Monday, March 28, 2005

haih there is alot of things that i don understand at all... what are the goverment trying to do?? you know what am i saying?? they are trying to change the maths and sciences back to bahasa melayu....OMG!!!you said that the grade of maths and science have drop after changing into bahasa melayu... but then they only have started the project 3 years ago and this year is the first year of having maths and science in english for PMR who can you judge it??
after debating for some time if they did the right move to change maths and science subject to be taught in english and at last they implement it...what's their objective of changing this thing... well they want student to have a better control of english language (noticing the importancy of english language as one of the main language in the world)... well they have did so much and spend so much money to train the teacher...and i think their plan is working now...i mean you can't hope to have it work over night and you need time... i think this change have made a very positive change for me... i notice that i can spell better and learn more word..learn the right grammer and stuff and i personally think that my english has improve dramastically...plus i get alot of extra notes online from other country which is in english...and it has improve my way of studying from reading in various way...
now you tell me you want to change the whole thing to bahasa melayu??hmmm ok fine you say that the grade for maths and science have drop for malays... have you though of the reason?? ok it might be the language change and they do not understand...but then how about other race..maths and science has nothing to do with language but understand and apply.... if student don understand they can always stay back or ask teacher on the spot to reexplaine it in bahasa melayu...as long as you get the concept i think you can use it anyway...
i personally think that languange is not a excuse for dropping in grades...i think that what is important in choosing the language for teaching is the student find it easy to find extra information from other sources like the internet or notes from other country which will make the lesson interesting... student will naturally get use to the language after sometime using it....as they say pratice make perfect...
i hope that the goverment would really think about their decission clearly and look at the impact before making their decision...like i said before their desicion will affect the whole country's future and i don wish the goverment take us student as white mice just to try out how their plan work... |

Sunday, March 27, 2005

hiya people I'M BACK...did you miss me??? hahahah yes i went back to johor for ching ming and guess what i got nothing but load of boring fact to feed you all...hahhahaha hmmm so whats new
i went back on saturday afternoon so i cannot go to seow kit birthday so sorry dear i try to make it to you k... it was raining heavily and my dad have to drive very very slowly like lets say 60Km/hour??? hmmm cause he can't see the road and i don blame him for that... we reach there after like 4 excuciating hour...(my poor porr butt)
then we eat and watch tv and went shopping and slp...hahhaah the next day at about 5.45 my dad woke us up and we have to go to the grave...hmm still very dark and cold but my mom ask us to wear short pants and hence we have to follow...so cold in the morning like the air con is on....hmmm never mind that... we wore the jacket in the car and we went to the grave...there is already alot of people there cleaning their own ancestor grave... there are also alot of fire cracker to be seen... never mind that but the whole area is dark and it look abit spooky to me as i can't even see where am i going and i have to figure out which is my grandpa grave... finally upon reaching the right one we have to figure out how to start our work and also wait for other relatives to start our work... and when everyone is here..is almost 7 and we can see clearly where is everything and we started by poking candles and incences at the grave i mean on the top and throw color papers...the grave ever look so colorful...hahahha then we have fire cracker and it was so loud that i din't really enjoy that part of it.... as the last part we had our food there...yum yum the food was delicious... then about 9 we had to say good bye....sitting in the car and the bumpy road remind me of horse ridding...till next time...sayonara |

Friday, March 25, 2005

i went to this indian wedding can say as indian malay wedding we went there and i notice i was not dressing what i was suppose to dress they were all wearing sari and their traditional costume.... i was wearing the usual clothers...hahahha
the relatives were singing in their language which i had no idea what are they talking about and oh ya and only all the girls are allow in the house that means her brother and also the father are not allow in....hahhahah
then the bridegroom relatives came here and only the girls as usual came in... then the bride came down with a wonderful i think traditional wedding dress and then they started singing and then the relatives took of the ribbon on her hair and then later the cake was brough out and her mother and anuties have to feed her the cake and there were candles like birthday cakes...hahahha i don know the meaning of it though... then there is people colouring hena on her hand.... her mother giving us some mixute of nuts and chocolate which we bring home... then we got the little hair do thing...hahahha and we had our dinner and ciao... so much for first hand experience |

