Thursday, December 30, 2004

i don know why but i just feel like helping the victim of tsunami.... maybe i'm in a very fortunate condition lo... just feeling pityful to those victim.... let it be jus rm 50 or maybe jus rm 10 actually it mean alot to them....
so now i'm trying to find my old clothers and see if i can donate anything else.... heheheh...
anyway if you guys are interested in donating stuff and only stuff you can contact me...
they now need stuff like biscuit,blanket,and old clothers... pls don donate can food cause it's oily.....
you can contact me at 0122280862...
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Wednesday, December 29, 2004

errr.... actually i got something to write today but i don remember alr... so sad rite sob sob...today went gym again this type do stomach and leg and hand... ohya.... after the work out my stomach was so pain very hard to move hahahha can't imagine what it is like tomorrow... anyway today i and a friend sue hui went to gym right... then after the work out we did kick boxing with the instrutor then after that we had our chance of punching the instructor... of course i got a advantage cause i'm a black belt so i can punch him more accurately.... hehehheeh
can't wait for the next time cause we mite be doing some boxing heheheh as in he can't touch us but we punch him... evil rite
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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

jus now i went out to feed my mom fish and i was looking at them swimming around so freely... then i saw some baby guppies swimming around... then i start ti think back the last time when i first got my first group of babies... i was so excited about it and started to ask my friend about how to take care of the babies....
my friend say i need to take them out and put them in another container jus incase the adult eat the babies....
i put some stone in it cause brian koko say that the baby can't eat the guppies food but eat the alga on the stone.... at first i got 6 and i take them out and look at them everyday.... day by day they grow big and slowly they have colour... but un fortunately 2 of them die and left 4... after they grow big i put them back in to the tank... came to think of it i was so stupid to separate them cause they can live togather like my mom now rare those that i separate them when they are baby they are so big now... and living with their babies....
heheheheh then again i remember how stupid i was.... once there was a preganant fish jump out of water and die... i see what a pity cause there is little fishes inside... so i think about the show that i have saw... they cut the lady stomach to save the baby and so i follow the show... i told a knife and begin to cut the fish stomach but unlucky the baby fish are not alive... so i throw them into the dust bin...hahahah
same to think of it am i very stupid....
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Saturday, December 25, 2004

today i went sunway lagoon with a friend... is just a friend... we went there and there were alot of people lining up... we took half an hour or more to get the tickets and went in....
the first stop.. well is a wet game... you sit in the boat and you turn around n around on the water and then there's water splashin on you... they say you might get abit wet but i don think that is abit lo...the water splashing on the all over(lucky i'm wearing black)and my friend name is jason he was complaning that he is all wet with his jeans and leather shoe.... hahhaha and complaining that i din warn him that is gona be wet... well i also din know anyway...
then next thing we played is the shoe thingy.... jason din't understand why are the people shouting when they are going round and round...but then later he understand lo...he was excited by the ride.... hahahhaah the shoe was so small and 2 big buffelo sitting inside you know how camp is it... and you know la moving in a very fast speed you tend to move abit... so he is the one that kena kemit... ahahhahaha
the next thing that we sit is the rollarcoaster.... hmmm fast but not that scarry.... so okla.... then i force him to sit the log thingy with me... you know those type when you sit and fall and get all wet.... he din't want to get wet cause oh his precious beg and shoe.... but finally i won and he follow.... we got all wet and that is enough to be wet till we reach home....
the weather becaem very nice to us... is not sunny... heheheh but not raning also but going to rain...
next we sit the gold mine rollarcoaster.... that was fun.... jason say he won't shout but....haih... he was shouting... loudly too.... i was laughing at him and of course shouting... this rollarcoaster is different... is the fast type but also as usual not that scarry..... it was fun i would sit again if only there is less people waiting...
the next game we play is the boat thingy that goes up and down... nothing much there... there is no space left so he have to sit behind of me instead of beside but anyway it makes no different... i'm enjoying every moment anyway... so the boat started to move up n down.... and we were laughing... of course i was laughing but the "person" behind were shouting... so he is scare....
the next and the last game which we played cause it rain after that but this game we play two time... this is the turning 360 degree is his idea and i'm scare but i just follow...
we took the front sit.... you know the best excitment is alwiz the front sit..at first was ok till they was it like 90 degrees till you see the floor straight.... then we were shouting again... someone claim that he won shout... but he shouted louder then me... hahahah.... later when he got down he said he was glad to be alive.... but i force him to teman me sit again....then it started to rain so we run to sp...
there we had nasi lemak.... which he say i came all the way to sp to eat nasi lemak and is those small small stall there.... then after the meal he say it was good... so the conclusion is never trust him in his word... cause he alwiz do the opposite....hahahaha....sry jason if you reading this
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Thursday, December 23, 2004

