Friday, May 27, 2005

lolz.. starting of holiday for me... school holiday finally... but sad to say that the holiday is not for me... the teachers are evil i tell you Evil but then good also la give me alot of time to study... haih i notice there is only like 3 month till exam... they are evil the timetable for the stpm are not out yet and i'm wondering why.... last time spm timetable are out so fast and this stpm... or maybe the evil teacher keep and not letting you know... evil teachers...
haih... whats is holiday without a nice time to play... i guess for now till end of stpm my book is my companion... haih books can talk to me... if i read it... alot of things that it can open my mind... and wonders they can do... is not to make me fail... miracles that book can do... this time i cannot talk my way out...
haih after this stpm then i really really have to decided what i want to do... i got no other choice but to choose one... i cannot like after spm buy some time go into form 6 just to ignore the cross road i'm facing... coward right.... haih... i choose... i don think i like physic anymore... i hate science i think i don want anything to do with science anymore is killing me... one thing is fun but then alot of brain is needed to understand how things work... brains... that is one thing that i'm lacking... high iq but lazy to use my brain... that has what becoming me now...
maths... i love so much before that and now i hate it.... maths are evil i tell you EVIL... there are so many things to see and relate and also memory work of which formula to use... there are 10 times more difficult then add maths in form 4 and 5.... i love add maths then but now maths... i hate you... haih... but then again i must love the subject i take so i got the interest to continue it... but then i guess i'm starting to love maths again.... i'll lova maths again if and only if i start to do more math question...
chem... physical chem was fun but organic chem was torturous... worst thing in my life... never like organice before in my life... i'm still wondering why they exsist in the first place... whoa re those smart people... haih.... but anyway i have to learn it anyway.,.... physical chem now are getting worst by day... nothing nice at all... learning about equilibrium and how to count the pH and the dissociation... haih... loads of things which i really really don like.. but at the same time have to like...
physic... worst thing in my whole entire life... i hate and i repeat hate mechanics... how to count the force of this and that and how much force i need to keep it stable... haih y do i need to count i just do some experiment and learn to mistake... billion of fomula which relate it... its 10 times more more complicated then form 4 and 5... worst thing... the lenght and everything mix togather and it became a wonderful rojak... or they calm is amazing... but i don see anything amazing in it... only more stuff to burden my mind... like they say the current will flow more slowly causing the lift to move more slowly if there is a weight on it.. they are doing it on my brain... they put more burden on it and then it move ever so slowly... isn't that what they teach.... talking about kinematics and dynamics... haih.... enough already not talking about the centripetal force for circular motion... trust me those are the last thing you want to learn
talking about pa statics thing and again history about malaysia... save me... i've been learning about m'sia for like 5 years and i need to learn it again??? ok this time is more about how the parliment is and the dasar dasar economic... those are the past... i don know why we need to learn it... haih...
that is pratically my life for the past 2 years... not hell but hell is coming soon in another 3 month... help.... save me... |