ok ok redirecting to the flasher...hmmm big news... read all about it..hhahahahah one and only in kimmy and mine blog(pls see the link for details and go to kimmy blog for more information of THE FLASHER)hahahahahh hmm maybe it should be the movie called the flasher... ok cut the crap
so you people want to know what happen that day after that day when i eet pn julie and report to her... she was petrified...hmmm ok ok maybe is abit too much but she was all the same horrified that such people do MASTERBED IN FRONT OF INNOCENT SCHOOL GIRLS... yes and i''m talking about me hahhaha ok well i'm not that innocent to....
she brough me to see puan puah and also encik ong which happen to be not in their office at that time and so i did not log a report..hmmm but pn julie say she will came and find me soon to report the matter... eventually i found out that this thing had already happen one month and the school had not taken any action yet...hmmm maybe there is no danger in it yet...they have to wait till someone be a rape victim of our school only they willing to do something about it??well won that be abit slow and by that time they cannot do anything...
well i remember last time in damansara jaya there is a flasher there and encik siva took action immediately and chase the flasher with his infamous rotan..hahhaha came to think of it its funny... imagine that a man holding a rotan in his hand on his motor chasing another man in his motor too..hahhaha but the point is they did something to it and it never happen...
hmmm i don know what lucky did kimmy had that she had to see thing "process" 3 times...hahhahah kimmy you got the luck while some poeple dying to see what it look like hahhahaha you know who am i talking about...sherry...hmmm you get your luck one day...hahahha
but i do hope the culprit would be caught soon and sent to the mental hospital for check up and might as well throw him in some isolated mental hospital where he can flash all he like...hahhahaha where there is nobody to react to his action...hmmm
taman sea.... so slow in talking action and i do hope that they take this matter in to serious consideration as this will cause harm to innocent student like me ahem hahhaha and also cause us to have mental disorder...hahahhaha people i know you are laughing cause i'm laughing too while writting this thing... |

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

well well well i don know what i saw that day but according to them is a flasher...hmmm now i know what flasher do??? well this is not realy flashing but... anyway here's the story
I came out from school at about 4.15 after my house pratice to wait for my mom and i saw a unser silver in color pack in front of me...i did not suspect a thing cause i though maybe he is a father like anyone waiting for his son or daughter... i continue looking the other way for my mom and when i turn over the horror...
i saw something which i though is a rubber and the door was slightly open and then i saw the hand moving up and down...OMG he is masterbeding in front of the school in front of 2 girls.. which i douth the other gul know what he is doing...
i din want to look at him and i was hoping that my mom came fast to me and take me away...hmmm but anyway i sometimes look at his way and i saw he holding tissue so i guess he is very high and almost ejaculate gua...hmmm ok fine he finish already then he drive off....
then when i tell my experince to other people and they say this is not the first time it happen and it usually happen at that time... some guls say i'm so lucky but i don think there is anything to be lucky about...hahahha |

Monday, March 21, 2005

anyway i don know why they say that homosapien( that is us human) is the most intelligent creature on earth...hmmm maybe they are right but ir does not alwiz have to be that the smartest is the best as i see that human have alwiz resulting in their problem....
to me i think animals are the best... ok fine we human are also counted as animals on this face of earth but we don call yourself animals but human(means inteligent man) haih....you see animals have simple mind and hence they lead a very happy life.... of course those that you see food you eat you tired you sleep..... haih i know that some animals are unfortunate too like humans they have class but i think that human tend to have less problem....hmmm maybe is not totally true...
you see i notice that like animals they don have to go tru break ups.... they don need money to buy what they want (eventually what they want is the basic of suriving) but humans... what are they thinking... they are the most greedy creature that god had ever create....they have what they needed.... like food and clothes and what more they want... better food better clothes.... well that is why human need more cash(in human language that is what they call it) and when we can't get what we want we will use our INTELLIGENCE to get it by all means... haih
and look around you how much has our intelligent affect us... ok fine we cut out some great discovery like electricity and car and house.... but the cunning of the world.... getting more cash by all mean.... cash mean everything to humans.... statues.....better food...better transport.....everything better......
our intelligence has also make the world a horrible place to leave.... nuclear bombs..... toxic waste.....wars.....drugs..all this causes animals and even us the intelligent species to live... we are making life difficult for even ourselves...
but i think god had plans for HE know that we will use our intelligence to do bad things and hence we will restart the world...means end of the world and everything will restart once more....maybe in each few million years the earth will be totally destroyed and became one again.... |

