plead to leave the agong out of it cause is the same theory.

oh another interesting news is that they want to catch those people to ISA for those that had join the rally. lol so much for democratic country. they say that it is national security. well i don think that is national security but then is more of their own position and power security. after all this that i had written over the past few days i only realise one thing is that our minister are so immature in handling things and the just want to cover up and wait in the dark hopefully that the comotion will pass and they would be happily gainning all the money that we as citizen had gain and use it to buy their super sonic jet to fly over sea unnotice.

government i dono what else to say about you guys. power hungary wolf. you can have all the power you like and the country will keep going backwards or growing at a minimum rate while your swiss bank is growing in double. all i know is that you are not capable of managing your country with a little blind power hungary wolf. if you want to do also make it not so obvious la. but you all too blind to see that people are starting to notice.

royal trap?

2007-11-12T10:20:00.001+08:00

today newspaper is talking about that the royalty is trap.. what does the prime minister talking about trap..what is the duties of the king. if i'm not wrong the king duty is to act for the people in the country to see that the government is working in proper and of course rule the country. inreturn we pay tax and to built their palace to give them abalone and shark fin to eat everyday to give them silk to wear and of course last but not least all the ferrari that they need to drive. though out all this years what have they done for us in return of this luxurious life? NOTHING! and all we ask for is a clean election this time. and the stupid prime minister say that this is a trap. would it be a trap i don think so i feel is the king job to act on people behalf. My dear prime minister if the king does not do all this work or you can say dirty job then who got the power to do so. maybe you took away all the kings job keeping the king in the dark and therefore you are the biggest and the most powerful person in this coutry and no one can say that you are wrong. eventually even if you were to make a mistake you would so cleverly cover it up and blame it on the opposition.

well coming back to this fair election. well up till now other then the minister blaming on the opposition that all this is illegal and everything and that they have created something that is bad and everything but then have they mention about the election? i had been reading for the past few days they had not asnwer any question posted by the opposition when the opposition can tell them that what they have done is not fair. all they ask is to implement something that would be better for the nation and have they done it? NO! instead they put the blame on the opposition saying that they got nothing better to do. well the step that the opposition request is already done in many country. if you want our country to be first world country why not implement it to take it as another step to better voting system. all this while the opposition can say where they had done wrong but had the prime minister state why is it fair. they did not bother to even check it out.this is the video on what the opposition want to do.

this is worst then i though. malaysian had became one of the place where is too corrupted for all this power hungary people and not for the benefit of people. they try to control our mind feeding us with information that they want us to know only and that they are all correct and that the opposition are all wrong. what ever is it malaysia since 1961 had not been a democratic country it had always been a dictatorship control by barisan nation. if that is the case why even bother to have election. just to for show. and if i want to take your vote in i count if not it would be as useless vote.

freedom of media? don make me laugh

2007-11-11T10:19:00.001+08:00

remember my previous post about our prime minister talking about freedom to media.. well lets see how free is it...as you have read my blog previously should have known that there had been a havoc that had happen in kuala lumpur requesting for a fair election. well today i was searching for the newspaper for the news of it and surprisingly it is not headline but is disregard as something that is illegal and everything and that the police had done well in controlling the situation. lol something funny i think. actually the more i find out about the country the more disgusted i am about how government do their work and how well their disgust the thing.
you see the government had done a very good job (yes i'm praising them) in covering the media they just want the poeple to see and hear about what they want us to see. and to tell the truth i don see what democracy that it has been. it would be non better then you know mynmar which is military country. well yes our government is guarding us as stirct as that.
younger generation you see things that the government want you to see but not the truth. in the first place if you believe everything that is written in the newspaper you have to check the reliability of the newspaper. but what if i tell you that our newspaper in this DEMOCRATIC country is not reliable at all. how would you react? you would say nay... they got freedom and everything but i tell you that you are wrong. lets see, if the news show nothing people would not know what is happening in the coutry right... you might say that there is this thing call the internet but then the problem is that if you don know that this problem exsist how are you suppose to find for the source in the internet.
i have no trust in the current government anymore.. they have control everything and it is high time that they change everything and that we have a fair fight with this only can the coutry progess. but again... i stress that our gorvernment are too comfortable sitting in their all power position which is actually equal to money and not doing anything much for the people. it is near election and the first thing that he said freedom for media had been voilated.. well... i wonder what will happen after election
just before election our prime minister had promiss to fight corruption.. well what had he done.. nothing and infact it become worst and it is happening under his nose.. show me some power some strenght in you. prime minister sorry to say but you are not strong enough to be our prime minister.

protesting

2007-11-10T21:10:00.001+08:00

lets continue with what i said the last time. lol freedom of media.. right... how many of you know that there is a protest in kuala lumpur and how much have they cover in the news... lol lets look out for tomorrow newspaper... i suddenly feel so proud as malaysian have suddenly stood up for themself. for the very first time. actually this dirty way of election have already been going on for a long time but then after years and years they are making it more obvious.
let me ask you guys one question do you think that the government now is fair? (not to me) do you know that our stupid barisan nasional had been dictitor for the past how many bloody years. if they want tio implement anything all they need is 2/3 of the parliment and do you know how many percent they have got the seat? well you see the opposition have gain so small position in the parliment and even if they do see something that is not right they cannot say that it cannot be implement cause those people will vote and ultimately yes what they say is correct.
people have the right to vote... this is a democracy country.. right on target but how much is democracy... let you view this video... please view it and let me know if our minister is right... are they power hungary or doing it for the benefit of the country.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qx_MTvhOLKY
this one is from our precious prime minister punya chan qik. he said that it is illegal and that it is they should not do it and that it is stupid and everything. well, before he made that statement does he even know what is happening inside..(maybe he does but just that he is too power hungary to lost the spot that is earning him million in his swiss bank oh and lovely boat plus a wonderful villa in some other part of the world not to mention his private jet.)He said that the election is fair. if it is so... can you please explaine to poor blind me how is it fair when so many things is opposing it... rather then insisting that it is fair. if it was so fair why don just go for that extra mile to make it safe for if you think is fair enough for you then make me fair for other people to see as well.
you see people have gather (10k actually) to have a peaceful protest just to give the memorandum to the king. what have they done wrong? all they want is a peaceful and pure and clean pilihanraya and is it just too much to give poor little us. and how they treat us... instead of looking into their system they spray us with chemical and water. lol that is how fair. how would other people look on us as a "fair and democracy" country. so fair so clean and uncorrupted we are.. well great.. just great
well here is flash news for you minister that i want to tell you guys... you guys are so immature so incapable to handle the country. due to everything that you all have done i'm so very disappointed with you guys. so much for building the tallest tower in the world so much for having first class facility so much for having things that other people can see but what happen if they look inside. you cannot properly manage the traffic light system. hear me now and hear me right... i would never vote for you this type of immature leaders and don worry you would not have to bother catching me to ISA for telling the truth cause i'm not gona be here for long. i'm going to a country where it has brighter future then here.

protesting

2007-11-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

election is near and it is obvious

2007-11-09T10:29:00.000+08:00

lol have you been reading the newspaper recently... lol yes it sound weird but i somehow feel funny when people say things that they obviously don mean it just to get to their "power"lets see what is the latest in the news paper... according to the star newspaper 9/11/2007 it said that malaysia is for all there is a few points which i want to point out.
firstly it said that religion is for all. if we want our religion to be understood let us "...." show exemplary behaviour by respecting other religion and their need. lol now lets look into the past there had been so many issue about it and what do they do about it. they had laugh about it and claim that they are supreame and that if you were to join their religion you are not allow to change back into your original religion no matter what is the circumstances. well is that what you call respect? if that was really respect then they should let people follow their religion and go back to what they believe and everything if in the start they had been into the religion cause of circumstances and not that they believe it like say got cheated by their religion ladies.. like to marry them just to found out that they had husband and wife and that is the end of you.. you are stuck in their religion forever and ever and when you die you be burried in their grave... is that what the prime minister mean by respecting other people religion and their need?

power sharing and merdeka. hmm well according to him, the country had been here for the past 50 years and its people must be confident in defending their freedom. well i would have been proud to say that i'm a citizen of this country but then i just ask myself. what have the gorvenment done for us? what have they give us. well they only gave our race cause if not it would cause a fight but its it really enough like say the quota system. well, you see i have been born and raise in this country but then does that give me special rights to certain things.. answer is no... we as the chinese have not been given certain right in things even though we are born here and that we are raise here and might even stay here for the rest of out poor life. you might think that is only fair when other people don get anything also right. but what about those people that come from indonesia and all they have to do is just to stay here for say 3 years? and they get a citizenship and best part they are not born nor raise here and they get special rights. how would you want me to feel proud of such system.. yes and i'm so proud that the mistery are so blind to see..

new media and press freedom... lol how much freedom do they want to give us. well they are the one that is controlling everything. if and just if the press were to release something that is real but then is not something that they want us the citizen to see what will happen? the next day you would never see the paper again. righto... how much freedom we have... do you know why you only see barisan nasional news and not seen any opposition news... oh wrong maybe you had but just that all opposition news are bad news and that all the barisan news are good news. people are so ignorant that they only see what is happening in the paper but cannot really see what is really hapenning.

what ever. they can say what ever they want but i had already seen alot of the truth and the truth make me sick. this country is not for me to stay.. it has no future and it and so much so for a leading nation (yeagh leading for all muslim country cause they are all so backward). call us go back china... good tell you seomthing china economy is growing so much faster then your country. and if all were to leave you country economy might not be growing as good as you think. and the next thing you know you might become like your best friend indonesia.

my parents love me

2007-10-14T22:05:00.000+08:00

today i was angry with my parents for very small reason. i was angry at her for toying me around by fetching her to here and there and actually it defeated my purpose of buying just a hair gel. i going on nagging that it has been a big deal that i had went through all the trouble going to ss2 and line up for half an hour to get wat she wants.. nagging that why she said that she can go help me get the things that i want but have to rush home cause she is cooking something. and i was feeling angry and acting like a child. i was so confident that i would not talk to my mom for a long time. i throw temper at her and scolded her for doing such thing to me.
come to think of it after i was not angry is actually a blessing that my mom is my mom. my mom had supported my through good times and bad times. there are times where i was angry at her for no reason cause i was under alot of stress and she got me barking at her for no reason and she was never angry at me. but she understand me and take me under her caring wings.
Nevertheless my dad was the one bring money into the household but then my mom is the one that had been always there for anything that i need she had never never bear any grudges against me but always forgiving.
after that afternoon incident she went out at night to buy me working shoes which cost about Rm149. is not the price that matter is the comfort that i have. i look at myself reflecting at what i had done and i feel so so bad. i had throw temper at my mom for pratically no reason. she had been so selfless so great that i can't help feeling that this is the type of mother i want to be. so much so for studying buddhism, so much for teaching little kids that their mother is brahma for all of us. what had i been practicing? i had not really appreciate my mom at all..
mom i'm sorry i'm really am for all the times when i acting childish, for all the time when you try to understand me but i just shoo you a side i'm really sorry. i love you mother.. i promiss to take care of you till the end of time.

very down

2007-09-27T12:23:00.000+08:00

recently i dono why bt i do feel very down... do not ask me... it is a holiday but somehow i feel that going to collage might be better... recent i also do not know
Holiday is like rushing off to finish your work and i have a pile of work that has not been touch and i know that i'm in trouble... i don want anymore... i want to give up my president place is too much pressure... it is killing me... i had no support from anyone... i do not know what to do... i do not know if i can build the club... where is my spirit of building the club... i understand the pressure that matt had gone through now... feel like crying but no place to cry...
I wonder where are my friends... why why it seems like this 3 months i got no friends... where have they gone? they do not want me anymore? maybe... maybe i had never been a good friend to them... so how? i got no friends...
I want to give up... give up my homework there is almost no way i can finish my work... i'm tired down by so much responsibility who is gona help me? is like alot of authority but again power come with great responsibility... who is gona help me... i dono i think no one... they might seem to look at me like i can handle anything that falls down... but can i? i'm just a normal human not a super individual there is a limit on what i can take in... and i think i take in more then what i can handle...
my relationship... i'm so confuse... maybe is just me... got a bf like no bf... so far away.. far far away... just want to try something different like having breakfast and i got all sort of complain like say being force to wake up this early to come out... force... lol what a word force to come out see me... complain of lousy breakfast... complain of everything that is there... complain that he will be sleepy... i haven seen him for whole week and i know he is busy... just wake up 1 hour earlier does it hurt him... just be with me for one hour does it really does that kind of hurt so much... i dono what to do anymore... it feels like there is no support from him...i'm supporting myself and him as well... i'm carrying 2 weight on me... can i handle it... can my body handle it... he said i don understand him but how much have a find out about me... my recent responsibilities... have he even ask about it.. have he even try to help me out... answer is a clear no...
i want to get away... go shopping... one day just me and some girl friends... but once again who is free... no one... i guess i'm the only one free in this world... i don feel like doing anything so get out of my life...

i dreamed to be a doctor

2007-09-26T12:22:00.000+08:00

since when was the last time i went to a hospital. a very long time ago.... so long that i don remember the smell of the place, the people rushing in and out, people linning up to get their medicine. its been a long time since then... So long that i forgot why my ambition were to be a doctor when i was young.

Still remembering the time when i was so young i was so small and thin that everyone that see would say that how come i'm this thin and was even scare to carry me up for breka ing my bone. My fate when i was young was horrible i had to go to the hospital every 3 years to do some stiches. not that it is meant to be like that but coinsidently the accident happen every 3 years. Still remembering the time when i stay in the hospital for the whole entire 1 month for breaking my arm.

During the time there, i saw what i wanted to be... a pretty doctor that would help people off their suffering. to help people that is in need my help. i want to go to those places where there is lack of medical facilities and everything like that to help tho9se that in need of my help.... its been a long time since i went to a hospital..... its been a long time since i remember why that was my first ambition.

nevertheless i never stop at helping people and i was thinking in the start that if i cannot be a doctor i can study medicine and create medicine like that people would also need me and i can help alot of people to stay alive... slowly i realise that i'm not fit for any of those and then i come to my mind that i would want to be an engineer. but then i always ask myself. what can i do if i be an engineer i said:" i can help those udner develope country to bring them the benefit of modernisation." therefore i wanted to study that. slowly i went into form 6.... and i realise that i cannot be an engineer..... i ask myself why in the first place i wanted to be an engineer.... answer come out and then i wanted to be an accountant not because that is most appealing to me but cause my father as an accountant for many years would be able to help me in my future.

Today once again i step in to the hospital smell the medicine smell, see the people rushing away to get all the help they can get and once again i realise my ambition when i was young. this is what had motivated me to be a doctor. but now... i'm studying accountancy what can i do to help people..... what can i do.......

