Thursday, April 28, 2005

just the other day i went to tuition and there was no place so i sat beside a girl.... i never really knew her... but all i know is she is abit invalid... not as in losing a arm or leg but then i think there is abit slow on movement... and she can't walk normally and need a parent to help her in and out of the tuition center... hmmm then i sat down next to her being late i got alot to catch up hence i bz copying the question and she was so kind to tell me what was going on.... then when teacher gives us notes to copy from the board or orally... i notice that she can't really write but she can in a very slow speed... i copy not paying full attention but i saw her writting very slowly... jus so slowly i know she not taking everything down i was tempted to help her let her copy my notes but then after i saw she don need it she have adapt herself to take notes her way tru symbol... what fasinate me is that despite her inabilities she is still trying her best to study form 6 maybe she don have enough money for collage or what ever is the reason.... at that time i notice that we as human need to adapt ourself to new situation and enviroment and is always no use to blame god for the imperfection.... hmmm then i feel so bad myself for not studying or try half as hard as her... i know for her to study need really more time for her to digest the information then anyone in the world but she have not give up... that time i don know why i feel motivated as in she can do it i can do better....but too bad i never get to know her name.... hmmm i really hope i can be her friend cause i know i can learn alot from her...
then just the other morning when i see the beautiful world in the morning... everyone was in a buoyant mood... then suddenly this though came in to me... no one in this world would pity you even if you were sad for what ever reason... your relatives pass away or what ever so tragic... the world will go on moving with or without you...you can choose to be sad and not move on but as the saying goes time waits for no man... it does not mean that if you are sad time will stop there and wait for you to heal before moving on... hmmm the sun will continue to rise, the world will continue to move on it's normal cycle.... and i remember the girl from that day and i notice that no one in this world will pity you... yes they will but do you really want them to pity you??? hmmm i think if you resolve into self-pity you would not improve yourself... if you want people to see you, to respect you, listen to you then you must have that confident and earn it.... if people don respect you then you must find way to improve yourself then only people will take notice of you...
i just have this insight just the other day and i think that this is very important in life that i want to tell you all... hahahaha if you already know about it then hahahaha i'm a late bloomer... anyway till more insight next time adios |

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

last few days i go for my muet exam and i got my result for speaking now... yeah... i got band 6 lolz.... happy.... highest band lo.... then i wanted to tell the world about it but in te process of doing it i found out something that had hurt me so badly but then i'm still surviving....
we as girl should be strong standing and not fall to any of the stupid guys... haih and those that know me well should know what i mean by it and who are they.... hmmm actually i came to find out that 70% of the break up in the world is ask by the guys... why la what happen to the old tradition that girl dump guys not the other way round... guess the world had change the other way round just like the magnetic north pole is going to point to south.... (if you don know what am i talking about you should see more national geograph... hmmm and i say is fact that the magnetic north was never the truth north) hahahhaha....
revelution change the world and i think now girls are dominant to rule the world... like me... girls nowadays face more chanllange then last time trust me nowadays guys are so "gentlemen"... they won open the door for girls anymore but slam it in their face...haih such guys... mind you i'm not talking about every guys in this world... but most of it... especially those guy in my class trust me...
even we girls want equal right but there was never equal right to more important things like promotion in job and not to say also the availibility of jobs in the market..they prefer guys then girls cause of the days they have to take off for pregnancy or for their children... so much for equal rights... |

Thursday, April 21, 2005

i don understand some poeple especially girls like to diet.... they want to be as thin as a stick ( i'm talking about myself also) but then today my dad words have woken me up from this dream
actually he is right it does not matter who we are or how we look as long as we are healthy and have a good mind to thin... some people only want to diet and make themself so liveless... as in no energy at all don say walking around talking also a difficult task for them... in such condition when problem arise it would be hard for people that don have enough energy to think of a perfect solution.... they will decide a irrational decision which i think they will regret.... with all this dieting it effect not only our health but also our work... this means study.... our brain work on fat and also oxygen... when no food go in how do you expect it to work... hmmm
anyway some girls want to be as thin as stick and i'm not saying that i'm not one of them but what is their reason of being so thin... they say that thin is beautiful... hmmm but this i don agree with them... some fat people can be beautiful too... actually i prefer to say that beauty came from the heart... have you seen some "beautiful" people ( those walking stick) but have the look of a wicked witch... i don think that they are beautiful... but i do see some plump people which are more pleasent to be with... they have a more friendly face that make people wants to be with them... it also doesn't mean that a plump people cannot be popular... they can have alot of friends with their pleasent looking figure... heheheheh
last but not least i think that health is the most important thing in life...what happen if you take slimming pills and got thin and then you have to go for operation which cost a bomb... hmmm maybe sometimes it not as easy as operation cause some product can cause people to die.... is it worth the risk of it taking just for this... hmmm what is the reason of being so slim.... is it cause of yourself? boys? i think alot of girls reason will be guys... but then if they really like you they will like you for who you are... get my point? |