jus to update
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Wednesday, December 22, 2004

today i went to 1u and experience something that is so nice n extra ordinary.... they have this santa giving present to little kids... well before santa came down it started to snow... and the whole place was wonderful i really feel very ham fook..its really a beautiful sight.... really you see the snow falling down in front of a wonderful castle and also santa instead of riding the reindeer he abseiling down...
seeing santa coming down in a snowing situation which make me feel on top of the world... i really think that nothing can top on that... dou you think so... welli don have a camera to take it down but you can go n see it next time... hehehe
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now finally i found the meaning to life...when i first started thinking what is life all about i really don know... maybe you grow up and you work then you married then you die... i personally believe in rebirth so you are born and grow up and so and so and so... what ever is it...
but suddenly i got this insight that i know what is life all about... to me life is all about making this world a better place to life in... to feel contented with what you got and also help others that are less fortunate then you...
sometime you might be thinking if i help them who is to help me.... well... you should really count your blessing... sometimes is there and you don realise it till its really gone...like you should be happy when there's food to eat... water to drink clothers to wear( mind you i mean clothers not branded) money to buy what you need... or what you desire....but people tend to compare with other people which is well off then them and they suffer cause they want what they cannot get... this is not life...if this is life then this world will not have peace cause of the greed of people in the world...
As they say this world is enough for everyone needs but not enough for one mans greed...to me my defination of rich is not in term of material but in terms of how rich is your heart.... jus look around you... how many people cannot even have a proper meal... proper clothers behind their back... not to say malaysia... jus look at africa look at those people there.... then you know what i mean....
look at yourself... aren't you happy with yourself... i mean you got everything that a normal human got.... eyes that can see nose that can smell hand that can work leg that can run and etc..... i believe you have also notice that there are alot people who are less fortunate then you... mentally retarded that need other people care.... handicap that need to be specially taken care of... and what you all complaning... i look so ugly i wish i'm better looking... you should be thankful that god given you the whole set of body what else do you want...
people then to alwiz take their parents for granted.... usual stuff right.... look at the ophan in the ophanage.... so many of them wish they have parents to love them to care for them to play with them to even have a meal with them... and what you all complaning.... my parents not understanding enough.. my parents don love me enough... fine one day when they pass away not by your side then only you regret is it??
that is y we must count our blessing and help those less fortunate this is the meaning of life to me....
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Tuesday, December 21, 2004

testin
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serioualy i don know why but i feel so sad but also excited today.... excited is maybe i'm going sunway lagoon on sat...sad maybe is cause of some people lo you all know who... anyway.... today i went to the gym and i was so tired... i din't eat my breakfast and start working out and trust me is terrible... anyway tomorrow i'm going again and i promiss i'm gona eat breakfast k
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Saturday, December 18, 2004

