Sunday, October 14, 2007

today i was angry with my parents for very small reason. i was angry at her for toying me around by fetching her to here and there and actually it defeated my purpose of buying just a hair gel. i going on nagging that it has been a big deal that i had went through all the trouble going to ss2 and line up for half an hour to get wat she wants.. nagging that why she said that she can go help me get the things that i want but have to rush home cause she is cooking something. and i was feeling angry and acting like a child. i was so confident that i would not talk to my mom for a long time. i throw temper at her and scolded her for doing such thing to me.
come to think of it after i was not angry is actually a blessing that my mom is my mom. my mom had supported my through good times and bad times. there are times where i was angry at her for no reason cause i was under alot of stress and she got me barking at her for no reason and she was never angry at me. but she understand me and take me under her caring wings.
Nevertheless my dad was the one bring money into the household but then my mom is the one that had been always there for anything that i need she had never never bear any grudges against me but always forgiving.
after that afternoon incident she went out at night to buy me working shoes which cost about Rm149. is not the price that matter is the comfort that i have. i look at myself reflecting at what i had done and i feel so so bad. i had throw temper at my mom for pratically no reason. she had been so selfless so great that i can't help feeling that this is the type of mother i want to be. so much so for studying buddhism, so much for teaching little kids that their mother is brahma for all of us. what had i been practicing? i had not really appreciate my mom at all..
mom i'm sorry i'm really am for all the times when i acting childish, for all the time when you try to understand me but i just shoo you a side i'm really sorry. i love you mother.. i promiss to take care of you till the end of time. |