Tuesday, October 19, 2004

i don know what to say or what to do... i feel extreme guilty of what have been done... i know that all that i say i can't take it back...but i can't let this wrong to continue,.... i really don know what can i do....
I need alot of time off.... my ex like is another gul which is my friend... how would you feel if your friend told you all the little outing they had....
sometimes i really feel like crying...i really think i'm gona suffer from depression... the only place that i can escape all this is school and even my last resort to school has also change.... change completely... why do all this thing have to happen at one go... i really don understand.... can you tell me?? any one got a answer???
haih i'm really tired of all this relationship thing i really want a rest...what more else do you want me to do???
You tell me pls... u know who you are... i'm really sick and tired.. i really can't take it any longer...
i don know la... maybe i'm not a good friend at all nor am i will ever be a good girlfriend... why can't you forget it like how i did with my ex and start all over again( as in life move on)
i've move on... i know is better... i know that me and my ex is not mean for each other... i have already accept the fact that he like my friend and they are better togather.... why can't you. |

Saturday, October 09, 2004

what is the meaning of friends when they keep lying to you non stop... two faces telling different things and different from the truth....
i got a friend that tell me jus the opposite....hmmm... i can't tell you the name but it really hurt me alot.....
she say jus alot of hurtful things which she know that she will hurt me very badly.... i would like to think as in she is helping me but i can't do that.... it is jus to fake to be true and when i learn about the truth i can't help thinking that is she my friend or is she someone that only here to hurt me and bring the gap bigger...
me and my ex have break up for quite sometime and sad to sad is very hurting and then thie friend name A keep comforting me and thank god i got better.... but still i can't get over it after such a short time...
anyway later she say the oppsite of wat she say to me to my friend... what is the meaning of it??? i really don know and i don understand...
after all i trust her words and she betray me with a few lies here and there which is of course hurting and not to say it was about my ex...it really hurt me alot....
I know... i know he likes another gul but then i'm facing the fact but why can't she let me do it slowly and give me one big blow....
one single big blow enough to take away my one nite sleep...trust me is not a nice feeling about what she has to say....
i jus told my ex about what she say and he was so angry with her.... i was thinking maybe she would be trying to help me get over him but then is not the right way... is not right to tell lies and make the hurting part get worst... it is not suppose to be like that friends are suppose to heal it not put salt on it...
i jus hope that i won get any more of this type of friends.. no offence but with friends like this who need enermy....
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Friday, October 08, 2004

sorry for the long wait for my blog... thanks to my supporter (yuen teng) hahahahahah anyway i'm back.... sorry because i got exam and jus at the same time my com got virus so this is my dad com.....
finally my exam's over.... hahahahahah what more can i say.....
hmmm let see what can i say about from 6 is harder then i tot but i guess i can handle hahahha
this time i guess i'm gona fail everything but i hope to pass my chemistry...
ahhhh here cames malaysian idol
i gtg i write somemore k next time |