hmm today is the first time i went shopping with may li and i found something that i really want to buy but no money... guess i have turn myself into a shopperholic... but who cares... i mean how often we shop... anyway we went to this shop call AZ and we found this really unique dress in a very unique colour (dreamy green) well i alwiz love dreamy colour... there are also dreamy blue and pink but i guess you don see green often... so me and may li tried the dress... ok to be truthful... i have to fit in to xl... haih so me and may li was like looking at each other and say must diet.. but the fact is that the shop cloths abit the small lo( i'm trying to give myself excuse).. anyway later we went to this padini concept store... usually i'll be sitting there waiting for her to finish browsing through the clothers that they got... but then i got bored and went to look for her... great she found this wonderful dress.. and there are in 3 colour which is black,blue and white...so we took all three colours and try all of it...(crazy rite) trust me i look at myself and say i must buy this dress.... and this was the first time that i actually say that... so i look into my wallet and i don have enough money... what more may li wants to borrow rm20 from me and so i decided to leave it for another day... well maybe the other i will have a sponser from my mom... but anyway... i guess i regret buying the green one and should have brought the black...but they have already reserve the dress for me lo.. so i can alwiz get it another day...
finally may li finish her money and so have i... what are we to do...haih... thank you may li for turning me into one of the shopperholic... anyway... really hope i can have that dress soon
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Friday, December 17, 2004

sometime i was thinking what it is like to just cut your wrist... what will happen and finally today i got the answer....
the thing happen in the morning when my friend cut her wrist and trust me is an ugly sight... haih you can see the meat...( the doctor claim is fat).. anyway.. i see blood all around the room and people around all panicking... at last we went to the clinic..
and the cut was so bad that she have to be stitch.... i was by her side the whole time... watching from the procedur from going into the clinic till stitching till going out of the clinic and trust me is not a nice sight...
at first the doctor have to inject some painkiller but i douth it help much...watching the doctor moving the thing in and out and around the wound doesn't make me stronger while i need to comfort and assure her that is jus a while(i guess i'm not convincing at all cause i can't even convince myself)..... then the doctor start to push in the meat(fat) inside to place and then they hold up the "jarum" which i think is more like a fishing hook... and the string... first they start from the middle to cover up the hole... blood were gushing out and the whole thing was so messy... the doctor have to use the "fishing hook" to hook the skin and tie 3 knots there.... trust me is not a nice sight... at last 9 stitches were done.... suprissingly the bleeding does not stop and the doctor have to use the hydrogen peroxide to clean the wound and it is very painful....
after that they have to use some "plaster" which shape a I to stick the thing in place... and they put a very very big plaster over it....all were done n over....
the last thing is the doctor need to prescribe some medicine to her and give her a titenus jab.... trust me the whole process were horrifying and painful...
i think the doctor give us a very good price cause for 9 stitches and a jab she only charge us rm100.... which i think is very cheap... i think the doctor know that we do not have enough money so she give us a fair price.. thank you doctor...
one more person that i need to thanks is andrew tay... when i call him for help.. he jus wake up and he rush over to the house and willingly fetch us to the clinic and fetch us back... andrew thank you so so much i don know what can i do to repay you but maybe is true i found a kalyana mitra (spiritual friend) as in those friend that will help you no matter what happen.... trust me i'll appreciate what you done and friends foreva k...
through this lesson i learn why i should never cut my wrist..
1) you make the place bloody and blood are hard to clean
2) you need to go tru much more pain in stitches
3) you make people worry more about you
4) extra money to pay for doctor fees
5) means you don love yourself
in this lesson i really want to thank you... cause i would not know what it is like to cut your wrist... with this lesson i really really would not think about anymore...
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Thursday, December 16, 2004

as i say... i really don know whats wrong... i really don know if people can tell the different between love and lust... i don know how to tell this but you all judge yourself it is love or lust..
once upon a time there is this girl and guy.... they love each other alot... one day they break up alr and then this guy got a new girlfriend... this girl was so heart broken that she din not know what to do...
one day this girl and the guy plus a few friends went to a place to play... and this guy actually did sex with the girl for 2 times.... i really don know if you can say this girl stupid or not.... she know so well that they have already break up and he already have a girlfriend... what about the guy... worst till... he break up with this girl and got a new girlfriend... and actually did with his ex girl friend... you tell me who is right and who is wrong and what would you do if its you....
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i'm trying to do something about it so you can post your coment but somehow i don see it work anyway... so... today i woke up as ussual and went to the gym... surprissingly my throat sort of get better when i'm in the gym... my gym instrutor do not let me do too much cause he say that it will hurt my throat...hheheheh so i din do much there....
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Wednesday, December 15, 2004