All this years i had slowly forgot what i want to be and the reason why i had that ambition.... slowly it had been wash away by the fact that i'm not smart enough in one way or another and also the fact that i need alot of money in the fuiture to keep me surviving. And slowly my wish of being who i want to be when i was young got wash away........

links

2007-09-22T13:34:00.000+08:00

up dating my links....

i miss you

2007-08-30T22:56:00.001+08:00

i miss..... i miss.... i miss

1) my times during in form 6
2) yuen and gang
3) my old school friends (from 5)
4) the times when everyday in school doing nothing but telling jokes
5) the times when i got no homework
6) the times when i had a standard uniform to wear
7) the times when we bluff the teacher and laugh about it
8) the stupid things that the guys in my class would tell the teacher for the mistake they had done
9) the "creative" way to con the teacher that we are not in class
10) my school teacher

but what i think i'm gona miss in 2 years time
1) my collage
2) everyday wear jeans to school match with a slipper
3) organizing event
4) everyone in student department
5) study days is only 3 days while working days is 5 days 9 to 5
6) my CSO gang
7) my free time to blog

Things i would never miss
1) canteen food (yuck)
2) homework

i guess thats it... guess i had more things to miss then not to miss... haih... but one thing for sure i will not regret...

thinking
jasmin

since last year

2007-08-30T22:39:00.000+08:00

it is actually quite motivating to know that someone will be here in my blog to read my post to be here eventho i do not have time to do any posting.. its been a long time since i been to my blog and thanks... you have actually motivate me to move my blog again...
Today is the eve of Merdeka day i got no plans no place to go not cause i got no one to go out with but it just jam everyway and i been abit burn out since the last few weeks and i need a good rest. today when i was driving home i suddenly realise what day it was... it was the day i broke up with kiat (one of the break up) it was the day when i do not have transport home after the collage celebration.
think about it is only like 1 year the time is so short and its like i had gone through so much... just so much that it don seem like a year...
a year ago i'm just another newbie in collage
a year ago i'm just a member trying to climb to the club top
a year ago i'm just another girl in the streets
a year ago i'm just another failure in study and love
now is everything opossite
now i'm a senior that been respected by seniors and junior
now i'm a president of the club i been trying to climb
now i'm not just another girl but a girl with more confident
now i'm more mature and know how to handle people
now i'm creating events not only for college but also inter college event
now i had pass 9 of my 24 subject with flying colours

seem so much had happen yet so little time... i wonder what will happen to me next year 30 AUG 2008

Maybe the intercollage event was a success and be back by popular demand
maybe i get a scholarship
maybe i will be a president of the MSC(bigger now)
maybe i be slimer
maybe i will be more mature and respectable
maybe i get a job offer
maybe i get to go oversea
maybe i will be engage
maybe i have 2 kids
maybe... maybe... maybe

somehow now i believe that anything is possible
events help people to grow...
time help people to think
i wonder..... wonder.... how would i be in another year time to come....

being the president of a social club

2007-08-21T22:34:00.001+08:00

Recently i had been elected as the vice president of one of the collage biggest social club Curtin Student organisation. And it is really a eye openner. I had been in this club for about 1 year and the best part about it that i had learn organising skill like no other. trust me it is not like anhything you organise in school cause it is more complicated and also more hands on.
I took on my first task as in to do the orientation and also the induction day. it was really a hard work thingy cause i don really have much experience on doing things like that and the president is not really keen on doing things like that and so i had to manage evrything myself. Let us start with the induction day.
The induction day was the day when all the new curtin student come in the first day of collage and as a student organisation we were suppose to bring the student to =get familiar with the collage and also to know new friends. there fore this time to spice things up we make things into a competition. There is get to knoe the collage place competition and there is also prizes. hahahah it is ticket for 2 (each) to starlight cinema...nice huh it is worth about RM36 per ticket. But after all the planing and everything i was abit disappointed about how things were work. there were less people this in take and everything have to change from the way the thing works. Trust me we have to due with the lack of man power as well... But again this is a student organisation it should b the biggest club in collage right? Yes is right but would it be funny if i tell you that the biggest club in collage have onnly about 12 people and not all people are commited to it. But anyway i would cansider that the induction day is sucessful as we get to warm the student up with us.
Then recently 10 Augs we had the curtin orientation night and i was well heading the thing. I think with the effort we put in it was suppose to be the best event in the entire semester. we had alot of people sign up about 50 of them and you know what only about 30 come and i was so so dissappointed with it. really! haih but then again i thnk i would have to get use to what is going to happen in all those event that i create cause i must learn that metro student are not as active as other collage student haih. but again the prizes are really good and the activities are really good. trust me all those that turn up really have great fun.
The student department once again had ask us to come out with another event. haih with respond like that who need another failer event even no matter how hard we put in our effort. But then we come up with a good idea that is treasure hunting in subang parade. nice idea right... ahhahaha it is original (at least it is to me) anyway you want to know what is the prizes. 1st prize it might be a stay in genting with theme park ticket.. hahahah 2nd prize would be gold class cinema tickets... the price is nice right. but because i know that metro student is very not active i plan to open it out to other collages as well. that is why we cannot have this now we have to have it next sem. the price would be RM20 per team in collage and mayb RM25 for outsider. hahahah that would be darn cool man.
so that treasure hunting thingy would be for next sem this sem we would have a visit to Digi and i'm letting my new board members handle it cause it is nothing much like call up Digi (actually they invited us so is only follow up and preparing transportation and also put up a date) but there would be testing organising skill. My next president ( i think he is) would be doing it. Anyway ya it would be soemthing that he would need to learn. hahahaha
Work.. haih not easy for me to handle as i got weekly assignment and everything is killing me. haih... but still alive and copping. anyway i would continue later now time for homework....bye people

with love
jasmin

being the president of a social club

2007-08-21T22:34:00.000+08:00

Orientation

my debat

2007-07-30T13:48:00.000+08:00

Hey people sorry for not posting for a long time... hahahah actually i got alot of thigns that i cna post it here but then is just that i'm pure lazyu.... anyway sorry to those people who been constantly checking my blog. but from today onwards i would start to post more blog you know why?

Cause my collage have a really nice and new resource centre which i would make full use of it... this actually means more time online (without game) and which it actually means that i would make almost full use of it... hahahhaa posting blog is also another way to make full use of the resources that is place before me...

Recently i been back from this inter collage debat... this one is and inter school between collages that is under inti group ( inti subang , inti nilai, inti sarawak, inti penang and metro.

Basically this competition have about 18 teams joining it and the best part is 7 of the 18 teams are from inti nilai...

So at 7 am on a saturday i went to collage to start my journey with my group members and friends to inti nilai. thank god that the weather was good.When we reach there we saw alot of expert debaters which look so scarry (hahahaha we would have expected to be kick out from the very first round and be home about 2pm and be just intime for the starlight cinema which is chowing devil wears prada...) but then it looks like we are wrong be it if we make it or not we have to stay for 3 round.

So the first motion was release and it reads: " this side of the house would legalise eutheneasia." basically mercifull killing la... we are the oppositoin and you think that we got a strong case right... wrong because of our lack of experience and first time of course we lost our case. (they rest their case) haih that was so dissappointing but then we did learn alot from this debat. we learn that we need to organise it more and learn how to "wipe" the opponent better.

The second motion is :"this side of the house agree to gives the tamils a homeland" HUH? right you are blur right,. that was my first reaction also... hahhahaha nothing beats the blur question. anyway our student department guy told us about it(his general knowledge is really really good you know) hahahah anyway this motion is actually talking about the incident in sri langka where the Indians are fighting for a peice of land for their own... hahahahah and there it goes..
as we suspected, our opponent do not know about what does it mean by this tittle and there it goes by me saying :" my dear misguided opponent, it is not talking about indian not having any homeland because they do have one in india. this is tlaking about the incident in sri langka which the indians there are fighting for a land on their own." and this started of my side of the debat... but anyway we won.
the 3rd motion came out." this side of the house propose to withdraw all troops from iraq." and we are the government yeah!!! seems like an easy topic but then again the opposition able to convince me that they should not... but i told myself no.... people have the right to be independent... this are a few things that i had rebutted..." wat do you mean that this is not the right time to do it... then when is it the right time? 20 years? 50 years or 100 years later? may i ask my dear opposition when is the right time if we don start now.next the second speaker said that the troops are there to protect the rich resources of iraq.how sure are you that they are doing it. how sure are you that they are not there to fight for the rich resouces." Stun (opposition and whispering all around) ."
Then the opposition said" we are helping them not giving them more things to fight..POI(my member) "if you were to help them why don you bring in a group of marketters, accountant, scientist all the professional people? why bring troops with weapon? " the judge laugh our loud"good point". The opponent stun and choose to ignore and continue with her speech.
I said" you said that they were not capable of protecting their own self not being able to create their own governemnt. then what are they before the troops are in iraq... THEY ARE INDEPENDENT." Stun.... hahahha
basically... this debat is so much fun looking at all the stun faces.... we got 3 rd in the end... and best part we get to wipe people officially from their points... kudos... hehehehe

exam is here again

2007-06-01T20:33:00.000+08:00

the horrible monster is here again and it is eating me up in the inside. lol exam. haih i wonder how would i fair this time. the teachers are putting hope on me passing with high distinction. what would i hgave expect of myself? would i expect less then what the teacher are putting hopes on me. i should not. then why am i not studying? i'm lazy... i'm tired... i just want to slp...nothing beats sleeping.
right so i'm abit confuse now on my status and everything me and my ex seems fine like we were togather but then the fact that we are not. haih hack it la is too much thing involve to think about i would rather sleep the next option is to study for the exam. i think that would be good enough.
surviving... jasmin must survive... and she will... be stronger than she should be..

surviving
jasmin

aim for the star not the moon

2007-05-21T20:43:00.000+08:00

Aim for the moon if it fail it will land among the star, have you heard about this sentence before?
the first time i heard this sentences it had given me great motivation. Cause if i aim high then if i don get the outcome that i want at least i still won't fall back so much.But again come to think of it the sentences is not so correct scientifically. you see as anyone who had study science would be able to tell you that the stars are further then the moon. so how can you fall back on something that is further to you. you have to fall back on something that is closer to you right? so, you should not say that you are to aim for the moon and if anything goes wrong you got the star to back you up. you should say that you will aim for the star and if anything goes wrong you have the moon to back you up hahahaha. now it sound so stupid. anyway, even though so this sentences is not that important in my life. what the most important sentences that i ever heard in my life is this winner never quit and quiter never win this sentence had actually keep me fighting for a while. i almost give up on my study, my life, my extra cocuriculum. it actually had make me to who am i now.
the theory behind it is very simple. a winner will never quit a quiter will never win. if someone quit there is no chance for the person to have even 1% of winning therefore quiter never win. winner never quit is using the same theory. no matter how hard the road, the journey is don give up and eventually you will be the biggest winner in your life.
so people... keep on fightint cause the biggest enermy that you can ever meet is yourself. you are your own limitation you are your own power. it is all depends on what your mind thinks, what you want to do with your life. mind power is a very powerful subtance and it can differenciate you as a pauper or a prince it is all in your mind. so people remember.. winner never quit quiter never win.

thinking very hard
jasmin

breaking the line..cut cut cut

2007-05-11T19:24:00.000+08:00

haih it has been 1 month since the breakup and nothing seem to register inside me.

well, i dono did i do the right thing of just letting it go or not. but i guess it doesn't matter anymore. rice already turn to porradge.

so much had happen to me for the past one month including all my exam. surprisingly with what had happen my result still stand up as one of the top.

i dono what should i write nor do i know. somehow i'm confuse. i'm so angry at him yesterday cause of what he said. even though he said that he was sorry but i guess it was not enough. punishment. yeah punishment. i punish him is like punish myself.

maybe i should just leave. then it would be the better for both of us. but i would still miss his hug, he buy things for me and wait for me at the bottom, when he buy soft toy for me to his voice when i get upset or angry.

but i guess i would just have to live with it. i dono would it be my lost or his lost. in the mean time i would just live....

confuse and upset
jasmin

prom night

2007-04-30T09:30:00.000+08:00

lol people i'm finally back to where i belong in my blog. hahahha this time i got this interesting topic my first and ever first prom night (a round of applause please) hahaha anyway it happen on a friday night and this is the process of getting ready till i'm ready till i'm done. it all started at 1.30 which i have to leave for collage to get my make up and hair done. i went to natalie grandma house to change and dada this is how i look like.

at least before my make up lol

Then we went to the salon and the guy(kenny) help me with my hair. well lets take a look at my star wars hair do.

do i look like the princess in star wars. hahaha

then after my hair is all done with the star war's thing kenny help me do a hair do and tata i look wonder full

how is it? nice? hahaha i feel is wonderful

next will be my face turn for the wonderful make up. take a look at the top picture before make up and i transform into.................

well what did i tell you people what did i tell you. i look wonderful right. lets compare with the top one. i look wonderful.

see who i meet during the prom. this is a very very important people. this is the curtin dean all the way brough to you from australia.

and a few lecturer all the way from curtin.

this are a few of my friend in prom enjoy the picture.

shawn and gary my favourite CSO members.

my CSO president and...........

my vice president hahaha...

my other friends that came to prom with me, make up and do a wonderful hairdo as me...

tata this is natalie and cheryl yippy. they look as wonderful as me.

then other friends.

welly from indo. hahaha

how about seeing my wonderful law teacher...

that will be all folks. lol i hope you all enjoy the picture as much as i enjoy the night.

ciao

love jasmin

updating

2007-04-13T12:56:00.001+08:00

updating the skin i hope you like my new skin name wishing upon the shinning star

presentation

2007-04-13T12:02:00.000+08:00

so i have join the toastmaster club for a few months and i find that it is very very interesting.It definately have improve my self confidence my ability to talk infront of the public and etc. I think that this is very important because we will need to speak infront of the public no matter where we are. be it when we are having friendly conversation, presentation in collages (university), presenting to your boss. I realise that tru my this toastmaster i have a better communication skill with my parents(asking for increase in allowence) and also in my day to day conversation with my friends.
here are few pointers that i would like to share with you guys for your presentation. i hope that it will help you.
1) stand still and try not to move around while making the points.
This is important because if you figet around people will get very impatient with your presentation. it is ok to move around but not too much.
2) if you are having a presentation slide make sure that it has not too much words. It is already better to write your speech on a paper then on the slide. because people will not have enough time to read everything on the slide while listening to you talking. if they can read everything on the slide why would they need you to tell them about those thing that they can read? (people will find it boring and frustrating if you flip the slide before they finish reading)
3) Next the most important in all presentation. prepare your speech(everyone knows it) MEMORISE at least the 1st paragraph of the speech. at least this will help you over come your nervousness at the begining of the speech and when everything is on track you will be able to gain confident.

with this 3 pointers i think is enough for you to make a great presentation. heheheeh good luck ba.

regards from
jasmin

qing ming

2007-04-02T20:45:00.000+08:00

lol this is the best qing ming i ever had. hahaha but the sad part is i forgot to bring my camera so there will be no picture for you guys. hahaha you all might think that it is just a cemetry and nothing much in it right. but you are wrong. i was there watching the sunrise watching it rain also the wonderful "senery" seriously if you don take it as a cemetry there will be a wonder senery as my grandpa grave is at the top of the hill. hahahaha.
anyway to watch all this i have to wake up at 6.00am and i'm thankful for it cause if not i will be stuck in the jam for amybe about 2 hours before i get to visit grandpa.
hahahah we went there and there were alot of food t0 eat we have to pay respect first then we got fire cracker. Actually come to think of it right qing ming is much more merrier then chinese new year. my cousin brough back 2 fire cracker which is quite long ( except for the fact that there are aloter ppl's cracker longer then ours by like 3 times)
anyway i have to rush home later cause it was very late and i got exam tmr(which is today).
my exam? wonderful and thats all i will say... i need a rest i'm sick so tata

exam? so fast again?

