Thursday, March 13, 2008

it had been about 6 months since i last became the president of CSO. I had infact is the last president of CSO as they (the collage) had decided to close down the club. well, the collage at first had problem to find people to continue the MSC (metro student council) post. which i think is hard for them also as our student is not relaly active. but anyway i had infact decided to go in to MSC for the benefit of my little junior which they would feel lost ( i think ) without me inside it. I feel like i would want to lead them to be a better student or person and seriously by joinin activity they can improve on it.
But then evenr since i had been installed as the vice president of the MSC i though that i would face new challange and find something much more fulfilling in it then in CSO and that i would be able to learn much more and develop myself much more then before, but i had never infact be really happy ever since i had join it. I had infact started to make enermy with certain people. i had been thinking really hard maybe if i can talk to the president (which is actually not the president that we had selected "long story") then maybe togather we can work out a strong club and run it like i had infact had in mind how a club would be. but sadly things don turn out the way it had. everything that he leader do it is last minute work and seriously i don think that such important club would work out in all this last minute things. but anyway he insisted that it would work. well ok we have it his way. in 2 weeks into my semester i had feel that he had drain me completely from my energy without feeding me with new challange without feeding me motivation without caring for me( and other poeple i guess). i feel so drain out so tired. everytime it would be last minute and everything would have to throw one side to accomodate him.
well he said that as a top student leader we must be committed. well my dear friend comitted i also have a limit as MSC is not the only thing in my life. i cannot be there 24 hours on stand by waiting for you to call for me. i'm so sorry thats the thing i cannot do. you had not respect me a single bit and therefore you don earn my respect. People inside there is looking at you as a leader they are expecting you to lead them to teach them things that they do not know and in return you learn from them. But what have you done your sentence is always in my mind"i plan you all do". Thanks alot that is just the type of leader that i need.
well listen here i had enough of you already. you can be wat ever type of leader you like but i can tell you that you are draining all your members energy without feeding them motivation. you would kill everyone inside the club. maybe you might see what you want to see now and think that the club is about you. but your ego of refusing to listen for the past 2 times (or maybe your brain cannot process what i really mean) will kill the club. but anwyay i would like to hand in my resignation letter tomorrow. may you accept my letter with grace. May i bless you to gain sudden enlightenment of how a leader should be. maybe you should take a look at some stories about leader.

We plan we lead
we gain credit we take the blame
togather we are a team
in a club there is no such thing as a solonist.

with metta
jasmin |