Saturday, November 27, 2004

some people tell me that first love are very hard to forget... well i don know about other people but yes it is for me... to tell the truth till now i am still trying hard to forget... but anyway i guess i'll get tru it
well of course it hard to forget when you do all the first time togather... it really take courage to do your first time... first time asking(almost taking your life)... first time holding hands... first time hugging... first time kissing... well who can forget all this thing in such a short time... but anywa... people jus have to continue with their life and find the right one...
will this first time really need alot of courage and determination inside you to do it....
but past its the past and you can't do anything to change it...everyone know this for a fact.. really who want to hang on... but if the fact can be done so easy no one will kill themself in the name of love...but who can get past this can grow stronger....i really hope that all the coupples can be happy and never have fight... but as they say only fight can strenghten relationship but also can break it.. but a peaceful relationship is not a blessing but it can turn the ship over anytime... |

sometime love is unexplainable.... is hard to predict too... cause as they say anything can happen and is true for love...they also say love is a emotion that cannot be explaine and it is also least studied... so the question what is love can't be really explaine... when you are in love you say you are in love... but when you are out of love you ask what is love....
things like this are really cannot be predicted... even you might thing that everything is fine.. the last minute even if you are in the church you can also call a stop to your marrriage...even couple that have been dating for like 7 years can jus break up just like that..... or couple that have been engage can also just break off.... i guess no one in the world can give advice on what to do about your love life....
i've been though a relationship and of course there are up and down... so when you are in the high tide you hear yourself smile and say this is love and you are so sure of it... but when you on the low tide you will ask what is love...so no one can really define love...
some may complaine that their partner alwiz stick to them but do they know why... cause their partner really miss them and really want to know what are they doing... what are they thinking...... are they missing you as well...... when someone really stick to you also means that that person really want the relationship keep going and not break off....
sometime i've been thinking if the guy really love you then no matter how you test them they will also not forget your love.... but as i say love is very unpredictable... man like that say if you let them go they will just go wild.... srry guys but this thing is a guy that told me....
what he told me is that stick to him and not let any other people to have a bite... this may sound selfish but i have tried it before and you really don want to know what is it feel like.....but there is a sentence that i hope what he say is true... and i'm not putting it here till the thing really happen... |

yeah!!!yesterday i went out with my ex.... so happy actually din't intend to go out with him but jus see him and meet a friend then go to sunway pyramid with may li... but then i think is accident...
cause i'm stuck in ioi mall when i want to meet a friend and may li wanted to see a show at 1pm and her show last till 4pm and by the time i finish watching a movie with yh is it raining so i can't go... so end up me walking with him alone yes alone....
it was nice we went to eat a&w his treat and of course sushi king with my other friend which me and him split the bill to 2...
but anyway i was so full i can't eat breakfast the next morning....
but still the best part is he sent me home.... so nice... what a wonderful day...
but of course this cames with a price to pay..i lepas may li aeroplane... well is my idea to go to sp with her... but lucky she not mad... and also i think i spoilt peoples day...i spoilt yeong hui day out with his friend lo.... which i feel extra not nice... and my other friend have to rush here to see me..... haih.... |

Thursday, November 25, 2004

so bored for the holiday and really there is nothing much that i can do.... don know why i spend this holiday like at home.... not like last year when i got "someone" to go out with me every week... but now different i'm single and actually not available... haven really recover from my last disaster....
maybe i'll never find another bf(boy friend)... i really don know but maybe is me that is pestimistic.... i don think any boys now (currently) is worth my time and effort... what would they do after you put in your time and effort??sometimes your efford pay off but then sometime they just say bye and fly away... they don give a damn about you...
anyway i think sometimes girls can live better withour guys... but of course some think that we need opposite to survive..... sometimes think of it... i think is the guys that need the girls to survive.. without girls the guys would not have proper meals and may lead a very unhealthy life..... with all the beer and maggi mee....haih......
sometimes leh is not that you are not good but is just that the other party don like you.... if the other party don like you no matter what you do is not enough... but if the other party like you... then non matter how many bad points you got he will also not mind... that is why they say love is blind.....
after the last relationship...i relaly don hope to be in one anymore lo... is too hurting....last time i use to think what am i gona do without him but now look at me... i;m still alive and well |