2007-03-30T08:55:00.000+08:00

Exam people.. i'm having exam but unfortunately i'm not as relax as i used to be maybe because the subject that i take is getting harder..
I would like to say sorry to simon cause i cannot attend your birthday party and i don quite remember why i can't make it. oh ya i remember that was because i was not feeling well. anyway happy birthday again big guy. hahahaha
nothing much that i can say just that recently i think i have been playing online games abit too much and i think is time to concentrate more on my study. what you say people? haahhahahaha this weekend i will be going back to johor for ching ming and what i wanted to do badly was to start at home and study so that i will not do badly for the midterm exam (because according to the boring teacher: " you must score for your mid term because the final will be very hard. so you should get about 30 over 40." right i will take her word for it and hope that i cna get about 35 over 40. yes gambate!!!
recently my dad ask me when i'm i free to go Bangkok with my parents. I think awhile and say next next week i got a mid sem break which is only for one week. ahahahha nice right but then come to think of it i told him that " i cannot go la cause i got exam clashing togather and those 2 subject require alot of energy and concentration" so sad meaning i have to miss a trip to bangkok. haih so my parents are bringing my brother along. but anyway at the end of the day when i get better result it will be much more worth it then going to bangkok. I guess..
Law is taking me by storm. I really really hope that the effort that i put in can score me a distinction. I have not much wishes now only wish that all the subject (except for marketing) to get distiniction or higher. I used to have wishes to get all subject to high distinction but then when i come to see how the subject can fair i really really feel scare that i can't even get a distinction so now i have lower down my expectation.
anyway i think i need to do my work now. I might put up a popst about qing ming later ba. if not maybe talking about exam. hehehe bye
muaks

hak sam (black heart)

2007-02-24T19:44:00.000+08:00

Finally i'm free to write my blog about chinese new year and things that happen with it. hahahha be patient i know you are curious about the title and i promiss that you will read about it if you stay with me. anyway my chinese new year is the usual of balik kampung, collecting ang pau, eating all the bak qua and not to mention the soft drinks hahaha but again i don think i have gone fat infact i'm trying hard to keep myself slim and fit (kononya) so i have not eat or drink soft drink that much. anyway the new year always start with the reunion dinner at my grandma place. let me show you a picture of her

isn't she old. she is about 90 years old anyway and she still look like 70. some people just look so young.

while preparing for dinner (cutting and washing the vegetables) this is wat we found...

a black heart vege.... OMG how horrible... The picture is to show what a normal heart and a black heart look like

this make me think about life which they say so much about you so hak sum one ah (you so don have a heart) so this is what a hak sum look like. some thing which do not have a heart and its empty black. so ugly.

and so they say if you want to know if the vege heart is black you must cut open the vege heart. if you want to knonw if the person heart is back you must have some event that make you see the real colours. and so well said

what happen if i'm a handicap

2007-02-13T21:51:00.000+08:00

i was reading a book about this girl that has brain damage and trying to leave a normal life. she look quite normal but have problem with prounciation and also and been tryin hard to have a normal life(not the one she had before but maybe i normal stable job that would not let other people into looking down on her). while reading this book i been thinking about alot of things that is happening around us.
nowadays in today sociaty there are alot of people that are handicap. lets say lost sight, lost of legs, born without hands. alot of accident of illnesses that can make people into handicap. i personally feel sad for them but can't help feeling pityful. reason that i feel pityful for them and their family :-
1) no matter how hard they try they cannot fit into the normal life that we life in.
2) no people will be willing to employ (cause they douth of your abilities and also all the leaves you have to take your medical reason or so they think)
3) feel very humilated when people look at you one kind when you go inside the shopping mall with a wheelchair to help you.
4) there will be problem to even go out because of the infrastructur that is not handicap friendly.

imagine i am a handicap maybe say having problem of walking.i cannot imagine that this disaster happen and it will probably be the end of my active life as no people will be willing to employ. i just hope that this country can find ways to reach out to handicaps and give them all the support that they need. people should not shun people with disability but give them chances to shine. they are disable physically but not mentally. they too need a job to motivate them and a reason to life a chance to let them lead a normal life

personal opinion
love
jasmin

yeah finally exam over

2007-02-13T14:34:00.000+08:00

exam once again have rule the life of a student and me as a student of course exam are my worst night mare. but then again i need to go tru them to be who i am and to get a degree and people look at my "impressive" resume and then smile and look at me say "you are hire" how happy can that be at that time. i have decided that i need to study constantly and not procrasinate at the last second(maybe last week before exam) and i can have a good night sleep and even if the night before i did not study i think it would be just fine. hahahah i have finish my finals for contract law and boy i';m i ever so relieve but i think that the theory of contract will have to live with me for the rest of my life.
Today i finally realise that i have to sign up for the timetable for next semester. hahahah and too bad i realise that they are changing the time for certain subject and they DON'T LET ME PASS THE FORM UP. as a first year student i guess i have some time alone with more time on the computer (games) but i guess that i do not have time for it. i have sort of arrange the timetable and trust me it is a hugh mess. i have alot of thing that crash togather just because i'm taking 2nd year subject togather with some first year subject. I think if you hear my timetable you will cry out loud. wednesday will be my busy busy little day where i have classes after classes, lecture after lecture and the marathone start from 8am and it will not stop untill 4pm. yeah and that will be my wednesday for the rest of my semester life bohoo hoo..
but i think it can't be that bad after all cause is only hmmm 8 hours of non stop studying for ONLY ONE DAY. if i were to count the days i had to stay in SCHOOL 6 HOURS A DAY LESSON AFTER LESSON CLASS AFTER CLASS FOR 365 DAYS (maybe not so much la minus the holiday got hmmm 200 plus) i think i'm lucky to be in collage (i should learn to count my blessing) after all what is a wednesday (right?) *just cross your finger for me that when they rearrange the timetable they do not clash with anyone of my subject (i just hate to miss classes when one class means so much to me {in terms of $ and knowledge for final exam } ya)
today is the end of exam and therefore i should reward myself with a big afternoon nap and also a nice dinner and movie (not that i deserve it or so my parents think that i play too much even exam period).

signing off
love
jasmin

chinese new year is here

2007-02-11T15:46:00.000+08:00

Firstly i do not see the reason why i need to change to this new blog is not like it have some enchance feature that i will use as my blog is quite plain ( or so i think).
New year is just around the conner ( yes i know ) and i think i start to like shopping. lol not that i got alot of money to spend but then i think i like new cloths. hahahahah anyway i think i have done quite a fair bit of shopping with my mom. lol yes almost every morning in pasar pagi. hahahha wait no the quality of pasar pagi shirt can be quite nice? i'm not bluffing plus the price is not that cheap either hahahha. one of it can cost me up to Rm 60. but then again i think it is worth it because if i go to the shop in 1u( the one that i go almost everytime i'm on a shopping spree) i think one of the would cost me about rm 100 plus plus and then my heart will ache alot. lol. I think i have done with shopping except maybe a skirt that i need. lacking of skirt because earliest years i develope a disliking of skirt. but then now i think that they can be quite nice.. and also i need a nice long black pants. (very hard to find a pair of pants that can cover my long legs with abit extra) hahahaha so thats my new year shopping.
actually exam is just on tuesday and i do not have that much mood to study( no, not the reason that valentines is around the conner, infact i do not intent to celebrate valentines day this year. it is just too costly. those that agree say I agree!!!) I'm having contract law for summer and the whole thing was like 5 weeks (including all the holiday) the whole course was like so so fast. is just like a blink and its exam (again unfortunately). but i thank god that i got the brain not to take 2 subject ( actually it started with i want to acheive high distiction that is why i choose to concentrate but now i know that is almost impossible to cope). hahahah and also i thank my parents for the strong foundation in english that make it easier for me to understand the language at first reading. ( if my english is terrible i might need triple the effort and fortunately that is not necessary)
Valantine's day is on Feb 14. and i'm not going anywhere not because i got no one to date but then is just that all the restaurant are charging double(or triple!!!) suppose to charge.Thank god that my bf got me as a gf ( a future accountant ) and i will not buy anything unless i really calculate it and its really worth it hahahaha. anyway ya i'm that unromantic plus is valentines everyday if you treat your partner well. it does not have to be that specific day when all the tauke choose to cut your thoart even though you are obviously still student and living on your parent's expanses.lol...
actually i think i should put some picture in my blog it will make it all the more interesting but then again as i mention above that i'm lazy. hahahah my parents brough a new camera (at last) but then i have yet to install the software so i should not pluck a camera in the computer untill i have successfully install the software.
i think i have change alot due to my education (education do change people ) i become more aware of what happening around me (now that i study contract law) i have learn to be very very careful with people and dealings and of course of what i say. trust me the last important deal(buying the camera) i think the sale person find me very irritating. hahahah plus my mom ( the irritating twins) my mom keep asking for them to give us free gifts while i keep asking them to write down what they have promiss us and of course SIGN THE THING!!!! the sale person say ok ok wait wait i going to do it. wait ah. hahahah poor them that they have meet the IRRITATION TWINS!!
i think i would have to stop writting now as it is about 4 and i think i would be going out to eat dinner. hahahah i might wear some old cloths that i have "lost" in the cupboard for a while and i just can't wait to start wearing my new shoe and clothers.

love
jasmin

exam

2007-01-31T16:48:00.000+08:00

haih exam is coming for my summer course. haih i dono if i can handle the whole thing or not i do hope that i can get high distiction for this subject cause i'm just taking one. i guess i need to take some time off playing games and do more of study.

haih here goes again very feel upset and frustrated about things and i don know what is it. i wish i know or maybe is just normal mood swing. i just don like people pushing me around and ask me to do things everything. one task after another like i'm so free and got nothing else better to do and all because that some body does not like me playing game. haih really hope that she will stop the bloody thing about game.

my dad got a new job. hehehe congrats dad and i think that is a good one. i really hope that he cope well with all the new people in the new company and everything. hahahaha i think i'm going to buy him a gift to put at his office table to make him have better people relationship and also focus more on work. love you dad muaks

welcome to M'sian road driver

2007-01-26T20:14:00.000+08:00

today i have drive on the road and it is one of my rare time and it is even rarer that i drive on peak hour. there are alot of things that i see and i really find that i really do hate M'sian driver they are not ethical and rule. Firstly to start my "exprience". I stay in Bandar Utama and it is already so so jam coming into one utama. From far i see the jam and you know what the main reason? There are 2 buses park side by side making a 3 lane entry into 1 lane. heheheeh those buses know that they are big so if they park there it will take up one lane each and they park side by side... how considerate. around of applause please.
next i come to ss2 i as a good driver get into my lane early. And i realise that my lane is barely moving so i went to the next lane and change destination. when i reach the place to see the problem you know what i saw Drum roll please. 1 lane turn into 2. People are rushing to get home and so am i but since their grandfather own the road they get priority and they are moving and the people at the right lane are not moving. Wa those people are really great they really got a influancial grandfather.
Then i come to the junction where there is a BIG Yellow box which means that people are not suppose to stop in it because they will jam the traffic coming from the other direction. You know what? the more you say don't do it the more they want to do it. so people can see is jam and they jam it even futher by stopping in the middle of the yellow box blocking all the cars from the other direction. War of the cars. Just cause of one car it make all 4 direction jam. Congratulation you got the attention fit for the star with all the horning.
One more thing i do not understand about m'sian is why horn at traffic light. Is there a point that i miss? Traffic light is sensitive to sound? maybe i should check it out. You are at the back of the line feeling all frustrated when everything is jam up and the traffic light just turn green but you are not moving cause the front car is not moving (can't move) is only commonsense that you cannot move because there is something infront of it. So by horning does it make all the car disappear and the light green and you can continue with your journey? The great magician act(teach me how to do that sometime later) if it don't whats the point of horning?Thanks alot it's alot help into contributing in noise pollution and making everyone more frustrated and stress.Right on Target.
So Malaysian.... welcome to the reality of what is happening on the road. welcome to m;sia

updating

2007-01-24T21:00:00.000+08:00

just to update my blog skin please give comment ya maybe there are something that i have not finish. i try to dfinish it up asap. thanks

jasmin

today again

2006-06-10T13:08:00.000+08:00

today i dono why i feel quite down but then haih after a nice yoga i guess i'm fine.hahahah today the yoga teacher say i'm good in class maybe that time is jus wat i like to do all the lying down and streach.hahahahah pulling the back and everything.
my mom today is not in good mood cause of her bussiness is not going that well.haih and she have to pay some money back but then again she don want me to worry about it so she din't say much.mommy i hope you are fine soon.
later i having a gathering i'm quite nervous cause this is the first time i did such thing but then the respond is very bad but haih i see how about it and see how many people turn up.i jus hope that pizza hut can fit us in.

long long time ago

2006-06-04T12:40:00.000+08:00

haih its really a long long time ago since i write anything in this blog.looks like i'm getting lazy day by day.anyway, the other day i went for this teakwondo competition (not that i'm taking part in any of the competition cause i'm too old but i'm going there to teach and watch other people fight) lolz anyway i think i did my best and well my team won 1 gold 2 silver and 1 bronze.lolz all on sparing(fighting) hahahahah i did not have the gut to go in the ring and fight cause i'm scare that i will be injured by other people hahahahah wat a great black belt am i but hey i'm a peace loving creature.but haih i'm taking my exam end of this year hence i got to train more and also fight with other people.i guess i'm not really that fit anymore.
anyway talking about yoga.hahahahhaha i'm still into yoga and my mom commented that i have lost some weight i think i have not lost any weight cause the number on the weighing scale still look the same to me.hahahhaha i think it had shape my body up abit more.despite the time that i took some effort to lost some weight but i give up all the same.but hey i'm not that fat i'm jus errrr chubby and cute...
well.... nothing much for me to say i'm still someone that has nothing to do at the moment while everyone else is busy with their own uni or collage life.haih i still don understand why am i wasting so much of this precious time.maybe is time for me to think that i can do for this few months errrr maybe this year.hahhahaha
nevertheless i think i need to continue my piano lesson.hahahahah and i think i got to go for my teakwondo lesson already.bye bye

hihi

2006-05-19T21:57:00.000+08:00

sorry people for not bloggin but then i been busy recently lolz. anywa thanks for the comment

just for fun

2006-04-21T22:04:00.000+08:00

hihi this my pic when i'm eating my fish ball lolz.just for fun

2006-04-19T09:49:00.000+08:00

once again i'm here to blog without anything to do at home.haih actually i think i'm starting to get bored of my job.lolz anyway i think that this one is the longest job i hgave ever done.lets look at my list of employment.

TGI Friday ---- about 2 months
Fish and Co --- 1 month
Secret recipy --- 4 days!!!!!!
PDI --------------1 month
Yuk Chai (teacher) -- about 2 months now and still teaching

lolz look like i like this job better then other but then i have not try office job maybe it suite me more.haih talking about this job i have alot to complaine but i got mroe to gain. alot of communicating skill and etc.it taugh me alot of presenting skill and preparation which i think i need it alot of my future undertaking.
haih but those kids only know how to bully me they talk while i'm talking (now i'm getting the taste of my own medicine) and draw on the board while i was teaching and alot of problem.i have send 2 kids to the office and eventually they become good for errrr 2 periode which approximately about 1 hour.lolz then after that you can see them acting like usual. kids will forever be kids and i admire them cause they live at the moment.like say if anything happen to them this moment they will be sad but later you will see them laughing and forget about the bitter moment.so nice. but still i shal punish them bitterly cause they are naughty.bleh
sob sob my phone is spoiling and i need to send to the phone hospital soon.then the phone doctor might need to operate on my poor poor phone.and the chance of getting it back is only 50-50. haih the other day i try to buy a new battery and they tell me no more already.haih in know from the start that they don come out with this model anymore (antic) but they din inform me that theydon come out with that kind of battery ma.haih got con again.
anyway recently i think myself as someone that can get con very easy by friends or anybody on the street haih don ask why i don want to talk about it anymore.next time when i meet stranger i will shut up and don blif completely what they tell me.haih anyway i think i got to go soon already i need to go to work (again) haih.meet you all next time.bleh lolz

jasmin signing off

crappy

2006-04-05T10:35:00.000+08:00

lolz nothing much to say except for my job.anyway i might be going to phuket in may lolz.cause my dad is going there for some golf and his friend's brother own a hotel there so maybe we can get some cheap cheap rate hahahaha.anyway for my poor sister she can't follow us you know why? cause she got her a levers exam at that time.haih poor thing. my daddy can't cancel the thing cause it also involve his friends.so too bad sis.this time we would just have to do without you.lolz i'm evil you see minus your fun.

