Thursday, April 28, 2005

just the other day i went to tuition and there was no place so i sat beside a girl.... i never really knew her... but all i know is she is abit invalid... not as in losing a arm or leg but then i think there is abit slow on movement... and she can't walk normally and need a parent to help her in and out of the tuition center... hmmm then i sat down next to her being late i got alot to catch up hence i bz copying the question and she was so kind to tell me what was going on.... then when teacher gives us notes to copy from the board or orally... i notice that she can't really write but she can in a very slow speed... i copy not paying full attention but i saw her writting very slowly... jus so slowly i know she not taking everything down i was tempted to help her let her copy my notes but then after i saw she don need it she have adapt herself to take notes her way tru symbol... what fasinate me is that despite her inabilities she is still trying her best to study form 6 maybe she don have enough money for collage or what ever is the reason.... at that time i notice that we as human need to adapt ourself to new situation and enviroment and is always no use to blame god for the imperfection.... hmmm then i feel so bad myself for not studying or try half as hard as her... i know for her to study need really more time for her to digest the information then anyone in the world but she have not give up... that time i don know why i feel motivated as in she can do it i can do better....but too bad i never get to know her name.... hmmm i really hope i can be her friend cause i know i can learn alot from her...
then just the other morning when i see the beautiful world in the morning... everyone was in a buoyant mood... then suddenly this though came in to me... no one in this world would pity you even if you were sad for what ever reason... your relatives pass away or what ever so tragic... the world will go on moving with or without you...you can choose to be sad and not move on but as the saying goes time waits for no man... it does not mean that if you are sad time will stop there and wait for you to heal before moving on... hmmm the sun will continue to rise, the world will continue to move on it's normal cycle.... and i remember the girl from that day and i notice that no one in this world will pity you... yes they will but do you really want them to pity you??? hmmm i think if you resolve into self-pity you would not improve yourself... if you want people to see you, to respect you, listen to you then you must have that confident and earn it.... if people don respect you then you must find way to improve yourself then only people will take notice of you...
i just have this insight just the other day and i think that this is very important in life that i want to tell you all... hahahaha if you already know about it then hahahaha i'm a late bloomer... anyway till more insight next time adios |