what you people think about my board
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haih... my throat have been like that for the past 3 days already....drink water also pain what you think... haih i was thinking about maybe i'm having some sort of cancer then good lo... can skip skol and all the exam that i hate so much.... but then i also miss a chance to make a different in the world that i want to help people so much... so can't have cancer lo.... heheheh later i tell you about my dream...
i really don want to marry ... relationship this type of thing so messy and i don want to be involve... i want grow up earn enough money to adopt a few little cute kids... during the weekend i'll go to do some social work... what you think?? cool isn't it... heheheh
tell me what you think about my latest tag board... i have spend alot of time on this blog page k... so pls tell me is cooll.... thats all folk talk to you all soon k
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haih i also don know what i done to get such terrible sorethroath.... i can't even gulp down my own seliver without feeling the pain... haih what more about eating.... nvm la it get better
eventually i was hoping that i was sick but having a sorethroat is not fun at all... all you get is great pain... and i wonder how i got it seem like other people from camp don have a sorethroat... haih y i so malang one.... nvm la...
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Monday, December 13, 2004

hahahah you know what to expect when you came back from camp rite....
yes now i'm sick and tired... now i'm having flu and also cut at all my hand and leg... ok to be fair i is not all from camp some are from langkawi and the cut are cause by corals... those are really nasty cut lo... heheheheh...
those cut from the camp usually came from the rocks... rocks that cut when i have to walk bare footed in the lake and stuff like that... i have to do comando crawl in the lake also which is full of rock and so cut loh...
then now got flu and also sorethoarth also.. haih so sad rite.. but its worth it i think...heheheh gtg alr rest more ah... you sure tell me so tata
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while i was tracking down passing the cemetery.... i look up the sky and i saw stars.... what a wonderful sight alot of star and it really do look fake...plus i was the seven bright star and i know where am i plus i know where is the north striaght away... these seven star is call north star.... nice rite...
after the jungle tracking we were all tired out and we went to slp straight away... the next day we got obstacle course and if course i did nothing but run around lo... the guys did the job while i jus stand around.... but i do got hurt while doing it lo... cut at my leg and hand and stuff...well... there is nothing much there anymore about the camp..
the next thing is the bon fire is next to the kayak lake lo... it was fun la we play some games and so as a tradition we started the ghost story which is not really story cause its real... those people who experince it told us about it and it's really freaking me out.... later we went back to the domitry but we din't sleep.... as being girls we continue the ghost story as my friend can see them so she got alot to tell... i can't take it so i slp... when i wake yp is about 3 am and they were still talking about story.. what happen was the electricity went out all of a sudden and freak us all... then the committee came to call us out... it is the operasi burung hantu(those that went to camp b4 you know what is it like rite) i sit there for 2 hours... 2 hours and i was so bored...
that day i only got 2 hours of slp so ystd i can't finish my blog really sorry ah so i finish it today lo....heheheh.
after the obh(operasi burung hantu) we got kayalna mitra activity(kalyana mitra means spiritual friends mean that friends that can help you no matter what you are where you are and what happen to you) is also sort of like good bye ceremony....we hug each other saying good bye and good wishes and so we cried.. alot of ppl cry lo... including guys... it was horrible i cried till eyes also red alr.. but is good i mean i get to releases the stress in me or whateve so....
after that we have disco dancing to say good bye and we exchange number and off we go... home
hmmm home sweet home... even i'm happy to go home after the food and place that i stay but i'm sad to say good bye to people that i life togather with for 4 days..... i really hope that the friendship stay and never b forgotten.... guys and gurls that reading this from the camp... i really really hope you meet you guys soon k... take care and study hard.... good luck for your future undertaking k....
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Sunday, December 12, 2004