hmmmm i'm already in my 3rd week teaching class 1j and i get to know them abit more and also get to grow abitmore attach to them.lolz anyway i think i quite normal for a little boy for gul to have a crush on their teacher but then i think this little boy going abit off track.hmmm i would just have to tell your mommy you naughty boy.hahahah

other then that nothing much my dad went to hong kong and will be coming back today.yippy!!!! heheheheheh i finally get the computer to play my games.hahahah.lolz other then that if i find anything to tell you but mostly i think will be after my trip to phuket then i will paste it in my blog.
lots of hug and kisses.
jasmin

a day at mines wonderland

2006-02-26T09:10:00.000+08:00

yesterday we make a trip to the mines wonderland.Yahoo!!!lolz. we started our trip at about 2pm and we errr lost our way abit i think.hahahahha anyway we reach there about 3pm and we had our lunch and walk as the thing only start at about 5pm.
so at about 5pm we buy the ticket and start to walk in and errr this is so quiet and no one is around us.lolz the music serounding is all disney song from the little mermaid under the sea to marry poppin supercalifagelisticespealidociou.lolz nothing much in the day time but then we saw those lighting which i think it would be very very nice at night.lolz and we were praying that it would not rain as the ticket are not refundable and also there is this musical fountain which is that main attraction lolz.
at first it was really really boring but then we keep discovering things to look and time really flies.hahahahahha so at first we went to this ice craving thingy.hahahah when we went in they give us a jacket only!(tough luck i'm wearing a skirt which leave my leg expose) and guess wat the jacket they give me is errrrr tiny longer then my skirt but hey my skirt aint that short i guess is must be a over saiz jacket.at first we went in it was all dark and we wonder wat is it.nay is not that we ment to go and see it was just some painting on the wall about underwater world.lolz and it was realy wonderful (if i was not so scare of the dark).those jelly fish and whale and etc were really real hahahaha and it was nice.and then there is a door saying that i was about to enter a zone about -10 to -15 degrees.hahahaha we entre at first it was not that cold (or so i think) the jacket really keet me warm.err my legs are freezing itself off but who cares i mean like they are walking and naturally they will keep themself warm or so i think. but anyway the carving was wonderful you should really visit it yourself.hahahah there is a underwater world full of fish and whale and turtle carving which was wonderful hahahaha.then the next section we went to this chirstmas world or so i call it.there are carving of reindeers,snowman eskimo and yadda yadda.really nice and i think my ear are getting abit pain frost bite i guess.then the next carving section are chinese culpture which errr things like na zha and alot of funny things come out.hahahahha kiat wanted to stay inside longer but i just rush out cause my ear is getting really pain and if i stay inside longer i might need to cut my ear off.bleh.
then next thing we think about was we came to mines how can we don see their famous white tiger.so we went to the secret of the tiger.seriously if you really read the thing that they post up is really informative.did you know that in this world there is only 6000 tigers left?some species of tiger have already extince?did you know that tiger have 19 pairs of cromosome? and white tiger are really rare as only in 1000 tiger only 1 tiger is a white tiger.white tiger only come when their parents both are white tiger.cause they try matching a white tiger and a gold colour and their cub is gold in colour.hmmm but then the 2 white tiger that is available in mines name is jia jia and an an.hmmmm and it is getting old as when we visit it is errrrrr abit huge.
the next thing we went to visit was the tera cotta exerbition.it state the history about it and if you really know that piece of history it only make your visit more worth while.despite they do explaine in english but if you don understand that history before you walk in you will not appreciate it.lolz there we saw the burial ground of it and i explain to kiat about wat so wonderful about it.do you know that when tera cotta was discover in may 1960 the whole thing was a ruin and nothing there is perfect.they have to restal and it took a very long time even single army is restal to is original look and the thing that amaze those archelogist is who can people at those dynasty create such wonderful thing.it is almost greater the pyramid in egypt.did you know that in the tomb they found 20 wheels and each wheel have 31 spike in it.did you know that every single thing inside is made to reality.every single expresion,every look and body.the clay that the tera cotta were made was local soil plus some quarts.the hand and shoulder were done differently and use glue to stick on it and it weight very heavy.did you know that the leg was solid to support the heavy body.evey single uniform are custom made from general to archer you can differenciate them.lolz amazing aren't they.
now for the main attraction.the musical fountain! omg they are really really wonderful it really made me happy by just looking at them cause they play disney music togather with those lighting and they way they present it.the one that i love most is when they play the mickey song.lolz it was really really wonderful and i started to sing along with the fountain.then there is also a small small world song which give it the final touch.omg so so nice. later a walk around mines wonderland it really change the atmosphere feel like we are in errr of course wonderland those angel are not lighted and the atmosphere are really different.hahahah nice nice.but then kist forgot to bring his camera.haih
this trip is actually better then some boring trip at the shopping mall lolz.but then i'll sure to go back to take some picture.
till then signing off
jasmin

a very good experience

2006-02-19T08:51:00.000+08:00

lolz now i'm a teacher in a primary school SRJK(c) yuk chai.lolz. anyway teaching small little kid can be really fun.lolz and trust me i really respect them alot.there is alot of things that i can learn from them like being hardworking.lolz it is really a experince.but then too bad cause after this week their teacher will be back and i really really gona miss them alot. SOB sob
those little kids are really really cute despite the times when they come to you and say"teacher teacher he beat me." "teacher teacher she is talking." lolz i just have to ignore them at times and really cute when they come to you and say i want to go to toilet and your say a big NO.lolz not that i'm trying to be mean but then you see if you do that then everyone will go to the toilet non stop.lolz.i made a mistake by asking the class for the first time i went in it"who want to go to the toilet." not to mention the whole class raise up their hand haih feel terrible later not letting out to toilet.but sometimes its not i don let them out but they will run around the school compound before returning to class.haih those little kids.i think i'm getting really really attach to them.
my favourite class is 2R which i only teach them maths in chinese and english.lolz. they really really love maths and the more challenging question i give the happier they are i'm happy about it also and hence i give them harder question to do and to my surprise they can do addition and subtraction better then some form 5 student.hmmmm so happy and hence i reward them with sweet.and not to mention that they are hard working cause when i give them alot of homework to do like 9 pages and say pass up 3 days later.but then the next day when i ask who finish already 90% of them have finish and pass up to me.i'm really really impress.not like when we were in our form 5 time when our homework were to be pass up like 1 week later but then 80% of the class did not even finish it.and even they got loads of homework they did not complaine trust me this is the best class that the teacher can ever get.of course kids are always meant to be kids when they are noisy i will just have to ask them is it don want to study maths already?then they will quiet on the spot.lolz i just love them.
there was a drawing competition last week and the little standard 1 student would draw and when they ask if they can wash their hand i say no as it was raining and i scare they wil run around.so after about 80% of the class is done i ask them to line up and hold hand and walk down 2 the toilet lolz.see them so cute but naughty all the same went to play water.
haih remembering the times when we forgotten to bring our books or lost them we just take it like nothing had happen but then when i see the faces of those little kids that have lost their book really really remind me this is how student are suppose to be.ok well at least not cry but be affraid about it.one day when i was walking to the teacher room a parents holding a little gul crying came to ask me where is the book store and hence i bring them there.i ask the little gul why is she crying and the dad say nothing is just a small matter.but then it turn out to be she lost her moral work book.haih those cannot buy from the book store.as a moral teacher i told them that i can help her buy the book but then the dad say is ok as he want to settle his little gul and make her realise the important of it and want her to confront the teacher with him along.then i say ok and walk back to the office.but then the first period i went into a class of cuties and saw that dad and little gul outside crying.poor gul she cry until i think all the tears have dry up and no more voice already.i teach the other class for 3 period she cry for 3 period.haih
at the same time i got my own problem to tackle.cause when i walk in after the class greet me a little boy start to cry.i ask him why is he crying the reply come to me was i forgotten to day got english spelling and i forgot to study.haih really hurt me alot about my attidute.this little boys and guls really taught me alot of things.at last i told him is ok one.and ask him to take out his book and start the lesson.
i taught them things that i have learn but they have also taught me things that i have forgotten.how to be a good student.this is really a good experience and i will never forget it.this is the most meaningful job that i have ever taken.and if i got a chance i would like to teach again. "good bye teacher."

nothing about nothing

2006-02-08T13:50:00.000+08:00

bleh bleh bleh.now i'm jobless.hahahahha thanks to me.anway i think i be jobless for the next few month.hmmmm ohya anyway maple is introducing marriage system already.hahahah i wonder how is it like hmmm i can't wait to get marry(in maple) but of course i want to see how the guy propose to me muahahahahahah and also i have to see which one love me more by giving me maids and house and credit cards and also the say they propose.hahhahahaha just yesterday death poison was my husband and today i think i would like to divorce him for half of his asset (he is a rich guy anyway) of course not to mention his evilwing which can easily cost about 38million.muahahahahhaahah i'm rich i'm rich.hahahhahaha
but then again another suitor name sneak pro got a giant gigantic.hmmm i wonder who is rich.but then i marry who and get half of their asset.muahahahahhaha and in c sever.. another suitor hahahahh which told to have 40million in his account.hmmmmmm let me think about it.muahahahahah i'm rich

anyway before i get to tell you all the answer pls follow up on the next episode of babybubu getting married.

some crap

2005-12-07T19:13:00.000+08:00

bleh i'm going to china soon hahahah wish me a happy trip hahahah i'm going to gui ling the southern of china and i be there for the 8 days but then i be home for chirstmas.don know to be sad or happy china is exceptionally cold for this year because of the cold current haih.but then i guess i be experiencing snow again yeah!!!!
again is another year so much i have gone though so much i have experience so much i have see.and of course i'm another year older it doesn make any much difference only that my age start with the number 2.,haih that also make me feel so old already.
hmmm chirstmas is coming.tell me all about it.don know why i feel very cheerful and happy when i hear chirstmas song.nice especially it make you feel happy those type.sometimes again i sing along in the shopping mall.not that i'm those demented women.but anyway that is not the point.i want to see chirstmas for what it is move then a comercial stupid thing for company to earn to large sum of money.nay!! that is not the way that chirstmas should be it should be a time for sharing and caring.not about buying present for people that can give you some things in return.hmmm the spirit of chirstmas i wonder where can i feel it.
come to think of chirstmas it also remind me that new year is coming.is another year already haih noting much to do we go tru the same round over and over again.nothing much i think i'm just crapping

jasmin

life after exam

2005-11-26T18:12:00.000+08:00

wa i notice i been out the whole week after exam and speeding alot of money. hmmm i wonder when will i stop. well anyway is after exam!!! I'M FREEEEEE!!!! yeah faster congratulate me. anyway you want to know what have i been doing for the past week after exam.
tuesday after exam i went to i utama straight not so bad right after exam.watch chicken little and buy a nice flower pink skirt
wedesday i utama again to see jay chou and also see hary potter
thursday ok i stayed at home quite sien of 1 utama alr
friday watch emily rose in 1 utama again (y 1utama again not like there is no other place to go right.)hahahahah
sat went to sungai wang and yam cha with andrew tay.
sun going out with may li to celebrate her birthday
mon dono yet
tues genting a class trip hahahahaha
then i'm going to china soon and i promiss to take alot alot of pic.
so tired out by all this activities going to slep a while nite nite

zzzzzzzzzZZZZZZ
jasmin

special speech

2005-11-08T10:07:00.000+08:00

OMG exam is only like this friday and i was just wondering how i ever got through this two years of hell.haih. i still remember the first day i go in to school and the first time i make this desicion. all those seem like just yesterday.
thanks to my group of wonderful friends that really make a difference in me now i feel like i'm someone that actually make this tinny difference in other people life. hahahhahaha anyway i would like to wish all my friends and everyone that is sitting for stpm or any major exam best of luck and may you pass with flying colours (only blue colour though) ahhahahaha
after exam lets party all night anyway i got my plans so my soh po gang when are you all going to have a trip to meet up? call me you know but not in dream land and don ffk k. muaks

lots of love
jasmin

friends

2005-11-05T22:19:00.000+08:00

do you ever notice how friends can be at times. the process is always this simple you meet them and if you click you feel like you be each other best friend for your whole life. but if youdon you be just hi bye friends. normal right. but what happen to your current best friend of your life? it will be another journey another process just like nuclear it will decay if you don nurture it.
the process is very simple you all have alot to talk about slowly you have less to talk and then there are times where you don even know what to talk more. haih i wonder who is my kayana mitra. i really really want to meet that person. kayana mitra is like my gaurdian angel and i really really want to meet that person. maybe that person is already beside me but then i din realise. when one day that person left me for good then only i realise. haih sad to say this is one sad reality in life.
counting the number of friends i got since kindergarden till now want to say alot not to say alot want to say little not little also. i still remember my first friend samantha and i remember she mean alot to me and we say we are going to be friends for ever. after kindergarden we went to different school and we don meet up and then now i don even know where is she or does she even remember me.
anyway this is just another example of life. i think it happen to everyone.anyway people night.

2005-11-04T21:09:00.000+08:00

this few days really very very busy prepariong for exam and i think is not the right time for me to disturb the computer. eventually i know this expert for my computer and i have no douth for it. but then my parents don really seem to aprove to approve what i'm doing now and i don blame them for it cause they know that i'm not an expert in computer and also i'm going to have my most important exam in my whole life but i'm spending time with the computer.
i should really do this after the exam hmmmm maybe but then i seem to give up hope on this computer that after everything i have done it doesn't work and seem to give more problem then usual. haih i don know what to say also.
then after that my dad told me about the blood donating thingy which he really seem against it. he say that the new blood don seem to work as well as the old one and he said that some part of your body seem to stop working for a while cause there lack of blood. so far i think is quite not true about it. he say that after donating blood it does more damage to you then good. how ever i don see his point and i strongly disagree. he don see my reason of donating blood. my reason of donating blood is not cause i want to stay healthy but then i just want to help those people that need blood. just one packet of blood can really help to save some one life and it really mean alot to some people. they are also some one else son or daughter what happen if they don have that specified packet of blood they will lost their life. haih ok fine even if it does damage to your body but your body can recover in a very short period of time. i would just take it as a very deep cut that have lost alot of blood.i personally think that human spoil their own organ by their life style and not because of donating blood. all the smoking, all the alcohol. i think that if you want to compare it spoil your organ more then not having enough blood flowing in your body for a day or 2.so don blame it on the blood donating thing if want to blame blame it on your own life style. how long more are you going to stay on this earth anyway? you might as well donate what you have got to save a precious life that might do more of a difference in this world.
all those operation that have done on people to save them from various sickness or to cut off a part that is partially spoil. where did they get the blood? every surgery they need enough blood. at that time of surgery we lost alot of blood and recover after that. so why can't we just take it? i just don understand it.
sorry daddy i know you disagree me to donate my blood to other people but then i want you to know one thing that is wherethere you disagree or agree i'm already a big girl that know how to think for myself and i willing to donate my blood to other people that need it. i want to make a difference in other people's life and this is one step to do it. not only that i will keep myself healthy until the day i die and donate my organ to people that need it. after all like the buddha said : our body is like a house, just a skin and we keep moving on we don need it with us after we die. so i might as well pass it on if it is in good condition to make a difference in other people's life.

form 6

2005-10-04T19:28:00.000+08:00

i don know why but then i think i would try to do my best to get into local uni and everything. i don think i can do it cause even yuan teng does not have the confident to get in and they all planing to apply private uni. haih what more their result are so much better then mine. anyway that day i went to pwtc for the science fair for all the uni and i don see anything so great about it. they can't even speak proper english. not everyone but then most of them. haih is not like i really want to go in also. i think in class not everyone want to go in local uni. i think most of them just don know what to do and want to try out. hahahhaha
but then i never regret what did cause if not i think i'll be suffering more then i would now. i notice i'm not all that science people i think i'm more in to business. hahahahha anyway to tell you all a happy news i got 55 for physic. are you happy for me? for the first time in my whole entire form 6 life. hahahhaha anyway what they say is true, if you don know what you want to be you go into form 6 and by the time you come out you would know what you not want to do. hahahahah like me. at least the scope is smaller now don you think?
now i know physic i will never touch. chem will kill me maybe is should really do some business stuff. anyway collage here i come.

get out of my life both of the idiots

2005-09-28T21:29:00.000+08:00

haih some people just don learn from what people tell them. i told you it would not be easy i told you that she is that type of girl that is playing around. din't i tell you that she is playing game and you ignore everything. you choose her then me because she is cuter then me. she is better then me, prettier then me everything in the world and i'm just not good enough for you.
but say enough you din't see what was inside you didn't see what is inside here you din't see her personalities. i saw it all after what has happen i saw it and warn you but you were to blind to see. i guess that what people say love is blind.
now you are all hurt and everything but you still can't see that she is just another player in the game. can't you see. if you really are meant to be togather then why only 2 months when the person you say that are not ment to be can be with you for more then one year. ask yourself why?
after everything that you and her told me is all nothing but a lie. everything you all say was a lie. i tot you all were my good friend and you lie to me. i confide everything in you and you took him away from me. thank you so much for doing that to me. i really want to thank you sincerly from my heart. if its not for you i would'nt have what i have now. the life i have. but there is one thing i want you to know. you were to continue to play with fire you will get yourself burn. seriously and i'm not joking you will get back the same treatment. but i guess the chances are clim cause you never really really love some one before. you float from one bf to another and you know is true.
and to you. i can tell you i cannot forgive you for the hurt that you have done to me. i can never be your friend after all those lies you tell me. i can never trust you anymore. i might forgive but i will never forget about it. you are just another chapter in my life. if you think that i'm happy you got hurt get a life i'm not that cruel. i just call to see how are you and if that is what you think about me then you have wasted this few years cause you never know me. get the message?