Saturday, March 19, 2005

today i went to red box with the big big family hahahaha.... eventually i snatch and sing all the song that is available and also i know how to sing la... lalalallalalalalla
sing sing and shout shout so nice like release frustration only.... so good
those are the song that i want to sing then same with those that yeong hui want to sing so we sing togather lo with jason.... i think in the room me and yeong hui and also jason hold the mic the most but still the winner goes to me.... hahahahah
anyway my hp jus came out from hospital today hahahah thank you thank you.....and also i got a new purse from jason sim hahahahh thank you thank you....
mmmm i also don know when will i go to red box again lo..... so sad....... |

Thursday, March 17, 2005

hmmm i was thinking this song it sound really like me from a chinese song and also you know who i meant....
i'm upset and you don say much what have we miss out now
there is a small smile but there is still a sad look
holding your hand and ask if this is your decision
who have you given your heart too
i chase and chase but i can't get it back
i understand those leaves that fall will have to reach the ground
the line from "xian"(a musical instrument)is broken
i play it once more
you are no longer in my world
my finger now have played the wrong key
but i still can't have you back in my life
the line from the xian is broken
no matter how i pratice
my feeling you can't see anymore
the change in you like the line
no matter how i fix it the sound of it will never be right
the change in you i can tell |

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

yesterday i went to sungai wang to walk and also play some game to release fustration... and there got so many arcade is like paradise to my brother..... errr minus the people in it... went in.... full of smoke despite the no smoking sign.... not like they are illiterate.... haih malaysian.......
anyway... i played alot of game and one of it is shooting... hmm i migt consider playing that next time as i played better then my brother.... well you know the shooting game called time crises....
then we walk down the main road and it gives me the feeling of of hap ngai in thailand(not sure of the spelling) where the whole stress are full of people trying to sell their service reflexlogy or know as foot massage... haih.. at least 10 shop down the road till bintang walk....
on the way back we went to this back lane and trust me i saw something very unbelievable.... i saw rats... normal right.... how about rats that are the saiz of a 4 weeks old cat..... unbelievable.... i never saw so many rats before in my life... rubbish there were shaking and what i saw was 5/6 rats and there are still rubbish shaking so there must be the whole family...grandpa...grandma..... uncles... aunties and cousin... hahahahah and it is at the hawker centre.... so people... don eat there near sungai wang... |

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

hmmm today nothing much... just came back from tuition and then online lo.... hmmm i wonder how many things you appreciate in your life... how many things you notice but din bother about it...
yesterday i had a little chat and i found out that someone was disturb about my action.... i guess that person never though that i would leave... hmmm
anyway.... that is not te point.... i mean alot of things in life you took for granted and in the end when you lost it then you will realise how important is that thing to you... you might not realise it.. it can be your mother or your father... i know that parents sacrified alot of things and you din't notice cause of your own selfishness.... they will do anything to give you the best to protect you from any danger and harm... but have you ever notice and give them a big fat hug to let them feel tha what they are doing is worth it?? parents are not going to be here forever ok... they will pass away anytime... it might be the next moment that they are involve in a accident or something(touch wood) but there is a possibility and then you only notice how much they have done for you... hmmm that time you will regret for the rest of your life... since you are going to regret doing something why don you do something that you won regret??
look around you... you might have the best friends around you but how long can they be there for you??? learn to be with them learn to communicate and then you see that you learn much more important stuff then your books can ever teach you that is people skill... learn to live in every moment and so when you look back you know you won regret which is the most important thing in life... when you regret and regret you cannot make the right desicion and hence it lead to more regret... hmmmm (i think i became confusious alr hahahha)
but i hope you all know that things don last forever and you have to let things go as time pass... so don grab on things that you like so hard that it will give great suffering when you let those go... like i told (him) if you don let the small fish go how are you going to have big fish means if you have to let go certain things to achieve what you want..... i think i also have to remind myself that... hahahaha.....
last but not least do take care of yourself ok.... |