Monday, April 18, 2005

hmm looks like my blog really freeze already... anyway i got nothing much interesting to blog only...sob sob... i have to say good bye soon to my best online friend...hmmm...miss me you know... hahahahhaha you know who you are...this is my short summary of what happen to me over the past few weeks....
anyway we have shift class to another class in another blog in school and i think it should be fine there.... this is because pn lee son went for a operation and he need to use the class which is near to the lab... ok anyway hope you get well soon...
2day pn fatimah the pengetua retirement and as usual sux,.. i feel that alot of taman sea formal ocassion not as nice as dj..maybe i'm use to dj format....hmmm
next muet coming and i need to buck up on mu english...despite the fact that i'm facing exam but i'm still able to maintain a buoyant mood...
i've been quite forgetful this few weeks..hmmm forget my tie sometimes my glasses sometimes my books!!!! maybe next time myself..hahahhah
hmm went out with kiat on saturday...feed the fish.... went for a movie and few game of pool and futsbal...(of course i win cause i'm the pro muahahahha)
other then that nothing much matter like taking a bath, eating, sleeping, online, toilet..hahahha and of course last but not least study...
till then adios |

Monday, April 11, 2005

jus updating so there is song heheheh hope you enjoy for the moment |

Saturday, April 09, 2005

hiya people... hmmm long time din write my blog i got alot of things to do in school and stuff to prepare and i think i'm gona freeze my blog a while maybe until after the exam cause right now i don think i got much thing to crap...
plus streamxy connection sux this few days maybe cause if maintaince and also my blog suddenly no song alr.. after exam i think i change the whole thing... including the skin...ehehehhe
my exam is on may till then adios |

Monday, April 04, 2005

you know what i found something out.... actually confident play a very important role in your life no matter what age you are.... actually there are small small things in life that need your confident and then only you can find yourself brave to face the challange in life....
there are little things in life that you might not notice... like knowing a friend... talking to someone new in school or even facing exam... trust me it really take great confident to do that....sometimes people need to do things that its outside our comfort zone.... comfort zone are places that we feel comfortable doing.... like maybe playing piano.... do homework which we usually do..... those are nothing and slowly you will think what is the purpose of life....
me i know what is it like to be outside your comfort zone... trust me i learn this lesson this year... you don have to be the best to be happy... you can get last in class and end up feeling happy yourself.... you might think i'm crazy... if not cause i have experience it myself i think that i'm crazy too.... hmmm i lost a debate in school but then i'm happy about it... reason??? very simple... cause i took up the courage to join the competition even though i'm scare.... i took the challange to it when other people don even dare to join... this is what i'm proud of myself.... i finish a 10 km race.... my dad told me i must be crazy but then i did it.... y??? cause i got confident that i can do it....and i did it.... i'm so proud of myself after that.... really sometimes when i feel like giving up but i never do..... cause i told myself that winner never quit quiter never win....and this is true,..and don i love that sentence...... if you give up the chances if you winning is total 0 but if you try there is a posibility that you win even the chance are slim... serious there are times when i though i'm fighting a down hill battle and i told myself that.... and it brough me to where i am now... there are times when i really want to give up... like the time when i'm taking spm... i realy feel like dying and killing myself and when things are done i look back feeling proud of myself....
another perfect example....i went on a surviver camp... heheheheh the battle is tough i have to carry a 10 kg bag hike up.... other then that i have to take can food up.... but i told my self winner never give up and i continue... after i finish i was so proud of myself that even if you give me a trophy it won beat the feeling of me accomplish that thing...
there are small small goal that you don see in life and those are actually challange that can make you in to a better person then you are mentally ready for bigger challenge.... small small things like quiting games....to facing life and death... can you just give up like that??..those people that kill themself are people that are not mature enough to face the challenge that have been given to them by god.... |

Saturday, April 02, 2005

yesterday we had a very fun talk by Pn Harban for the MUET (Malaysian University Entrance Test) exam which will be held on the 30 of april and i really hope i can get at least a band 5 and then gain experience and take it exam again end of the year and get a band 6.... the thing as fun and not like any boring talk and miriclely i manage to survive the 2 hour talk without feeling restless... hahhaha it was fun anyway.... but during the real exam i really don know how to face it just hope that i can crap... ive been trying to join all sort of speaking activies hopefully it can help me in the muet exam... hahahah like the jus a minute competition....
haih talking about exam my half year exam is coming in may already and i'm regreting for not studying i really don know if i can get through this exam without me looking like a baffoon...hmmm maybe is true i've been playing too much already...but anyway i hope that i can really catch up on my study especially maths... heheheheh stress stress stress.... never mind la.... as long as i do the best i can then i think it will be alright....
dictionary had been my best friend for this few month and i'm so glad that i have learn so many words that i never know before and hope to use them and i think people will understand... anyway i think i should use the word that i have found if not that is not much use to it right.... and there this camp that i've been planing and i hope that it will be ok... this is my first time planing for camp and in such a stress condition.... actually talking about club and society i think i'm not a really good president i cannot plan acitivities for the members and i know they are bored to death and i don blame them... there are alot of activities that i have plan but then there is no action to them... i really hope that the next meeting that we have can have some fun games... i think is not that hard right...hmmmm...
anyway adios my maths book is calling to me and i hate to say good bye...hahahahha |

Friday, April 01, 2005

this is a dota song that my friend and i have create with the lagu bahasa jiwa bangsa i hope you like it hahahhaha
main dota amalan kebangsaan kita
marilah bermain sama sama
dengan teamwork kita pasti akan berjaya
kalau tak gunakan manta saja
marilah pemain mari dota
buktikan skol anda
dengan mencabar saya
majulah dota maju negara
bermain sampai gila
dotalah jiwa bangsa
hmmm if you know the tune you can sing it hope you enjoy it.... |