teakwondo demo

2005-08-28T20:39:00.000+08:00

today is just another bright sunny day. hahahahahah and yes i got a teakwondo demo to do. somehow i think i'm the one that help teacher to organise the whole thing. hahahaha i pick the music and sort of train my cute little junior. hahahahha anyway i reach the training room at about 12 and there was no body hence i waited at the room there. then all the black belts came into the room and there is no need for instrution they all know that they have warming up to do. hahahahahah
then later in come the white belt and also the yello belt plus all the rest of the colour belt. I help the instructor to train them a while as the instructor have not reach cause he got classes in some other place.
then the time has came. we seperate all our planks and arrange them in order and walk out. i was scare that the thing did not go well as i was partly incharge. so i was sort of like shaking. hhahhahaha but everything was fine. anyway the white belt start first by showing the audients how to punch and how to kick. next in goes the yellow and the green belt showing their teakgoek 1. then the new black belts that show their teakgeok 7 with music. everything was runing fine till it reach my turn. i some how was shaking and hence i did not balance myself very nicely but i did not make a fool out of myself. hahahahahah when came to breaking i was too nervous till i can't really concentrate on the plank. andi had to go for the second try and thank god the second try was better and the plank did break. hahahahah but thanks to the planks i got some bruise and some cut but i think i'll be fine after a few days. hahahha
later at night my parents decided to go out for dinner and went to usual place "wong pou" the standard of the food there have drop tremandously and i think my parents wou;d not go back anymore. but there i meet pn shirly and her 2 lovely son. i walk up to her shyly not knowing what to do and say hi. hahahahhahaha
anyway that is that for today and tomorrow school starting. haih so fast then finish my one week holiday. really fast.

english class

2005-08-24T19:19:00.000+08:00

here are some english lesson which i learn from my cham teacher (cool right)
whats the different between opaque, translusion and transparent

opague- things that light can't pass through
Translusion - things which light can pass through silghtly
(can see other side but with blurry vision)
transparent - things which light can pass through

next
whats the different between sexy and sluty

sexy - wear revealing enough to leave the imagination go wild
sluty - see through all the way and there is no need space for imagination

cool isn't it. hahahahhaha english class dismiss. see you till next time

just another typical holiday

2005-08-24T18:59:00.000+08:00

arlo people did you all miss me? hahahahha i know i'm sorry for not updating my blog anymore cause i was addicted to this game call maple story and once i go online i went to play the game and i was not interested to blog anymore. not that i do not have any stories to share with you. alot of interesting things had happen this month and this include haze.(i have no intention to give a outdated blog update.) hahahahah
this week was suppose to be a holiday a week holiday for me but eventually my holiday does not turn out to be a holiday for me. sad case right. i know that the exam are coming nearer and you can only use days to calculate ( 2 more months!! how scarry can that be and i have not even prepare anything.) with all the extra classes and everything i don think it is a holiday for me and even so the holiday for me have only just started which only star today. sometimes i think that this holiday was even worst then normal school day but then i'm not complaning and i got ther teachers to thanks cause i think they know me so well they know that i would not touch the for more then 1 minute. so they have set this thing up so i study at least 3 hours a day?? hahahahha but then my friends they claim that they have not touch their books. to believe or not i don know but i think i rather talk about myself and don really care what other people do cause its their result and there is no harm done with you studying right?
hahahahah anyway today after tuition i went to petaling street for a walk with yuan and also weeneetron. hahahhaha alot of people and alot of interesting stuff. anyway that is not a place to choose for shooping cause it is the most expansive stuff for pirated stuff. those places are only for foriegners who think they can get cheap stuff (not) and the those people who are doing bussiness they get to charge them for a high price (help the economy grow? mayb not hahahahha) anyway while we were having a nice stroll in the streets i saw this sign "dilarang menjual barang cetak rompak" ( no selling of pirated stuff) hahahha but then the whole streets was full of pirated stuff and eventually the goverment make a nice arch for them so the shoppers (us) can shop in a more comfortable enviroment. hahahhaha unless of course pirated stuff they mean is pirated VCD but i douth so cause in my dictionary pirated stuff includes things like handbag and watches which is not original. but anyway is just another conclusion i make. typical m'sia. i sure you notice sometime there is a big sign board there written "dilarang membuang sampah denda rm500" ( if you dispose rubbish here there will be rm500 fine) funny enough right under the sign you get to see a huge bags of rubbish. hahahahah maybe is just human that like to go agains the rules.
then we were taken by surpirse by some tv crew. hahahhahaha they were asking on our opinion about what you think of the patriotic spirit in the teenages. wee nee actually say they have. but i really douth so. hahahahahah
oh people incase you are wondering whats wrong with my song in my blog. i don know it just don work. anyway i'm in the process of looking some nice song to put it in. anyway i hope you all be patient and thank you for your support. hahahahahah jasmin signing off... bzzzz....

2005-07-20T21:01:00.000+08:00

nothing to say just updating with some rubbish... no mood to blog now so just move on with your blog hopping

"unlearn what you have learn"

2005-07-13T15:46:00.000+08:00

remember this qoute by the famous star war master yoda.... hmmm it is a really wise qoute and i've been thinking about it for sometime... and today finally i can put it in to use...
i woke up this afternoon and thinking about isomial case...(those where you can't sleep at night even though if you are really really tired and need pills to help you..) then i told kiat.... kiat we should really have some sleeping classes in school and this will reduce the rasing rate of insomial in the world...( ok i admit i was plain lazy but hey i got a point here right)... then he reply.. "hahahaha not everyone think like you because is something we do everyday and it don really mean anything to anyone actually maybe just to restore energy for tomorrow activities.." after i read it then i start to think how ignorant some people are... sleeping don mean anything to anyone?? but i think sleeping means alot to me and some people do not know that sleeping is also as important as breathing??
right... here goes the fact... do you know that we sleep half of our life away.... we work as much as we sleep.(yeah talking about sleeping beauty)...if sleeping was meant to be insignificant then why are we still spending half of your life away by just sleeping? you might think you have not sleep so much you if you calculate it is more or less there...if it was that unimportant then why god make us sleep at night.... good question which i do not have the answer for now... think for yourself...Do you know that we grow in our sleep?? hahahah ya sleeping is very important for children for their growth they grow especially in their sleep... amazing isn't it... and it also rest the mind from any disturbance that they have in the day... if it was that not important... why scientist recoment that children sleep more then 8 hours a day?? they got nothing better to do right?? ahahahah
So right on target... people just do it without meaning anything... how right you are kiat... you see baby sleep alot and all they eat and sleep and scream their lungs out when they are hungary or sleepy... hmmm question here... if we are all born and know how to sleep that much(at least at that time) then why would there people in the world suffer from insomial.... those are people who don appreciate sleep.... that have taken sleeping as a activity that is for the body without much thinking about why they have to sleep.... actually insomial is when someone worry alot about things that happen in life and so stress out.... that is why god make us sleep... if we can have a peaceful mind at night then we can actually sleep peacefully.. is only when people who bring all their trouble to bed and not living by the moment get insomial....
then kiat ask me... he appreciate sleep but how can he say thank you to sleep... actually i don know but i think the only way to say thank you is to sleep well... make sure all is peaceful when you are sleeping.....
actually there is alot of things we can learn from a baby.. like master yoda say "unlearn what you have learn" only apply to certain small thing in life which you have taken for granted and actually those small things in life can make our life into a more meaningful stay on planet earth...

2005-07-09T10:33:00.000+08:00

nothing to say... just normal mood swing mood....

what an experiment

2005-07-04T13:44:00.000+08:00

Today is just another Monday Blue....haih... i was so restless during perhimpunan.. i keep pulling other people tie and of course playing around...lucky we form 6 get to stand behind of the line cause we are suppose to be mature enought not to make any noise... but theory prove other vice.... in fact we talk more then the form 3 student... hahaah so much for maturity...
lucky the asembly was long enough for pn foo to teach a very short time cause by the way she teach i can really fall asleep... to make things worst is on a monday morning.... haih so much for our biological clock... hahahha.... then pn zakiah came in to class... as usual pn foo give us her sleeping pill and everyone was almost asleep... to make thing worst and i mean really terrible... she play the lcd.... haih so much for technology... sleeping the class will be... but i tried my very best to stay awake.... eventually i started talking a while and then i was awake.. hahahahah
recess.... as i did not eat breakfast so i'm hungary... then pei yie came to my rescue... ahahaha she brough her home make muruku... hahahah and it was scrumptious.... ichipan...hahahahhaha
experiment... haih worst thing that can ever happen to me... don get me wrong i do love experiment but then there is the whole room fill with sulphric acid fumes which everone breath in and have to go out for some freash air... haih the school school provide mask for the health of the student you know that these fumes are dangerous... hahahah anyway... our result were quite bad... we only got 30% of wat we suppose to get... cause we left some here and there din cool it enough blah blah blah.. blame it on the time factor... so like that lo....
so i'm here complaning about it and for now i'm going to have some nice fresh air... and i'm going to appreciate the air more now... hahahaah

take note

2005-06-30T18:12:00.000+08:00

>Dear Friends,
>
>Kindly take a couple of minutes to go thru this mail. If useful may
>advise others also . Please pass this on to others This happened in
>Parisrecently and may happen elsewhere also.
>
>A few weeks ago, in a movie theatre, a person felt something poking
>from her seat. When she got up to see what it was, she found a needle
>sticking out of the seat with a note attached saying "You have just
>been infected by HIV".
>
>The DiseaseControlCenter(in Paris) reports many similar events in many
>other cities recently. All tested needles were HIV Positive.
>
>The Center also reports that needles have been found in cash dispensers
>at public banking machines. We ask everyone to use extreme caution when
>faced with this kind of situation. All public chairs/seats should be
>inspected with vigilance and caution before use. A careful visual
>inspection should be enough. In addition, they ask that each of you
>pass this message along to all members of your family and your friends
>of the potential danger.
>
>Recently, one doctor has narrated a somewhat similar instance that
>happened to one of his patients at the Priya Cinema in Delhi. A young
>girl, engaged and about to be married in a couple of months, was
>pricked while the movie was going on. The tag with the needle had the
>message " Welcome to the World of HIV family". Though the doctors told
>her family that it takes about 6 months before the virus grows strong
>enough to start damaging the system and a healthy victim could survive
>about 5-6 years, the girl died in 4 months, perhaps more because of the
>"Shock thought". We all have to be careful at public places, rest God
>help! Just think about saving a life by forwarding this message.
>Please, take a few seconds of your time to pass along.

this is a email i have recieve.... and i think you all need to becareful of all this mental problem people...

just another day...sighzzz

2005-06-28T16:34:00.000+08:00

today is just another normal day but then there is more complaine then the fine usual day.... haih just another eventful day.... hmmm simon brough durian to school and evetually they eat it in the class room.... hmmm very considerate of them... i mean not everyone likes to eat durian right plus even if everyone like to eat durian there are sometimes when some people cannot take the smell... as in they are ok to eat but then one way or another those people that did not consume the durian would find the smell hard too take... that is so horrible right.... haih this is just another one of our class example of guys... there are so many event that happen which is not really nice and i don even want to remember about it.....actually i think that this is not really a nice class... as in like they say form 6 should be mature but somehow i don think that this class guys are mature enough...

1.05pm
under the burning sun... we had to do the gardening for KPJ(kelab pencegah jenayah)... today was not usual hot but unusually hot.... the sun was like burning through our skin.... what more i like sun but i can't take that type os sun for long.... haih... the garden??? still as death but trying to plant something there...

1.35pm
Gardning was over... time to go home... kiat offer me a ride home cause i'm lazy to when we reach his car there is this A4 paper that stuck to his car... i took it and it write " denda RM10000 kerana Bodoh.....FUCK OFF AND SUCK XXX TITS" this is all in red... haih and there sign bor yaw.... which is so obvious was sxxxxx and vxxxx.... haih... as usually la.... but i mean how can he be so insulting.... i was thinking what should i do or what should kiat do... after discussion we decided to make to use this saying"what goes around cames around" so just throw the paper away and forget about it... religion also tells us... for me is his bad karma for kiat is his ultimate judgement from god....

2.00pm
came home and online... nothing much but saw yeong hui only just though of saying hi... but then it turn out to be a disaster... he scold me for pratically no reason(to me) ask him to apologies but he din't so fine.... he can have it his way...bath and went to fetch my brother from school

3.00pm
went to swensen and have some ice cream to cool things down... mentally and physically... eventually every tuesday is a earthquake day and it was 50%off the bill.... so we order a earthquake and then the bill only turn out to be like rm18... next tuesday must bring my mom there to eat... my favourite was the risen thing and also...errr... forgot already... but ut was nice...

4.00pm reach home... nothing to say for now

a special saturday

2005-06-26T13:00:00.000+08:00

Today of all days... hmmmm certain people know what day is it but so sad i have to go for duty on a carnival kerjaya.... haih... i reach the school at about 7.15 i went to the R&R(rest and relax) to check what En Abu Salim had buy the keropok and stuff like that but to my surprise there is more then keropok is burger with all the meat...OMG how in the world am i going to do this... haih.... kiat came to me and then i took some people to clean the place.... then we try to set the store up but then me, sherry and li qin have no experience so we just stood stun there... lucky there are malay guys that know how to set the store up... the set the thing up and then they help cook the burger... god save the queen!! we are save... hahahahah then later i went to the hall which i'm suppose to be incharge of and there was pratically nothing to do at all.... so we just sit there and have a little chit chat.... after the thing have all set up and running me, li qin, sherry, kiat and pei yie went out to talk... at the R&R.... hmm the guys there look like they are having fun there... cooking laughing and stuff so we sit at the pavillion enjoy the wind... close our eyes and feel the wind blowing at our faces... then a sudden gust of wind blow at li qin skirt and expose her sexy leg...hahahahhahah
then after that we went to Ho Weng Kei for lunch and the food there was as good as it was when i was young...yummy.... we went bacak to school and found out that there is nothing there for us to do... they do not have enough cup and hence they call me and sherry to buy it... we went ss2 and we walk around the whole of it to find for few cup... hahahah good exercise.... when we came back we were to represent some people to go up the stage to get some prizes... so we rush up and took the prizes... i took the 2 biggest one which is not mine at all... the competition was actually participate by sherry, li Qin, Ooi Jin and also rebecca... nothing to do with me... hahahah but it was fun watching alot of people look at us up the stage taking prizes... anyway that is not the fun part... after half an hour the whole ceremony was over and we have to clean up the R&R... so the malay guys went away after cooking and leave us to clean it... it was fun... you know normal thing... abit of water fight and soap everywhere... hahahha and amazingly we found out how bad was the stucture of R&R... the outlet for water is not tiled... means the water cannot flow down nice and properly... funny right... but we still clean it and then we all went to 1u!!!!
we plan to watch initial D in 1 utama and yes with our school uniform on a perfect saturady afternoon...can you imagine how horrible was it.... what will people think... hmmm this few kids must have bluff their mommy to get out... and its all 5 of us... hahahaha but anyway as usual i claim that is the special and unique so people will look at us as lastest fashion i hope... at first but then the NEW GSC have not screen it... so sad... so sherry have to buy batman and guess what... she so smart till she have to buy the FRONT SIT...yes i repeat... the front sit!!! headache... but anyway the show was fine... hmmm halfway i have to find a sit up there and finish the rest of the show not really confortable but is fine....
the cinema was a very very fine place... very special and look very high class... when i sit in the chair was very comfortable not like other cinema... they have a head rest and it was very very spacious.... when i walk up to find a sit and sit in between rows... the space was very spacious... you know lots of space to put leg especially for TALL people... very nice experince....i think TGV would have to renovate their place to compete with them... i personally would prefer GSC... hahahahah too bad...
we took away Pei Yie first time outing with friends... she never came out and walk with her friends before and hence i'm proud to say that we got her first time... hahahahha kiat gave me a little cow which i name it kiat cow cow on the spot... hahahha it had chest hair too.... it was cute... i took a picture of it and want to put it in here but too bad my dad took the camera out...
when i reach home my mom had brought me new bed sheet... heheheh for the first time she buy me bed sheet like TEDDY BEAR!!! yeah!!!! usually she will just buy adult boring type of bed sheet which i would get bored of it within minute... but this one is cute.. it has papa bear and mama bear and baby near 1 with a yellow bow tie plus baby bear 2 which have a balloon in his hand... but then the design was bad.. if it was a family bear they miss out the baby bear 2 on the pillow... so sad to be left out right... but anyway in the middle there is alot of baby bear 1 and also heart shape... hmmm so i guess baby bear 2 must be the black sheep of the family.... sadnya...i took the picture and want to paste it here but again the camera not with me so sorry.... hahahahah
what a day of surprise... happy and tired out... lights off....

saw jay chou in the car

2005-06-24T18:59:00.000+08:00

that day on wednesday i know very well that jay chou is coming to 1u but then cause i got to go see a doctor hence i am not able to make it... but then at about 8 when i left my house to see the doctor i saw te policeman stop this side of the car and let that side of the car to pass... i though maybe some big shot was there... the hazard light of those vehicle was on and i did not suspect anything about it... then when we continue the journey it was funny cause our car and a few of those estima was like racing each other... when we pass by those car i saw those people are wearing black and there is walkie talkie with them.... when i reach the tunnel it was jam there... coincidently the red estima with the hazard light on was park beside my dad car... i look inside and i see 2 guys wearing black with walkie talkie... hence i look at the passanger sit and i saw a guy sitting there talking on the phone.... i stop and think for a while... they guy look so familiar.... then i stop and think for a while... OMG is JAY CHOU!!!!
there is nothing i do just tell my dad about it but then i'm excited about it... hahahahah sherry will be jumping around if i told her that.... anyway she is gona read my blog so no difference... so i'm telling her now... muahahhaha... anyway my other friend say she would open the window and wave to him.... and my other friend say she would go down of the car and knock on the window... anyway that is something which i won't do... hahahaha
till then signing off...