Sunday, March 13, 2005

today i make a decision that can effect my whole life... i don know what i did is correct or not but.... i don know..... i think it will be alright after sometime..... haih people makes alot of decision daily and most important is that they learn not to regret... and thankfully i think i did not regret on any of my action only one and i don know if what i did today will i regret in the future... i think i would not and i may stick to it no matter what happen
i told this person that i don want to see him for the rest of my life and i said that he will not even hear my voice for the rest of his life.... and i do hope that is not a rush decision... hmmm... i don know what the future hold but alot of people had been telling me the same thing.... anyway since i decided to make it then i must stick to it...
hmmm i was thinking of migrating for some reason but was objected by some people that claim to miss me...but i don know i think he have not read my last post and i think it might be a better option to move hhehehehe.... plus if he really miss me he will have to move over...
i heard from my friend that if i move to australia there can diet and also eat all you can... ahahhah cause of the cold wether that you have to eat more to keep yourself warm... hmmmm... good idea...
my whole body is now in pain cause of yesterday work out... hahahahah i think i got i lost some fats so worth it la... especially my legs.. i think some pants are lost alr... congrats to me |

Saturday, March 12, 2005

hai this week i also not in much mood la.... only keep checking my mail hoping to get a email from someone that will be leaving soon.... haih at last he went away already(don get the wrong meaning he is not death jus that maybe we won get to contact each other already) i don know when and why i became so close to him... maybe he knows alot of things about me and i feel tat i know him for ages gua... but anyway that is not the point... i just hope he is happy and contact me once in a while...heheheh but i remember the last time i feel like that was last year when things happen.....
now really got nothing much to think about i only want to think about my study and get good scholarship and fly away and never came back....hmmm i'm planing to go to england to study leh.... but for now i must save enough money cause my parents only got enough money to pay me for my tution and living expanses all on me... but i don mind... i really want to experince the different culture of a different country... the cold weather...hmmm maybe be there and never came back gua...actually there's nothing much that is left to remember here lo.... maybe my parents only few friends... infact 90 percent of my friends have leave the country to australia or uk and england already... i was thinking when only can i join them there... but as i'm not from a rich family i need to work harder then any of them... i'm not born with a golden spoon and i can't afford it....
haih maybe they are right studying is the best time in your life you get to enjoy it to your fullest but not in this modern world where children don even know how to play batu seremban or how to climb a tree or jus fly a kite.... they are missing the essential skills of life... alot of people are born and everything had been laid there and all they have to do is follow the road there have been there wherether they like it or not... that is s sad.... this make a person to became depent on other people for decision... and do not have to ability to make important desicion for the rest of their life that is so horrible right... how much worst can this society can became...they are turning people in to a robot... children will be lack of creative skill which is the essence of live....
like that day i was having a conversation with kin seng.... he said that friday is the only day that he can go home right after school... and i totally agree with him... monday i got meeting and tuition same goes for tuesday and also wednesday.. thursday i got tuition... haih and all this is taking too much time...and we both agree that we don have enough time for even our homework... is this the way of life?? i really don know i only took 2 tuition what about people who took every subject... i don understand what will happen to them... where they get the sleeping time... in class??? that was totally opposite.... we are suppose to learn in class not sleep... till one point i don see the point of going to school...
but don get me wrong i don mean that we should play and leave the rest out... i mean we should learn to divide the time and sould not attend so much tuition till we don have enough time for even our homework what about play time.... i will not be surprise that is next time in the future when our children will not even know how to solve a simple task without even refering to the book.... haih.... i know i only can say here and there is nothing i can do cause as we know parents wants the best for the children and the best here means best education and chance for them to excel...want them to have the best job with maximum money to earn.... but they din know that this way will kill their creative and innovative skill which will kill them even more...
i'm thankful my parents don push me to the max... even i have it when i was younger... my dad don believe in tuition so tuition is to the minimum...he believe in play time and i will do the same to my kids next time(that is if i married la).... |