Monday, November 22, 2004

actually in this live i have bless with alot of good friend... not to say friends forever but at least enough for us to sustain a good memory of it..(nothing is forever)
i remember my friend samanta from the same kindergarden..i don not have friends at all but only her.. i really don know why but people seem to run away when they see me...(not that i look like monster but i jus don know why kids don like to play with me) that is why i hate kindergarden soooooo much... but who cares cause like every kid i'm force to go there and have to stay extra long hours till my dad came to pick me...my mom is a house wife but that time she is having my baby brother so i have to stay in a place where there is no friends but thanks so samanta my only friend...
when i came to primary i only know my neighbour teo hui ching which is in the same class as me... well lucky she got a brother to teach her how to speak mandrin while i have to learn it all by myself.. so everytime when i want to go to toilet i'll ask her how to ask the teacher in mandrin and trust me its funny...that time i really though friends are forever... and i mean best friend...
when i rich about standard 4 my group of friends change...and there i meet adeline and tze meng which both are now in another country....
not to say secondary school... meet tons of people but people with poor memory like me alwiz forget people name...fine... my best time in secondary school was in from 4 and 5 which i know tracia, yu min,may li,tee yan(money tan),chun huey,sue hui and blah blah blah
now that i'm in form 6... my closest friend still have not change but i've meet wonderful friends and you all know who you are..
but jus as usual keep me wondering how long will it last...
funny thing but time really can push people apart not to say i'm trying to say i purposely want to end the friendship but.. yes we are still friends but maybe from clost friends to hi bye friends then till maybe we meet on the road we mite not even reconize each other...
nothing last forever....yup so true... jus try to think back what happen to your kindergarden friends.... do you still remember who they are and where are they..... |

i don know whats wrong with me all of a sudden i jus have the idea to write blog(even if is jus nonsense)... well anyway jus to inform you guys that my monitor was burn by lightning(arrr.... so angry y the monitor) so i only get to write my blog only and if only my dad bring his laptop back... so anyway i hope you all ahev a nice time reading all my rubbish that i have written and i hope you will ask for more(hahahha) have a nice holiday and don need to miss me till the skol start...tata people |

i'm jus replying to my own comment on haih..... guys....
now now people don jump into conclusion... anyway kiat i have meet this guy before and is not those online people... i meet him in utp so he is not the same guy you are talking about...
but anyway this guy... well i don kno what he is thinking but i think he is sending mix signal(if you want to put it supicious this way...) anyway we should not bother too much cause if he really wants to be more then friends then he will have to ask not hinting.....
but then i really don understand why girls can't be best friend with guys... really there are somethings that a girl can only tell a guy friend which really can't tell a girl friend... seriously i got alot of secret that only my guy friends know and not even my closet friend know about it... but still the same like what they say if guy and girls can be best friend pigs will fly...hope someone prove me wrong |

Sunday, November 21, 2004

i was thinking about perfume and decided to share with you all... that day i was readong an article about dogs... they say that dogs give out a smell when they are ready to mate so the male dogs will smell it and came to them... this make me think about perfume.. is perfume work the same??
nowadays alot of people especially girls like to wear perfume and why is this so... to smell better.... but i think the part to smell better means to also attract the male species right...
actually i don see the reason to wearing perfume because it don have much purpose.. like say... a bottle of perfume is over a hundred dollars for jus maybe 100ml...to me is jus some liquid that smell nice and is it worth it....
some people think that the more perfume they wear they will smell nicer... well sometime if it is so why not pour the whole bottle of perfume to you.... sometimes you walk past a person and you smell a strong smell of perfume...i really can't stand that smell...
well to me perfume is nothing but waste of money
1) you spend so much for smelling water
2) people mite not like the perfume that you are wearing...
so whats the point of it....
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lets see... whats up with today.... nothing much jus went to the temple to do some good deeds....then went home as usual...
then i went online and meet this friend of mine.... his house must be quite rich i guess but his parents ussually out... cause today he told me that say he tried to cook a steak and nearly burn down the whole house.....
eventually he forgotten to put oil........ hahahah so his lesson no 1 is cook anything also must put oil.... so you see what has becoming to the world... when people cook also don know that they have to put oil first.... of course the steak went black means burn..
i wonder what happen if he went oversea to study... can he survive.... hmmm a mistery should ask him next time..... |