2005-06-19T21:44:00.000+08:00

today when i was in the gym i talk to the instrutor and then the tittle of the newspaper catch my eye"dara terpulih suami tertipu"i understand the tittle but the problem is i don understand what they mean by dara terpulih and suami tertipu.... then i ask the instrutor what they mean by the tittle.... the instrutor look at me for a while... blink blink blink i can see his head is look hard whats the best way to explaine... then he started" you see when a girl have an intercourse..."(i din know i look so innocent) then i came in... i know what is dara... but then can be repair one meh? he say ya tru traditional way... wah... that is the first time i heard such thing...
then i ask what has it got to do with the tittle... he say cause they can heal it so the husband have been bluff... hmmmm good one... so i start reading those article...then the instructor continue "usually for malays" then i thinking very hard why... and finally i got the answer.... hmmmm religion....
but then i don understand why they want to do it... i mean like if that was their past their husband should be able to accept for who she was her past and everything why should you hide it?? if that incident was accidently and when the girl is not in the wrong why pinalise the girl for what she has been rob from.... if the girl really did the intercourse before with another guy why should her husband should not know about it... i think this is totally not fair for the girls species..
you see if you want an intercourse you need both party.. as in one boy one girl unless you are of course homosexual.... why blame it on the girl only and not the guy.... they say they want virgin girls so if you want virgin girls it is only fair that you guys also keep your virginity... is not fair that you go out looking for one night stand and want your future wife to be a virgin..... cause is greatly impossible.... if guys constantly looking for one night stand there would not be any virgin girls... ok fine lets say in your life time you took away like 3/4 virgin girls and if everyone in the world do that what have we left and you want them?? haih selfish creature...
the newspaper say that if the husband know that the girl is not a virgin it will bring some harm to the new family... haih... use your brain.... if it was this case that means that your husband does not accept for who you are... for what you have done for him... i mean like came on... if your girlfriend or wife have done anything wrong but then she have change or anything isn't that the main thing that she stay loyal to you?? for all those time that she have treat you right... be there for you and it will all end just because of her little mistake??? what happen if she would not forgive you for what you have done in your past... how would you feel??
this world is so not fair... especially to the girl species... we are said to be the weaker species but then with all those thing around us it look like we are the stronger species mentally... all those discrimination... those thing that us girls have to keep to ourself so that our husband won't abandon us.... while guys can have a few wife.... forget it... this is the world you never get to change the mind set of other people... guys are forever the king of the world...the dominant of the human species... no question ask cause this has been pass down since centuries... i rest my case

a very eventful day

2005-06-18T07:46:00.000+08:00

thursday was just like another day... wake up at 6 and get ready for school.... took my handphone and the tuition and yuan teng book and get ready to school.... reach the school as usual and everything was fine untill there was a spotcheck.... i quickly took out my earing and walk out calmly but then i forgot that i got my handphone in the bag... i look at them and quickly went back and take it to put inside my pocket.... hahhaha but then i saw wee nee have already got checked so i put it into her pocket hoping that my handphone will be fine... but then the prefect came and recheck us and my handphone was found... it got confiscated... haih... the head of disipline told us that we can get our handphone back at about 12.30 and nothing earlier then that... through out the day was fine with me... still study as usual.... at about 12.30 me, yuan teng, brian and chee yong went to see Mr Allen in the KH room.... we went there and he got lecture... i told him our reason and he say its a good reason but when the rules state that no handphone means no handphone.... ok fine... i respect the school rules but then that makes no difference cause next week i'm gona bring it again....hahahhahaha anyway they do spot check this week i guess they won do it again next week...
after school we went to eat to the canteen to eat and get ready for tuition... we just take our own sweet time to eat cause the tuition only start at 2.40 and usually when we reach there, there is alot of time to walk around... we took the usual route.. the back gate and started walking... when we reach a park... we heard BANG... we wonder what was it and stood there for quite sometime... but then after that we decided to go back abit and look what happen... we saw its a accident... the post laju van hit a student from taman sea... i rush there and see if i can put my first aid skill into good use... i try to open his airway... check his pulse and breathing(lucky there is no need to use CPR if not i really will die) but he was unconcious... lucky there is no heavy traffic and not alot of people crow round to see but they came to help.... we didn't call the ambulans but we carried him to the van... me, yuan and jia went back to school to report but then we have not enough information like who the guy was and nothing much can be done...then about like 2 we left for tuition....
later i went out for dinner cause is my dad and mom annerversary.... i choose the flower for my dad and it was wonderful... we went down to inti to fetch my sister... then we went to eat the little buddha jump over the wall.. there is shark fin, sea cucumber, abalone, chicken, scallop, yu piu, mushroom in side the soup....i personally think tat shark fin taste better... maybe i like sour stuff that why... this one i think is abit salty... we had our dinner and take a walk in inti... there is alot of leng chai leng lui there... after that we came back and eventually that is about it.... study till i was so so tired out after such a eventful day... lights out... bye

so much for modernisation

2005-06-11T11:52:00.000+08:00

that day i went to meditation camp and there where i learn the importance of meditation... it is really important if you really want to know whats the meaning of life.. i mean seriously you will know more of what you want in life... there are alot of time where we can sit still and do some meditation and it really do you good... you need to do it before you know what is it feel like... it is like shutting your other senses and only concentrate on one... then i think that why you can train your sense to be more sensitive then just doing what you are doing.. you feel what you are doing...
anyway that day was thursday when i bored the lrt and meet yuan teng there... hahhaha... on the way i saw this lady with a few month baby and i think she is struggeling to keep herself and her baby safe... one hand holding the strips one hand holding the baby... around her was younf man sitting and to my horror not even one stand up and offer his sit to her... that is what i saw... that is so horrible... then when i relate this to kiat and kiat told me his another encounter when he was in the lrt the last time he went... anyway there was this pregnant lady... she was fighting her way into the train no one give way to her and she have to fight her way in... fine... then what happen next was no one stand up for her... when the next station cames... she have to fight with other able bodys... stronger bodies for a sit... how horrible... such thing are call as modernisation... haih... i don want to see what will happen in the future...
holidays almost end...and glad to say at least i did something for this holiday and i went alot of places... hahhaah... you have to read my past posts to know what i did and where i went... anyway do have fun with your holidays also k... bye bye and take care

lost of sight is the worst thing to loose

2005-06-07T10:45:00.000+08:00

today while was i driving today then something hit me... i wonder how was it if i was blind... would i still be able to drive?? would i still be able to take care of myself??
then i was thinking i think the worst lost ever from the 5 senses is the ability to see... haih... when you can't see there is alot of things you can't do.. things like reading.. seeing colours... they will not even be able to see different colour in the world... they will not be able to see what colour is the apple or mango or the 7 wonderful colour of the rainbow... haih so sad...
that is still not that terrible... the worst thing here is that you can't even take care of yourself... i mean when you first get blind... you need people to tell you where things are... you can't drive..people without arms or limb might still able to drive but ithout sight... haih... you don even know has the traffic light turn green... means there is no means of your own transportation... you can't cross the road youself... you need people to guild you...
plus when you want to study there must be some special book to help you...but then when came to scholarship... i don think they stand a fair chance if they were to fight with a normal person and when you came out to this world... who would like to employ a blind person... haih this also means that there is no work... no chance of surviving... haih all this thing are so sad
no douth.. there are alot of things that is donw to help those people... special book to teach them for education... there are things to help them move around.. like the stick and also some traffic light have beeping sound to help them cross the road... but have it been done enough?? i think most important thing is that they must have equal chance to find a job and also education... this will only help them be indepentent give them energy... let them feel they are something in the world not a parasite...
anyway i think i would dedicate my life into helping them... cause i feel they are the poor little human that deserve a chance to live...

whats the meaning of life

2005-06-05T18:07:00.000+08:00

today of all times i went to sumi longdon meditation camp... haih i don feel like going as i don know anyone there but then i force myself there and lucky i did cause i get ti meet up with last year ydc camp friends... happy!!!
i reach there and i was alone and pratically i know no one there...except zhen yuan... haih but he and me also nothing much to talk about one la... no difference... anyway i went in feeling abit out of place but then the sjba people start to came in then we say hello... we know each other from camp... hahahha happy
who told you that meditation is for old people... we young people need it more then old people... we use to rush off in life not noticin what happening around us... rush off to success... rush to the opportunity not noticing that there is more to life then just rushing.... the most important thing i learn in this camp is that our exsistance is important cause we exsist.... hahahha don understand??? we exsist to make this cycle complete...exsist to appreciate nature... how many of you pratically notice that the bird chipping like an orchastra... some monk can... without those thing nature can be really beautiful like what the japanise notice...
sometimes we rush off to fast not noticing what is happening around us and finally we got what we want but then whats the point.... when we finally acheive what we want we find there is some emptyness inside us... this emptyness often came with the question what is the point of life?? especially in buddhist point when after all you done you just return to square one... to a christian... i think it would be the same... whats the point of working so hard when after you die you just return to dust... whats the point of having everything you want or need...after working so hard to get material stuff to keep you warm and all you feel is not contentment but craving for more stuff... or when you get everything in the world you will feel lonely feel empty.. whats the point of living when you don even know whats the meaning of life... let is be human or animal.... so the point she is tryin to delieve here is to enjoy small moments like this let it be a walk in the park or maybe let it be just sit down and observe what is happening around you... what is changing...
in the camp i got a friend that i know last year in camp chung lern... he also feel what i feel... whats the point of life?? serious... i think we are facing some mid life crisis now... hahahah but then she never give us answer cause she herself also don have the answer... chung lern is facing some emtpyness... he got everything.. friends.... result... whatever he want... but y do he still feel empty... maybe like me... still don know whats the meaning of living.... but i've been thinking maybe that to live here is to make other people life better.... i think from now that will be my meaning to life...

another eating trip

2005-06-04T12:46:00.000+08:00

yeaterday was my granduncle 60 birthday... happy birthday granduncle... hahahha he is a rich guy and hence we had a scumptious meal... you never guess what we had...
first dish is a bowl shark fin soup oh... is in a small small bowl that they boil it bowl by bowl... the chunted thing is that there there are little fin inside the whole thing... not in "stips" but in piece.... hahahah nice leh.... with vinegar is simply irressitable....
next dish is the 4 season dish... normal thing la..but there is only 2 season lo... there is 2 hot and 2 cold dish so i guess there is only winter and summer la... hahahha but thedish was great...
next thing is the long pan.... long pan is actually sek pan which is over 30 years... hahahha that big then the whole thing is different... the texture of the fish meat and also the skin was so so different... i never eat such thing in my life b4... the meat was tough.... really nice and the skin was very different usually fish skin will have this oil that make the skin errr"slimy???" but then this one the skin was really tough and got few layer you can see the scale and everything...wa wa wa... according to kian kiat the fish cost about 100+ for a kg (if the statistic is wrong find kiat don find me) hahahah
then we have alot alot of things to eat... including bun that shape of a peach which lingyung inside is was wonderful... hahahha and for desert we got ginseng root with xu yi....i really don like to eat ginseng but then they cook it until is not really bitter and again is wonderful... hahahha
yummy~!!!! see how to not get fat during holidays la... hmmm after the cameron still got this... i promiss to diet already one but then haih...nvm la... fat means luck... muahahahah

2005-06-02T10:35:00.000+08:00

arlo people... haih i just came back from cameron and i wanted to put some picture in but haih... never mind la i try to put it in ok... hahhahaha anyway this is the cronical of me cameron
Day1
Woke up at about 7.30am and bath and get ready... eat some chee cheong fin for breakfast and pack everything into the car booth... those thing include cloths and sleping bags... hahhah then i have my beauty sleep while my dadyy speed the way to our destination... we stop at the rest house and my dad meet his friends there and we are on our way to cameron..YEAH!!! we stop by in ipoh to wait for uncle chin relatives to get use some tent(we are not camping infact but there are too many people so it might have some use later)... beside the place we stop there is a cendol store were everyone rush t have a break on this hot and sunny day.... hahahha
finally after an hour of excruciating boring ride we reach this little house on top of the hill with lots of roses and a very very big garden... bad news... we only got 3 room for 6 family... great.. so we do need the tent to sleep outside... hahaha...the care taker of the house came out to greet us and her husband(a cook) have prepare us a wonderful lunch CHICKEN RICE.... it was delicious.... my parents like the cilies alot... all self make... how wonderful... hahhah after that i learn from uncle chin how to set up the tent... hahahaha now i have graduate from it so now i know... there are 2 tent outside... one is a four man tent next is the 2 man tent... then we(the children) run around the big big garden... runing up and down not playing anything but just run for fun and also for the heat....tea time was scorn... they make it themself...(i mean the cook)
dinner we had steamboat and again it was t keep us warm... lucky there is a heater for us to bath if not i swear i would not bath for the whole 3 days... hahahha after dinner we learn how to play majong... nice la... hahahha and for once i got a DAI SEI HEI... hahhaha how many of you in your life have got such luck... then about like 2 we went back to the tent and sleep... it was freezing cold and the bad news here is i got abig of flu.... nite

Day2
woke up and omg my flu got worst... then we had american breakfast... after breakfast(tv meals all the way) we went to the boh tea plantation... mothing to brag about... then when to the strawberry farm and there is nothing new.. not like i've never been there... but anyway my mom brought a pot of errr not strawberry but haiwaiian chilly... i don know it will survive but... we'll see...
we went back for lunch and the lunch was once again great..the weather was drizzling all the while and outside are full of mist and it really look like we are in other country... for the first time i don dare to step out of the house... i have to sit on the sofa with jacket and also fold in my legs to keep them warm... so i pratically stay in door and of course i'll never sleep outside on such weather... hahahah but there are heroes... the little kids are playing badminton on such weather... "clap please" while we adults prefer to stay put... watch some tv till 11 and then good night

Day3
last day and i woke up all warm and nice night to sleep.. actually i'm a bit fbored of the trip already... eat some breakfast and get ready to move... HOME at last... hahhahahah we counted the money that the adults are suppose to pay and we collect the money.... after that we pack things up and then have some group photo and bye bye...then they say they will meet up every year... hahahahha i errr... don hope for that much... every little kid is less then 12... me baby sitter only... but ok gua... last time was in desaru... the time b4 was in faser hills... next time.... errrr not sure... hahahha

2005-05-27T11:10:00.000+08:00

lolz.. starting of holiday for me... school holiday finally... but sad to say that the holiday is not for me... the teachers are evil i tell you Evil but then good also la give me alot of time to study... haih i notice there is only like 3 month till exam... they are evil the timetable for the stpm are not out yet and i'm wondering why.... last time spm timetable are out so fast and this stpm... or maybe the evil teacher keep and not letting you know... evil teachers...
haih... whats is holiday without a nice time to play... i guess for now till end of stpm my book is my companion... haih books can talk to me... if i read it... alot of things that it can open my mind... and wonders they can do... is not to make me fail... miracles that book can do... this time i cannot talk my way out...
haih after this stpm then i really really have to decided what i want to do... i got no other choice but to choose one... i cannot like after spm buy some time go into form 6 just to ignore the cross road i'm facing... coward right.... haih... i choose... i don think i like physic anymore... i hate science i think i don want anything to do with science anymore is killing me... one thing is fun but then alot of brain is needed to understand how things work... brains... that is one thing that i'm lacking... high iq but lazy to use my brain... that has what becoming me now...
maths... i love so much before that and now i hate it.... maths are evil i tell you EVIL... there are so many things to see and relate and also memory work of which formula to use... there are 10 times more difficult then add maths in form 4 and 5.... i love add maths then but now maths... i hate you... haih... but then again i must love the subject i take so i got the interest to continue it... but then i guess i'm starting to love maths again.... i'll lova maths again if and only if i start to do more math question...
chem... physical chem was fun but organic chem was torturous... worst thing in my life... never like organice before in my life... i'm still wondering why they exsist in the first place... whoa re those smart people... haih.... but anyway i have to learn it anyway.,.... physical chem now are getting worst by day... nothing nice at all... learning about equilibrium and how to count the pH and the dissociation... haih... loads of things which i really really don like.. but at the same time have to like...
physic... worst thing in my whole entire life... i hate and i repeat hate mechanics... how to count the force of this and that and how much force i need to keep it stable... haih y do i need to count i just do some experiment and learn to mistake... billion of fomula which relate it... its 10 times more more complicated then form 4 and 5... worst thing... the lenght and everything mix togather and it became a wonderful rojak... or they calm is amazing... but i don see anything amazing in it... only more stuff to burden my mind... like they say the current will flow more slowly causing the lift to move more slowly if there is a weight on it.. they are doing it on my brain... they put more burden on it and then it move ever so slowly... isn't that what they teach.... talking about kinematics and dynamics... haih.... enough already not talking about the centripetal force for circular motion... trust me those are the last thing you want to learn
talking about pa statics thing and again history about malaysia... save me... i've been learning about m'sia for like 5 years and i need to learn it again??? ok this time is more about how the parliment is and the dasar dasar economic... those are the past... i don know why we need to learn it... haih...
that is pratically my life for the past 2 years... not hell but hell is coming soon in another 3 month... help.... save me...

