Friday, March 14, 2008

today i sitting down in my dinning table as i was playing some of the music and i think about the trip to indonesia that i had been. it was a wonderful trip but i think the best lesson that i had learn here is not that how beatiful indonesia is but then a valuable lesson that i had learn. well you see i had been to indonesia and on the 3rd day i had been to a ophanage. this is the place where the parents do not want their children anymore. I can understand how do the parents feel as they do not have enough money to take care of their children. but then as i walk in to the place i feel that the place is ver comfortable and that the children there are more lucky then the ophan here in malaysia. I was surprise that the children are singing happily while waiting for school to start. as i see the little children i see that they are slightly deform. be it their looks or mentally deform. so poor thing. the parents had left their children cause they are deform and maybe it would seem as a burden to them. well but they are happy there i guess. there are alot of nurses there to help out to take care of those little kids. so after our photo session we went to give out mcdonald to them and there were really happy about it. i though that i had done a good deed. but then suddenly there is someone said hey we need more help here to feed the children.
i happily went there thinking that i had humble myself. i went in i saw those poor poor kids hand tied up having some mentally disable. they are not able to fend for them self. not able to eat by themself and therefore they need people to take care of them. the whole place really stink of some smell which i dono what is it. i excuse myself to wash my hand and somehow i feel i refuse to humble myself to help that poor kid have his lunch. then i start to think i'm so lucky to be able to play computer games to eat by myself and to go out and play to have my own entertainment. who am i? what happen if one day i'm like them? who would help me? and i force my self to be back in the house again and started with feeding them. i choose a goy who is actually 22 years old (same age as me just for the record) but he seem so much younger. the other person hold down his hand while i feed him mouth by mouth of rice and i realise that i had done it i had humbhle myself more. then when suddenly i feel all so calm i and happy there is this boy fall down on me. and i got this thinking" bloody hell you cannot sit nicely is it, how dare you touch me with your dirty body, how dare you learn on my clean and nice hand." but then again as i was thinking about it i saw this boy not able to sit properly. then i slowly help him to sit up feeling that actually i had not done enough i still have a pride within me that i'm a higher class them those poor young adults inside. but then who are we. are we actually different class then them? sitting while thinking actually i think not. we are the same class a human class a class that is capable of thinking of acting on our own. but just because they are abit unlucky that their brain part is abit under develope that they have to rely on us (the brain more develope) people to help them to feed them to clean for them. I look around i see those nurses around. there are worth of my respect. they had taken care of those people day and night. cleaning them, taking care of them.
we actually as human should be humble and help those that are less fortunate. only with helping and seeing those that are less fortunate only we would feel that we are more fortunate then the rest of the world. only through this method that you would be able to realise how lucky you are and you would be more then happy to be who you are. you would learn to count your blessing then to count your short coming. if i were to be able to do such things for once every single month i think i would be the most happiest and the richest person on earth. happy cause i learn to count my blessing rich because i am able to do alot of things that other people would not be able to do. by that time, the latest model of handphone, latest computer, branded clothes, shoes and handbag is not important anymore.

with love
jasmin |