i reach home about 11 and pack my back till 1 am and then wake up at 6 and then off i go to camp.. seriously i don know anyone there.... i went there alone to see if i can find some friends...
i reach there all alone and the forst person i talk to is sue lynn and amanda lee..i went in a register then i sit alone and write a paper about what i like to do and stuff( i don know what are they up to)then this girl name li ching came and sit with me and so this is my first very ydc 13 camp friend.... lucky when i was writing i saw zhen yuan and jia wei plus henry walking in.... yes i know them and i'm ever so glad to see them there.... we talk and then we went up to ther bus... i sit with li ching but of course we were sleeping along the way...
the place that we go is in banting in a military camp... we reach there and we went to our domitary... to my surprise there is only 10 girls and 40 guys... so we girls became really sloce togather and we talk about alot of things... we were split in to different group and so i was split in to 6 group each group got 2 girls and so i'm in the same group as ashley....
ashley and i soon became good friends and we share alot of things that good friend share...
the activities was ok... we have abseiling which i tried to did to abseil from 70 feet a 90 degrees slope... well guess what i was shivering but at last i did it... it was really a good experince even it is extra tiring and also breath taking.... the next thing is kayaking... the thing is not really tiring lo... but eventually we got bored and we start to splash water to people around us and make sure that the comittee must be all wet...hahhahah so we no need to guess yes i'm also all wet...
next thing is the nite tracking...we went tracking in almost the middle of the night and my friend that can see "things" can see things la.... but she din tell us till later lo.... the floor was slippery and wet and it really hard to get up lo... but he hold and and slowly we got up as a group... YEAH!!! WE DID IT!!!!
the next thing that really freak me out is the ghost story that they share during the camp fire and trust me you don want to know... i'll tell you la but not now k...we sing and we dance and stuff like that....
haih now i'm really tired la..
i continue next time k.... remind me k...tata
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hie ppl... how are you.. long time no see rite.. i went to langkawi and also camp so you ppl miss me rite for the past one week... this blog i'm going to talk about langkawi and the next one i'll talk about camp ok?!
well i went to langkawi on monday.. my dad drove us there and we sit the ferry to go there... well the journey is long and boring one but well is worth it...
the first day we went out for shopping cause our hotel is near the city and so we as tourist went for a "walk" near the hotel and i brough some thing for my friends..(hopefully is enuff and they like it)
the next day i went to the jeti station again and we went to pulau payar... there is nothing much there only go there for snokerling... well i saw alot of wonderful fishes... i think they were cute till they start to nibble me...then i sort of kick them away... heheheh... i saw alot of wonderful corals... the water is not that clear anymore but you still can see la...i saw the thing is like finding nemo scene.. the fishes swiming in n out from small to big.. ahhhh wat a wonderful sight(jealous or not??).. towards the end of the "trip" i saw 2 black tip baby shark.. they were so cute but i don take any chances... what happen if they bite...well anything can happen right??and i also saw sword fish.... (now i believe they exsist... i though they were only fairytales)welll..... amzing isn't it..
now lets talk about the alst day and the best day of all... i went to see the helangs.... bat and also alot of wonder fish...plus natural sight seeing..... auuuoooo.... so sad i wanted to post the pic here but i don know how to do it... anyway too bad muiahahahahha....
first thing for the trip i went to the fish village and guess what i saw.... i saw 2 stingray and best part id i get to see them feeding them...( they don seem to want me to feed them cause they alwiz swim away when i do that "sob sob"anyway we say life oyster and alot more sea fish which they rare.... jealous leh... there is more to came...
next we went to feed the eagle... nice,graceful flyer of the sky.... can you believe it i saw about like 50 eagle flying togather...the back is more on orange and thenthe stomach is like white... so wonder sight and also the sound...ahhh can never forget...we saw them scooping up food and brough to the trees to eat them... so cute rite... the best part is we saw life puffer fish in the middle of the river(natural habitat) i was so high that i can't help jumping around... cause the only time i saw puffer fish is in underwater world.....what make me more excited is i was a life jelly fish passing by... the thing is so beautiful.. trust me... is better then the jellyfish you see in the tank...
then i went to see the bat "sleeping"nothing much there jus see them hanging upside down and slp(my mom though that they sleep like human) hahahahha shhhh!!! don tell her that...hahahah
we saw the amazing scenery..really i feel like i'm in amazon the feeling is wonderful jus sitting at the speed boat with wind blowing your hair and the scenery is jus to much for words... i really don know how to describe it....
the sadly we have to go home cause of me(camp the next day so sad)sob sob but i guess we will came back again when the eagle grow big...
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