2005-05-23T19:21:00.000+08:00

today i went to genting and the best part and i have been waiting for so long i went to *ahem* SNOW WORLD applause please... heheheheh i went there and the price was quite resonable considering that is RM15 with coat and shoes and also glove included for 40min.which i think is more then enough...the coat are all the same(no different colour... size of the shoe are limited... my shoes was so loose i hardly can walk(maybe is my ankle small...hahhaha) it is 7 degrees inside... haih... coldnya...there we play snow right...(the snow on the floor are actually limited and we put snow(ice) into each other shirt which causing my dad and brother to jump around like kangaroo.... after sometime my brother mouth start to numb and he can't pronounce the word frostbite nicely.. hahhaha. heheheheh anyway here are some picture i put for you all to see...(actually we are not suppose to take picture but for the sake of those who din't go in we RISK it for you... hahahah) here are the picture enjoy....

this is me and my mom hugging each other to keep each other warm... hahahhah do we look like sisters??

this is my dad and my mom... does it look like some snowing country and they are sitting at the park?? look aren't they loving....

this is my mom showing us there there is alot of snow and ready to throw at us... or her evil plan is to put it at the back of our shirt... hahahah but mom... i'm too smart for you.... hahahhahaha

this picture shows that i'm freezing...does that thing behind you look familiar?? hmmm anyway just for your information those snowman beside me are made out of plastic... if there were real... we whould have smash it within a minute and they will have to redo it every section... hahaha

this is just posing... see i took the risk of taking the picture of what is inside for you guys... so now may you... abit of fees... hahahahha

and this is how you look like after you came out from the freezing place... a eyeless ghost. with a red nose and also a rosy cheek..... hahahah

anyway after that was normal stuff arcade games and walking in the cool refreshing air then we went to gotong jaya(which my mom always pronounce it as gotong royong...) for dinner... ahahahha

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2005-05-22T21:49:00.000+08:00

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2005-05-22T20:26:00.000+08:00

aiyak i don know how to resaiz this thing but you all see first la ok... hehehehe
this one is a book which i feel it help me alot in my daily life and about life.... and it help to calm me down and give me alot of guidance though out my daily action and though... hehhehe if you got a chance try reading it.... it might help you too.... hehehe

this is that my mom sells during the wesak day food fair in bu11... hehehehe and watch out for the thursday newspaper in The Star in the family cookbook section my mom will appear there for this zhong thing... heheheh look out for me also ok....(i'm gona be a celebrity.... yahoo!!!)

this is my master piece...my sand art i use one hour to do it... nice??? (if you say is not nice i'll kill you hahahah)

2005-05-20T23:37:00.000+08:00

hip hip hurray finally i have finish my exam already... haih actually can finish it within one weel but then school lo here and there holiday finish it like in 2 weeks... later end of the year i also don know how the goverment gona pull it for one month... haih
anyway i was watching happy tree friends and trust me its the worst show that you can ever show the kids.... maybe you all should go check it out... i know about this tru my friend but then i got no chance to visit it only like today i suddenly remember and i went to watch it... the worst then horror movie... is totally dangerous... keep it away from children.... do you know what they do?? they cut of legs... kill people and also burn them up plus they also screw the eye balls... i don know how to decribe it to you but then you must see it for yourself only you will know how horrible is it... when i was watching it i was half covering my eyes and half laughing at the sight of it... not that is funny but then the supidility of them... haih... it don serve as an entertaiment cause i don feel calm after that.... haih...
anyway exam... haih i als don want to talk about it already but then i think that this is only the end of the beginning... nothing much left but to study during the holidays and then you all can start judging how much disipline i got ok??? hahhahaha
anyway i think today i'm gona sleep all i can cause if the lack of sleep for the past few days... anyway bye guys and see you like tmr if i got anything interesting to tell you all... hahahah
thanks for the compliment for the song... i love it very much also... thanks...

2005-05-15T19:22:00.000+08:00

let me tell you abit about my lever of expectation for my future husband ok.....

1) must know how to do house work and willing to do it
2) must know how to cook...
3) must love me till i burn
4) must be loyal to me(only me and no one)
5) can make me smile all the time
6) can let me bully
7) willing to be my driver
8) willing to accept me for who am i
9) alwiz stand by me when i'm feeling down
10) protect me when i kena bully
11) must know how to speak a language that i don know so he can teach me
12) result ok ok la
13) my parents must like him also
14) financially stable
15) not workaholic (can spend time with me)
16) love to do out door activities
17) not mama boy (pls)
18) can migrate with me to other country
19) mature...At least can give me advice
20) comfortable hug....lolz those that i can melt
.... errr i think is this much first la... hahahha
if can drive big car and got big house father open bank and also got 2 moutain of gold... hahahah

2005-05-15T09:21:00.000+08:00

what is your problem now??? how many times do you still want me to tell you what is happening.... why don you still don want to listen....you want prove i provided you with it and still you are in your dream land.... wake up la you know the truth but then don want to accept it... this is the reality of it....
you know who you are and what else you need me to prove to you only you will believe me?? i'm freaking angry everytime i think about it.... but i guess this is human nature "never trust your friend untill everything is coming to reality" i have already warn you to it and since you don want to face it thats your problem.... i'm sick and tired of telling you over and over again.... and then you think that i'm some sort of ultra derange supercilious gorgon... for all i care the choice is yours and i don want to see any of it...

2005-05-14T10:02:00.000+08:00

exam's here... hmmm anyway for now i think so far so good that is because physic and maths exam is not here yet... it is this wednesday if you are asking... haih... i also don know why am i so scare of math but then i'm really scare cause there is nothing that i know how to count... not that i don know about to count but then theory behind it was so hard and you have to follow those step... if there is one step wrong the whole thing is wrong.... but the problem with me is i don even know how to make the first step... haih i think i need to study maths... hahhahaha i mean how many times in your life have you heard of people saying they need to study maths.... i think i'm the only one in this world... but then again i believe that you don need to study maths but do them.... but then i don even know how to do so must study lo...
anyway i don know but i think i'm talking crap now... hahahha thanks for reading my crap... hmmmm i wonder how badly i will do in my stpm... is like only months away and there is everything that i don know and don understand.... there is a vast difference between form 6 and form 5 and matriculation... there is no fix text book for form 6 and anything can came out including those that you have not heard before... haih but then the concept is the same... as like they say i have to read more.... but then i see my senior result they are not the encouraging anyway....
hmmmm my muet speaking is monday and i don know if i can speak... i mean anyone can speak but then during exam everything will be gone;... i just hope that everything is fine...i hope i can speak like this much crap in class... but i think everyting will be different when you know you are speaking for and exam and everything goes wrong... words can't seem to came out from your mouth right.... anyway keep your finger cross and wish me luck ok....
after sometimes of streamxy i think that going online is the most boring thing on earth... i think human are like that... when they can't have it they will think is the most interesting thing on earth but when they have excess of it they will get bored of it... hahahahha... last time i wanted to go online 24 hours a day and chat with my friend non stop and find alot of information... but then i only have a dial up connection and hence it is very expansive to go online for a long period of time... then we have streamxy and then me and my brother will be fighting to go online... but now.... haih the conputer will be left there and i think both of us got bored of it already... ahhahaha but then i think if my dad were to cut the streamxy we will be fighting to online again... hahahha this is normal human reaction...
is another few minutes the termite guy( errr i guess i should say the terminator) will came to my house to kill the termintes in the store room... so i'm gona be quarentine in my room for a few hours... only with my hp and my book as companion... i can go out of the house if i want to but then i'm too lazy to get my big fat ass moving... so i think the bed room will do fine... hahhahaha
so time to move to my room and study errrr sleep also i guess... hahahhaha anyway hope that i can go out and yam cha la after i get bored of the enviroment of my room (if only my mom leave her car to me).... lalalalal time to lock myself in the room... so tata and take care till next time...

2005-05-10T07:28:00.000+08:00

sry sry.. long time din update my blog cause i got no mood anyway.... hahahha anyway... hmmm let me tell you about my blood donation thing which is my first time (clap please)... hahahhahahah
anyway the venue is in 1utama next to oriental craving...
when i went there i was shaking i din want to donate any... as in i want to donate but at the same time i was scare of pain but then... my mom encourage me... and i told myself that there is always the first time... hahhahaha... after i fill in the form... they help me took my blood pressure and took my weight... all was so perfect(minus the fact that i'm abit heavy)... i'm one step closer to the donating part which is scary....
the next thing is to see what my blood type and if i have hermoglobin to donate.... they use some thing to prick my finger and it was like a big red ant sting... ouch.... ahahahha but then they took some blood and test for the blood type and also the hermogolbin... hahhahaha and everything is fine and my bloog type is A....
next station.. i was still shaking and tey give me this plastick thing that have those thing that i need... some needles... the bag to fill the blood in... my pass book for the next time blood donation i i din want to continue looking in it cause it remains me... pain is coming ahead you... i mean just now that prick of the finger was pain... actually maybe not that pain... i walk around looking like a aimless soul with something in my hand which also reminds me about the tv show of how prisoner should be... then the nurse ask me to donate and don waste time... but i though they are suppose to let us take our own sweet time to do it... eventually i went there... i lie down... they have an injection...maybe is a pain killer.... it was abit pain but it was ok... then they put in the "pipe" and give me a pvc pipe to hold... hahhahahah but then the "pipe that went in was not pain at all.... then while talking to shone i quickly finish the blood donating thing... can nothing happen to me.... pratically nothing..... no dizzyness.... no nothing.... hmmmm i wake up and drink some milo(compulsory) hahahahah and end of story...
i went shopping after that and catch a movie.... how bad can it be.... at the end of the day i was laughing at myself how stupid ca i be at that moment.... anyway all is done and i'm proud of myself...

2005-05-07T08:24:00.000+08:00

just yesterday i was about to go up i saw something catch me eye... my dad was watching national geography and the point that some thing catch my eyes is this little naked boy bending down( can't see anything) my first though was ohhh maybe is those primative people... hmm i was right but nothing prepare me from what i was going to see...
i saw a group of guys... wearing something like a stick at their penis.... it was long and obsence to me..plus they use something to support the stick..... they are also wearing some round stuff round their body only up till their waist... then something came to my mind... if the guys wear like this what will the girls wear?
hmmm then sudden i was caugh off guard... something in front of the tv screen was bounching... is a women breast... but then it was jus a while then i was look at the screen to look for a woman... but then i found woman walking around/.... but soon after i saw 2 guls walking around more to say jumping around and their breast was like nothing to cover it and they only have some leaves to cover their bottom which was actually not really cover also...
they are having the ceremony of manhood for the little boy.. hmmm and they are all jumping around naked except those that i meantion above... jumping around making their part jumping all around.... it was quite and disgusting to me..... but i guess this was how our ancestor life in the past....
what i don understand is that why do they have to have a stick there and the girls there are so limited... i wonder if they share wife.... maybe is very normal for those people to see it... i now wonder the amazing history of clothes...

2005-04-28T21:45:00.000+08:00

just the other day i went to tuition and there was no place so i sat beside a girl.... i never really knew her... but all i know is she is abit invalid... not as in losing a arm or leg but then i think there is abit slow on movement... and she can't walk normally and need a parent to help her in and out of the tuition center... hmmm then i sat down next to her being late i got alot to catch up hence i bz copying the question and she was so kind to tell me what was going on.... then when teacher gives us notes to copy from the board or orally... i notice that she can't really write but she can in a very slow speed... i copy not paying full attention but i saw her writting very slowly... jus so slowly i know she not taking everything down i was tempted to help her let her copy my notes but then after i saw she don need it she have adapt herself to take notes her way tru symbol... what fasinate me is that despite her inabilities she is still trying her best to study form 6 maybe she don have enough money for collage or what ever is the reason.... at that time i notice that we as human need to adapt ourself to new situation and enviroment and is always no use to blame god for the imperfection.... hmmm then i feel so bad myself for not studying or try half as hard as her... i know for her to study need really more time for her to digest the information then anyone in the world but she have not give up... that time i don know why i feel motivated as in she can do it i can do better....but too bad i never get to know her name.... hmmm i really hope i can be her friend cause i know i can learn alot from her...
then just the other morning when i see the beautiful world in the morning... everyone was in a buoyant mood... then suddenly this though came in to me... no one in this world would pity you even if you were sad for what ever reason... your relatives pass away or what ever so tragic... the world will go on moving with or without you...you can choose to be sad and not move on but as the saying goes time waits for no man... it does not mean that if you are sad time will stop there and wait for you to heal before moving on... hmmm the sun will continue to rise, the world will continue to move on it's normal cycle.... and i remember the girl from that day and i notice that no one in this world will pity you... yes they will but do you really want them to pity you??? hmmm i think if you resolve into self-pity you would not improve yourself... if you want people to see you, to respect you, listen to you then you must have that confident and earn it.... if people don respect you then you must find way to improve yourself then only people will take notice of you...
i just have this insight just the other day and i think that this is very important in life that i want to tell you all... hahahaha if you already know about it then hahahaha i'm a late bloomer... anyway till more insight next time adios

2005-04-26T21:04:00.000+08:00

last few days i go for my muet exam and i got my result for speaking now... yeah... i got band 6 lolz.... happy.... highest band lo.... then i wanted to tell the world about it but in te process of doing it i found out something that had hurt me so badly but then i'm still surviving....
we as girl should be strong standing and not fall to any of the stupid guys... haih and those that know me well should know what i mean by it and who are they.... hmmm actually i came to find out that 70% of the break up in the world is ask by the guys... why la what happen to the old tradition that girl dump guys not the other way round... guess the world had change the other way round just like the magnetic north pole is going to point to south.... (if you don know what am i talking about you should see more national geograph... hmmm and i say is fact that the magnetic north was never the truth north) hahahhaha....
revelution change the world and i think now girls are dominant to rule the world... like me... girls nowadays face more chanllange then last time trust me nowadays guys are so "gentlemen"... they won open the door for girls anymore but slam it in their face...haih such guys... mind you i'm not talking about every guys in this world... but most of it... especially those guy in my class trust me...
even we girls want equal right but there was never equal right to more important things like promotion in job and not to say also the availibility of jobs in the market..they prefer guys then girls cause of the days they have to take off for pregnancy or for their children... so much for equal rights...

diet

2005-04-21T20:01:00.000+08:00

i don understand some poeple especially girls like to diet.... they want to be as thin as a stick ( i'm talking about myself also) but then today my dad words have woken me up from this dream
actually he is right it does not matter who we are or how we look as long as we are healthy and have a good mind to thin... some people only want to diet and make themself so liveless... as in no energy at all don say walking around talking also a difficult task for them... in such condition when problem arise it would be hard for people that don have enough energy to think of a perfect solution.... they will decide a irrational decision which i think they will regret.... with all this dieting it effect not only our health but also our work... this means study.... our brain work on fat and also oxygen... when no food go in how do you expect it to work... hmmm
anyway some girls want to be as thin as stick and i'm not saying that i'm not one of them but what is their reason of being so thin... they say that thin is beautiful... hmmm but this i don agree with them... some fat people can be beautiful too... actually i prefer to say that beauty came from the heart... have you seen some "beautiful" people ( those walking stick) but have the look of a wicked witch... i don think that they are beautiful... but i do see some plump people which are more pleasent to be with... they have a more friendly face that make people wants to be with them... it also doesn't mean that a plump people cannot be popular... they can have alot of friends with their pleasent looking figure... heheheheh
last but not least i think that health is the most important thing in life...what happen if you take slimming pills and got thin and then you have to go for operation which cost a bomb... hmmm maybe sometimes it not as easy as operation cause some product can cause people to die.... is it worth the risk of it taking just for this... hmmm what is the reason of being so slim.... is it cause of yourself? boys? i think alot of girls reason will be guys... but then if they really like you they will like you for who you are... get my point?