Saturday, November 20, 2004

well.... anyway i also don know what to say i really never though that john will still read my blog... well cause i'm alwiz so slow... but john i don know why but i can't seem to get in to yours...anyway...i want to thank you all the people that read my blog that included yuen teng and john and kiat who willing wait for it to came (even if it took ages)... thank you..... |

yeah i watch the incredibles and its for free...walao with the free pop corn and stuff... anyway... the movie was great but i din't really get to enjoy it cause it was quite of cold in there and i was shivering( who can enjoy movie while shivering)
i really love it... the incredible move..... wah.. anyway i love jack jack and his power... i think his power are the best... well you will not know it till the very end... but just to spoil the fun i'll tell you about it...
jack jack was kidnap at the end of the show and that is where he show his super power... his power was to burn himself.. and to be a metal which is tonne heavy... plus he can transform himself to be a devil... well well well.... no one in the family know about it yet so shhhh.....
i think jack jack is the unique one cause he can transform so many things... mr incredible only have great strengh while mrs incredible can only be flexible.... dash only can ran fast while the girl... ok fine 2 powers.... but i still think the baby is the coolest of them all... |

hahahah i jus read my friends blog and here i am ready to blog again... sometimes i really don understand guys( what wrong with them..) well of course... the guys will think whats wrong with us girls also.... well i guess is nature to let us NOT understand the other species...till we find the RIGHT one...
hmmm i just meet this guy a month ago and i chat with him almost every other nite IF we happenen to meet online.... then jus happen to talk abit more about each other... well... get to know him as a nice guy don smoke.. drink abit... over all a nice guy...well... i don think so... whats more i think he is a play boy not that i have any discremination agains them but... haih.. playboy can really hurt someone really badly...quite friendly but...don know....
I jus don know why but some girls i mean some have to take it as all the guys in the univers as potiential boyfriend(i won use the word bf after i watch white chick hahhaa)and mind you i mean special... sometimes is easy to see that even if he looks nice but he is not suitable so forget it and save all the heartbreak... I was wondering can girl ever be best friend with guys??? nay i relaly don think so unless they are really clear about it...
talking about best friend i really don have one... i also don know y would you need a best friend... i have loads of good friends but i think there is more to it gua.... anyway this guy one day came to me and ask if he would be my best friend.... as in really best friend... but i really don think so cause i think he don even know me enough to even be my good friend...haih... so whats the point |

lets see what should we talk about today... i pratically got no idea.......
hmmmm.... anyway why not we talk about study... is it really important for someone to earn a better living through education...
well in the olden days its true... because to became a scholar you need to study alot... but is it true in this modern society..... i really don think so...
sometime you see successful business man who maybe jus finish their form 5...even you don see alot of them around but is enough to prove it wrong... i'm not saying that we should not forget about education... education still play an important role but sometimes there is no use forcing your son or daughter into studying what they do not like... why not let them do what they like and for all you know they might be more sucessful then you think they will be....
So what if you are very well-educated sometimes in life you need knowledge that is out of the book... we cannot just relie on the book... if we do then we will all became robots that only know whats in the book... we as human must learn to live... as in learn what is needed in life...and also we must not forget our moral values....that is what is more important then education... |

Sunday, November 07, 2004

srry to all my fans out there but i currently facing some technical problem that is writer block hahahha......
anyway this few days i've been thinking wat to write also... anyway so i came up with this crap
wat do we mean by nothing...
does nothing really mean nothing????
well i don think so.... nothing actually mean something
like when you go into a room and your mother ask you what have you got in there and you reply nothing... does it really mean nothing??? no course not there is dust particle and maybe some old junk so how can you say there is nothing
next thing... when i gul was about to get read for an important nite she will usually open her closet and say she got nothing to wear... now now we know that is not true... if she really got nothing to wear then she must be living in a nudist camp for all her life....
well you see nothing really means something..
like when your dad ask you what have you been doing... and you will answer nothing... well if you really have been doing nothing then you really have been staring at the wall... well at least i think staring at the wall also means you are doing something.. so when you say nothing means you are lying...
Anyway here's the conclusion when ppl ask wat are you doin don say nothing cause nothing means something...
(well i'm crazy for the moment if you understand wat i'm talking about pls tell me) |