Sunday, March 06, 2005

an unfamiliar sound ringing at the background and took me sometime to realise that it is my new alam clock.... i got up look at the time it was 4.45am and went to brush my teeth...thinking how should i wake my dad up... his room was still close and i guess the air con is still on.... i came out and lucky my dad open the room door and saw me... he ask if it was that early and i said yes.... we went to the bathroom and i went down to make myself a milo and warm up the pizza my sister had brough... hahhah this sound like story ok fine straight to the point i had my marathon and i meet in school at 5.25am and wait for puviyal mom to fetch us to the dataran merdeka for the 10km marathon... hahhaha
we reach there and we saw that the 21km marathon is about to start... we saw some leng chai and they started runing.... we were nervous about yourself being able to finish the race is one thing but only within the time limit you get a cert... i was determine to finish it within the time limit which was 1 and a half hour... hahahah... finally we went inside the starting point and me and my friends(kha chun,sharon,puviyal,jia lin,calvin,kiat,kuang chian blah blah blah srry i can't name everyone here cause i'll fill the whole blog)we were very semangat and talking non stop even plan to go out after the thing is over... we found out that this is not only malaysian taking apart people from all over the world came like canada and thailand... hahahha so this is the international cert.... i must get it so i can get into local uni easier...then there is a person birthday and as a tradition we all sang her a birthday song...
finally the people in front start to count down and the loud sound of the gun start the race.. as usually everyone will start runing and fast too... hahahha we run at our own pace... run and run and run and then we started to walk.... hahahhaha
i walk and walk and walk but i walk fast and i din run much but still hoping to finish the thing and get the cert... while walking we enjoy the "senery" we saw time square and sogo and also the buses and cars all honk at us.... i would take that as encouragement but the fact is they are impatient and ask us to run faster i din take note of it can continue walking.....
considering the fact that i'm in the middle it would be a very nice position... where runner over take me and i over take the walkers... time pass by and i wonder where are my friends... hmmm.... i was getting tired and wonder if this race was ever gonna end... my ankle starting hurt now... but i told myself that winner never quit even if i don get a cert i will feel happy if i get to finish the race.... i walk and walk down the lonely streets... and what happen was i notice this guy with the tag k09 i keep over take him and he over take me back so is like i see him all the time... hahahha but then the last few meters i din see him at all i was runing... i heard they say it is only another 3 more minutes to the cert... and i was only a few meters away so a run and run and run and well thanks to my legs.. they are prefectly fine and i got the cert... muahahahha happy....din realy think i can finish the thing with a cert in te first place but i'm so happy i did it.... i'm so tired that i sat down and din want to get up....stared at air for a few minutes... and walk to my friends...
finally the thing is over and we sit puviyal mom car back to the bahagia station singing along the way....( must be the endolphine) hahahah i reach home and we went out to eat... on the way back home i saw this thick smoke coming not far away and my mom want to go and look but i rather go back n sleep....but according to my mom is a car that is burn i don know what happen but i think tomorrow the newspaper will have the news... i rather wait for the papers... hahahhaha then after awhile i heard the sirens of ambulans and as well as police cars... but i think what they need most now is the fire bomba... hahahahhah but anyway i hope that there everyone is safe and no casualty in this accident...
that's all for today jasmin signing off.....ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzZZZzzzz |

Saturday, March 05, 2005

arlo i'm back again to talk some crap which i think you will be bored of reading... considering the fact that i'm bored i got nothing to do i should really have consider the "proposal" people have ask me out and i should really really go... haih now i regret cause i got nothing to do only to sit in front of the tv and computer and then sleep and repeat the ritual... hahahhahah
Anyway i was wondering what you people alwiz do when you are bored..for me nothing much cause i think the bed is my best friend... hahahha i sleep so much that people say i start to involve in to a pig... i don know why am i writting this but i think maybe i want to improve myself in crapping.. considering the fact that i have a oral test coming up and that test is to test my ability to crap... haih considering the fact that i'm only good at craping in group i think i'll never make it...
ohya just to update you all my favourite sentence now is "considering the fact"... i don know where i pick the sentences from but i think most likely it is from yuan teng... hahhaha i think it suit all condition considering the fact that the fact only i know... muhahahahaha.... but i alwiz try not to show i love this sentences cause in my camp there is this guy who is famous or rather infamous with the word "ultimately" which i don know why he use ot so often also... ahahahha and eventually they tease him with the word...
i was planing to study today but i don think i got the mood to do so... i don know why(must be the weather) hahahhaha yes i'm alwiz blaming on something else except myself....
lets talk about my muet test which i will have in another like few months time... considering the fact that i can't as well crap for 2 minute i might be failing and i have to take the test again end of the year... why this test is so important is because muet stands for malaysia university entrance test... which means that if you fail this test... errr i don think you can fail it but anyway lets rephrase it if i fail to get band 5 and above i'm gona torture myself over and over and over again... hahahha by reading more english books.... hahahahah and also you fail to go into any local university... considering the fact(there i go again) that there are not enough place for all form 6 student to go into local uni and also considering the fact that i don have enough money in my pocket to bring me to private collage..even if i can go in to collage it will burn a hole in my pocket....
talking about english i really have yuan teng to thanks...she really taugh me alot.... as in the way i'm speaking now... hahahahha she influnce me(that is why i say friends are important they influnce you the most) she would look in to the dictionary from time to time and look up for new word to use and we pick it up from her...now i like to flip tru the dictionary...hahahhaha we came tru words like corpulating... hahahha if you don know what that means go check the dictionary..and i think i pick up alot of nice term to use... hahhah thank you yuan...
oh ya and do you all know that according to pei yee and kian kiat i have the mentality of a 9 year old kid... which they claim that i run and hop around like small little kids(hey i object this is not totally true) ok fine i admit that i do run around like small kids but not all the time.... i do my homework ( pei yee: but you never finish them in time) yes yes but at least i still do... can you tell me how a mentality of a 9 year old kids can do math question as hard as form 6 lever... hahahahah i guess i must be a genius..(pei yie: ya ya ya ) ok fine i must haven given myself alot of credit... but as humans we must have confident... hahahah but of course not as much confident as johnathan.... hahahahhaha
i think that is all the crap i can think off... until next time take care...
jasmin signing off....zzzZZZZzzzz

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Friday, March 04, 2005

dear you know who you are i don know if you read this thing but i really want you to read this... sorry for the misunderstanding i have made to you but like you i'm also worry about my friend... hahhahaha
but anyway thanks you have help me and him alot in certain ways... i know what you mean was good but there are certain ways of doing it maybe to me and kiat is the wrong way but.... thanks anyway... ya i'll appreciate all of my friends.... and i know i got a whole lot of good friends... thanks..
sorry if you don want me to post this thing here but i think you know where is my blog and i don know how can i contact you... so i think i'll write this here....to people who don understand this posting please ignore... hehhehehe jasmin signing off..

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Thursday, March 03, 2005

sometimes i don know if my exsistance here on earth is the right thing or not... i really really don know..seem like my exsistance on earth have cause alot of trouble and alot of things which i think other normal people don have to go through... i think maybe i don exsist then everything will be different...
haih i'm in a dilema now which i got no idea how should i choose... i really don know how... i don know if i should be with a guy that sacrified everything for me and i really meaning everything.... please tell me what should i do....... maybe if i don exsist in this world then everything will be so different... at least my ex won have someone like a ghost like that following him around... my sister can have the whole room to herself... my mom don have to be so angry with me all the time....my brother will not have to complaine so much about me... then my friends.... i think it might be much better not being on earth...
haih.... alot of things don work out the way we want it to be and choices is all we have to do.. which you think is more worth it you do but if not you don do... but sometime choosing something can be so difficult.....
i really don want to be in this world anymore......maybe is better this way...

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