2005-04-18T19:58:00.000+08:00

hmm looks like my blog really freeze already... anyway i got nothing much interesting to blog only...sob sob... i have to say good bye soon to my best online friend...hmmm...miss me you know... hahahahhaha you know who you are...this is my short summary of what happen to me over the past few weeks....
anyway we have shift class to another class in another blog in school and i think it should be fine there.... this is because pn lee son went for a operation and he need to use the class which is near to the lab... ok anyway hope you get well soon...
2day pn fatimah the pengetua retirement and as usual sux,.. i feel that alot of taman sea formal ocassion not as nice as dj..maybe i'm use to dj format....hmmm
next muet coming and i need to buck up on mu english...despite the fact that i'm facing exam but i'm still able to maintain a buoyant mood...
i've been quite forgetful this few weeks..hmmm forget my tie sometimes my glasses sometimes my books!!!! maybe next time myself..hahahhah
hmm went out with kiat on saturday...feed the fish.... went for a movie and few game of pool and futsbal...(of course i win cause i'm the pro muahahahha)
other then that nothing much matter like taking a bath, eating, sleeping, online, toilet..hahahha and of course last but not least study...
till then adios

2005-04-11T22:43:00.000+08:00

jus updating so there is song heheheh hope you enjoy for the moment

2005-04-09T10:45:00.000+08:00

hiya people... hmmm long time din write my blog i got alot of things to do in school and stuff to prepare and i think i'm gona freeze my blog a while maybe until after the exam cause right now i don think i got much thing to crap...
plus streamxy connection sux this few days maybe cause if maintaince and also my blog suddenly no song alr.. after exam i think i change the whole thing... including the skin...ehehehhe
my exam is on may till then adios

2005-04-04T19:31:00.000+08:00

you know what i found something out.... actually confident play a very important role in your life no matter what age you are.... actually there are small small things in life that need your confident and then only you can find yourself brave to face the challange in life....
there are little things in life that you might not notice... like knowing a friend... talking to someone new in school or even facing exam... trust me it really take great confident to do that....sometimes people need to do things that its outside our comfort zone.... comfort zone are places that we feel comfortable doing.... like maybe playing piano.... do homework which we usually do..... those are nothing and slowly you will think what is the purpose of life....
me i know what is it like to be outside your comfort zone... trust me i learn this lesson this year... you don have to be the best to be happy... you can get last in class and end up feeling happy yourself.... you might think i'm crazy... if not cause i have experience it myself i think that i'm crazy too.... hmmm i lost a debate in school but then i'm happy about it... reason??? very simple... cause i took up the courage to join the competition even though i'm scare.... i took the challange to it when other people don even dare to join... this is what i'm proud of myself.... i finish a 10 km race.... my dad told me i must be crazy but then i did it.... y??? cause i got confident that i can do it....and i did it.... i'm so proud of myself after that.... really sometimes when i feel like giving up but i never do..... cause i told myself that winner never quit quiter never win....and this is true,..and don i love that sentence...... if you give up the chances if you winning is total 0 but if you try there is a posibility that you win even the chance are slim... serious there are times when i though i'm fighting a down hill battle and i told myself that.... and it brough me to where i am now... there are times when i really want to give up... like the time when i'm taking spm... i realy feel like dying and killing myself and when things are done i look back feeling proud of myself....
another perfect example....i went on a surviver camp... heheheheh the battle is tough i have to carry a 10 kg bag hike up.... other then that i have to take can food up.... but i told my self winner never give up and i continue... after i finish i was so proud of myself that even if you give me a trophy it won beat the feeling of me accomplish that thing...
there are small small goal that you don see in life and those are actually challange that can make you in to a better person then you are mentally ready for bigger challenge.... small small things like quiting games....to facing life and death... can you just give up like that??..those people that kill themself are people that are not mature enough to face the challenge that have been given to them by god....

2005-04-02T12:58:00.000+08:00

yesterday we had a very fun talk by Pn Harban for the MUET (Malaysian University Entrance Test) exam which will be held on the 30 of april and i really hope i can get at least a band 5 and then gain experience and take it exam again end of the year and get a band 6.... the thing as fun and not like any boring talk and miriclely i manage to survive the 2 hour talk without feeling restless... hahhaha it was fun anyway.... but during the real exam i really don know how to face it just hope that i can crap... ive been trying to join all sort of speaking activies hopefully it can help me in the muet exam... hahahah like the jus a minute competition....
haih talking about exam my half year exam is coming in may already and i'm regreting for not studying i really don know if i can get through this exam without me looking like a baffoon...hmmm maybe is true i've been playing too much already...but anyway i hope that i can really catch up on my study especially maths... heheheheh stress stress stress.... never mind la.... as long as i do the best i can then i think it will be alright....
dictionary had been my best friend for this few month and i'm so glad that i have learn so many words that i never know before and hope to use them and i think people will understand... anyway i think i should use the word that i have found if not that is not much use to it right.... and there this camp that i've been planing and i hope that it will be ok... this is my first time planing for camp and in such a stress condition.... actually talking about club and society i think i'm not a really good president i cannot plan acitivities for the members and i know they are bored to death and i don blame them... there are alot of activities that i have plan but then there is no action to them... i really hope that the next meeting that we have can have some fun games... i think is not that hard right...hmmmm...
anyway adios my maths book is calling to me and i hate to say good bye...hahahahha

2005-04-01T13:13:00.000+08:00

this is a dota song that my friend and i have create with the lagu bahasa jiwa bangsa i hope you like it hahahhaha
main dota amalan kebangsaan kita
marilah bermain sama sama
dengan teamwork kita pasti akan berjaya
kalau tak gunakan manta saja
marilah pemain mari dota
buktikan skol anda
dengan mencabar saya
majulah dota maju negara
bermain sampai gila
dotalah jiwa bangsa
hmmm if you know the tune you can sing it hope you enjoy it....

2005-03-28T19:59:00.000+08:00

haih there is alot of things that i don understand at all... what are the goverment trying to do?? you know what am i saying?? they are trying to change the maths and sciences back to bahasa melayu....OMG!!!you said that the grade of maths and science have drop after changing into bahasa melayu... but then they only have started the project 3 years ago and this year is the first year of having maths and science in english for PMR who can you judge it??
after debating for some time if they did the right move to change maths and science subject to be taught in english and at last they implement it...what's their objective of changing this thing... well they want student to have a better control of english language (noticing the importancy of english language as one of the main language in the world)... well they have did so much and spend so much money to train the teacher...and i think their plan is working now...i mean you can't hope to have it work over night and you need time... i think this change have made a very positive change for me... i notice that i can spell better and learn more word..learn the right grammer and stuff and i personally think that my english has improve dramastically...plus i get alot of extra notes online from other country which is in english...and it has improve my way of studying from reading in various way...
now you tell me you want to change the whole thing to bahasa melayu??hmmm ok fine you say that the grade for maths and science have drop for malays... have you though of the reason?? ok it might be the language change and they do not understand...but then how about other race..maths and science has nothing to do with language but understand and apply.... if student don understand they can always stay back or ask teacher on the spot to reexplaine it in bahasa melayu...as long as you get the concept i think you can use it anyway...
i personally think that languange is not a excuse for dropping in grades...i think that what is important in choosing the language for teaching is the student find it easy to find extra information from other sources like the internet or notes from other country which will make the lesson interesting... student will naturally get use to the language after sometime using it....as they say pratice make perfect...
i hope that the goverment would really think about their decission clearly and look at the impact before making their decision...like i said before their desicion will affect the whole country's future and i don wish the goverment take us student as white mice just to try out how their plan work...

2005-03-27T15:30:00.000+08:00

hiya people I'M BACK...did you miss me??? hahahah yes i went back to johor for ching ming and guess what i got nothing but load of boring fact to feed you all...hahhahaha hmmm so whats new
i went back on saturday afternoon so i cannot go to seow kit birthday so sorry dear i try to make it to you k... it was raining heavily and my dad have to drive very very slowly like lets say 60Km/hour??? hmmm cause he can't see the road and i don blame him for that... we reach there after like 4 excuciating hour...(my poor porr butt)
then we eat and watch tv and went shopping and slp...hahhaah the next day at about 5.45 my dad woke us up and we have to go to the grave...hmm still very dark and cold but my mom ask us to wear short pants and hence we have to follow...so cold in the morning like the air con is on....hmmm never mind that... we wore the jacket in the car and we went to the grave...there is already alot of people there cleaning their own ancestor grave... there are also alot of fire cracker to be seen... never mind that but the whole area is dark and it look abit spooky to me as i can't even see where am i going and i have to figure out which is my grandpa grave... finally upon reaching the right one we have to figure out how to start our work and also wait for other relatives to start our work... and when everyone is here..is almost 7 and we can see clearly where is everything and we started by poking candles and incences at the grave i mean on the top and throw color papers...the grave ever look so colorful...hahahha then we have fire cracker and it was so loud that i din't really enjoy that part of it.... as the last part we had our food there...yum yum the food was delicious... then about 9 we had to say good bye....sitting in the car and the bumpy road remind me of horse ridding...till next time...sayonara

2005-03-25T22:43:00.000+08:00

i went to this indian wedding can say as indian malay wedding we went there and i notice i was not dressing what i was suppose to dress they were all wearing sari and their traditional costume.... i was wearing the usual clothers...hahahha
the relatives were singing in their language which i had no idea what are they talking about and oh ya and only all the girls are allow in the house that means her brother and also the father are not allow in....hahhahah
then the bridegroom relatives came here and only the girls as usual came in... then the bride came down with a wonderful i think traditional wedding dress and then they started singing and then the relatives took of the ribbon on her hair and then later the cake was brough out and her mother and anuties have to feed her the cake and there were candles like birthday cakes...hahahha i don know the meaning of it though... then there is people colouring hena on her hand.... her mother giving us some mixute of nuts and chocolate which we bring home... then we got the little hair do thing...hahahha and we had our dinner and ciao... so much for first hand experience

2005-03-25T19:22:00.000+08:00

ok ok redirecting to the flasher...hmmm big news... read all about it..hhahahahah one and only in kimmy and mine blog(pls see the link for details and go to kimmy blog for more information of THE FLASHER)hahahahahh hmm maybe it should be the movie called the flasher... ok cut the crap
so you people want to know what happen that day after that day when i eet pn julie and report to her... she was petrified...hmmm ok ok maybe is abit too much but she was all the same horrified that such people do MASTERBED IN FRONT OF INNOCENT SCHOOL GIRLS... yes and i''m talking about me hahhaha ok well i'm not that innocent to....
she brough me to see puan puah and also encik ong which happen to be not in their office at that time and so i did not log a report..hmmm but pn julie say she will came and find me soon to report the matter... eventually i found out that this thing had already happen one month and the school had not taken any action yet...hmmm maybe there is no danger in it yet...they have to wait till someone be a rape victim of our school only they willing to do something about it??well won that be abit slow and by that time they cannot do anything...
well i remember last time in damansara jaya there is a flasher there and encik siva took action immediately and chase the flasher with his infamous rotan..hahhaha came to think of it its funny... imagine that a man holding a rotan in his hand on his motor chasing another man in his motor too..hahhaha but the point is they did something to it and it never happen...
hmmm i don know what lucky did kimmy had that she had to see thing "process" 3 times...hahhahah kimmy you got the luck while some poeple dying to see what it look like hahhahaha you know who am i talking about...sherry...hmmm you get your luck one day...hahahha
but i do hope the culprit would be caught soon and sent to the mental hospital for check up and might as well throw him in some isolated mental hospital where he can flash all he like...hahhahaha where there is nobody to react to his action...hmmm
taman sea.... so slow in talking action and i do hope that they take this matter in to serious consideration as this will cause harm to innocent student like me ahem hahhaha and also cause us to have mental disorder...hahahhaha people i know you are laughing cause i'm laughing too while writting this thing...

2005-03-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

well well well i don know what i saw that day but according to them is a flasher...hmmm now i know what flasher do??? well this is not realy flashing but... anyway here's the story
I came out from school at about 4.15 after my house pratice to wait for my mom and i saw a unser silver in color pack in front of me...i did not suspect a thing cause i though maybe he is a father like anyone waiting for his son or daughter... i continue looking the other way for my mom and when i turn over the horror...
i saw something which i though is a rubber and the door was slightly open and then i saw the hand moving up and down...OMG he is masterbeding in front of the school in front of 2 girls.. which i douth the other gul know what he is doing...
i din want to look at him and i was hoping that my mom came fast to me and take me away...hmmm but anyway i sometimes look at his way and i saw he holding tissue so i guess he is very high and almost ejaculate gua...hmmm ok fine he finish already then he drive off....
then when i tell my experince to other people and they say this is not the first time it happen and it usually happen at that time... some guls say i'm so lucky but i don think there is anything to be lucky about...hahahha

2005-03-21T15:02:00.000+08:00

anyway i don know why they say that homosapien( that is us human) is the most intelligent creature on earth...hmmm maybe they are right but ir does not alwiz have to be that the smartest is the best as i see that human have alwiz resulting in their problem....
to me i think animals are the best... ok fine we human are also counted as animals on this face of earth but we don call yourself animals but human(means inteligent man) haih....you see animals have simple mind and hence they lead a very happy life.... of course those that you see food you eat you tired you sleep..... haih i know that some animals are unfortunate too like humans they have class but i think that human tend to have less problem....hmmm maybe is not totally true...
you see i notice that like animals they don have to go tru break ups.... they don need money to buy what they want (eventually what they want is the basic of suriving) but humans... what are they thinking... they are the most greedy creature that god had ever create....they have what they needed.... like food and clothes and what more they want... better food better clothes.... well that is why human need more cash(in human language that is what they call it) and when we can't get what we want we will use our INTELLIGENCE to get it by all means... haih
and look around you how much has our intelligent affect us... ok fine we cut out some great discovery like electricity and car and house.... but the cunning of the world.... getting more cash by all mean.... cash mean everything to humans.... statues.....better food...better transport.....everything better......
our intelligence has also make the world a horrible place to leave.... nuclear bombs..... toxic waste.....wars.....drugs..all this causes animals and even us the intelligent species to live... we are making life difficult for even ourselves...
but i think god had plans for HE know that we will use our intelligence to do bad things and hence we will restart the world...means end of the world and everything will restart once more....maybe in each few million years the earth will be totally destroyed and became one again....

2005-03-19T19:02:00.000+08:00

today i went to red box with the big big family hahahaha.... eventually i snatch and sing all the song that is available and also i know how to sing la... lalalallalalalalla
sing sing and shout shout so nice like release frustration only.... so good
those are the song that i want to sing then same with those that yeong hui want to sing so we sing togather lo with jason.... i think in the room me and yeong hui and also jason hold the mic the most but still the winner goes to me.... hahahahah
anyway my hp jus came out from hospital today hahahah thank you thank you.....and also i got a new purse from jason sim hahahahh thank you thank you....
mmmm i also don know when will i go to red box again lo..... so sad.......

2005-03-17T19:17:00.000+08:00

hmmm i was thinking this song it sound really like me from a chinese song and also you know who i meant....
i'm upset and you don say much what have we miss out now
there is a small smile but there is still a sad look
holding your hand and ask if this is your decision
who have you given your heart too
i chase and chase but i can't get it back
i understand those leaves that fall will have to reach the ground
the line from "xian"(a musical instrument)is broken
i play it once more
you are no longer in my world
my finger now have played the wrong key
but i still can't have you back in my life
the line from the xian is broken
no matter how i pratice
my feeling you can't see anymore
the change in you like the line
no matter how i fix it the sound of it will never be right
the change in you i can tell